faderoxy

wow.
thank you so much for everyone's response and undying support.
it helps so much more than i would have ever expected.

this weekend i attended the rainbows festival in downtown phoenix...
i did drink a few beers.
i was proud that i did not drink as much as i coud have...or even as much as i wanted to.
there is still some shame though that i have been feeling.
i am not sure if cold turkey is the way for me.
okay...i really do know that way is the only way, for me.
i was just so scared.
i gave into my fears and had a few drinks.
at some point...i just started feelng sorry for myself and realized that i was doing the wrong thing.
it took all of my strenght to stop.
but i did it.
i know that this win was small...but it feels so big.
thank you again for everything.

REZ

Have you tried going to NA or AA meetings? They saved my life and could save yours too. SR is a good online forum but is not substitute for the support you can get from face-to-face meetings with people.

faderoxy

i have definately considered going to meetings.
i realize that professionals swear by NA and AA meetings.
and so do the people that attend them.
i am starting to get comfortable with the thought of going.
uncertainty and discomfort still lingers.
but hopefully i will be able to take that step soon.
thanks for all of the support.

Midas

I was pretty nervous (and drunk) when I went into my first few AA meetings. I was still drinking into the 2nd week. I didn't think I would survive...but I did.

"You don't HAVE to drink anymore," they told me.

"I, I don't??"

"Nope."

"Stop drinking. Go to meetings. Pray (or meditate), Read the BIG F*ng Book. Call your sponsor. Talk to others in the program."

"Yeah?"

"uh huh!"

"Sounds easy enough."

"You're NOT ALONE anymore."

"Nice. Thanks. Hugs."