tennchick9598

I have been taking tramadol, for about 2 years and at my peak, taking up to 30 a day, im at about 15 a day now, this drug scares the hell out of me. I feel like without it, i am not a goo enough person, not as good a lover, mother cook friend, whatever, i will actually cancel events around whether i had enough pills. I have lied to doctors pharamcists family members you name it. I have stolen money from my husband and pawned things to get money for these little "wonders" I am so fully afraid of running out that i get overwhlemed and depressed and think maybe I should just end it all and not have to worry anymore. I have truly thought that before. I would not take mine until nighttime and then take about 20 spaced over 3-5 hours for the High the euphoria, that great feeling. I went to the Dr. today, a new younger one and explained almost exactly what was going on ( i said i was taking about 12 a day) I dont know why i couldnt go all the way telling him but i didnt. He was really nice and understood, of course he wrote me a scrip for 120(no refills() with instructions to taper down(no SPECIFIC) instructions, tho. and i am to gradually introduce neurontin into my system to build up to 300 mg a day of that. How should i taper with only 120 pills left. I am sooooo afraid and would love some advice. I dont really know if i can do this, i am sooooooo DEPENDENT on this drug it is truly terrifying. im not spelling too well today, but can someone help me out, i have lots of the neurontin, and i have about 60 xanax, can anyone give me a REAL plan to follow and help me out of this prison of a bottle? Love to all and prayers to those in my shape,
ps.. I also have a bottle of about 50 xanax, and i really want this to work whats the best to do what the dr. says or the xanax or what???

Anna

Hi lady,

Welcome and please know that you can do this. You are not alone.

I am an addict too, an alcoholic, but the feelings are the same - the idea that you never have enough, but that any amount you have is too much.

What I've learned about Xanax from being around SR for quite awhile is that it is highly addictive. My strong suggestion would be don't use it, get rid of it. Your dr didn't give you a specific plan to cut down, but most drs don't know how to deal with addiction or contact an addiction specialist. You can make a plan and you can stick to it. Cutting down according to a plan you set up for yourself can work. It's something you can do and we're here to support you.

laurie6781

Tennlady welcome to SR.

You obviously realize you have a problem and since we ARE NOT DOCTORS I would strongly suggest with the amount of pills you are taking, that you contact an ADDICTION SPECIALIST who in all liklihood will help you to get into a medical detox facility.

You are definitely endangering your life!

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing, but please, please, find a way to get into a Medical Detox.

Love and hugs,

Jwife22

If you have an addictive personality I'm not sure I'd take xanax. My husband is addicted to xanax, that's the only drug he does as far as I know. It has been VERY hard for him to quit. It is also VERY dangerous to stop taking once you've started without a doctors supervision. It can lead to seizures, respiratory arrest, etc.

I'd probably talk to an addiction specialist who knows exactly what to do in your case.........that's what my h. did.

tennchick9598

Thank you for your answer, i dont know what happened, i got em now tho.....many thanks, do you think the level i am on is absurdly high? highest you ever heard of? I dont know what to do, regular docs dont seem to know either

Anna

You can go to an addiction specialist who will have more information. You can check yourself into a rehab centre. There is a way to manage to do this and we're here for you.