Darwex

This is my first post on this forum, which I didn't realise existed until I decided to look up alcoholic forums on google. And I must admit it looks very nice... with some fantastic people.

My personal situation is that I'm still drinking, but do recognise I have a problem. It's started to affect work - I've not been to work now for a week - and always has affected my relationship with everyone around me.

When I've been drinking I turn into a one-man disaster area.

I know I have to stop. Rather I HAVE to stop before things get so far out of hand that I'll never be able to.

However I am very scared of quitting... frightened to death actually.

I am going to try and I'm glad this forum exists because I'm sure in future it will help a great deal.

Yours,

Darwex.

Ann

Welcome, Darwex, glad you joined us. Stick around and share the magic of recovery with all of us. If it's hard for you right now, we'll share our candles of hope with you until one day soon, you too will stand in the light.

Hugs

ndgrace

welcome, dawex,
this site is awesome, I find lots of great experiences here, and it is so wonderful to communicate with others who have been there.

syster

hi darwix


yesterday i stayed home from work (alcohol sick) i normally don't let myself do that, but i just couldn't get up and do it. i was searching around too and found this board. i think you will be welcomed warmly--and the understanding feels pretty good too.

today is my day #2

Lizrox

Welcome to the boards Darwix. Keep on posting and sharing..

Darwex

It's a hard long road isn't it.

I'm glad that this forum exists.

Because it will give me the strength to continue what I know needs to be done.

I need to stop drinking.

Darwex.

Anna

It is a hard, long road Darwax, but it's so rewarding.

I was scared to death of quitting, too. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to manage life without alcohol and didn't even know what I would do with my life. That is the addict part of your brain talking to you. Take a step outside the cycle and you'll find that you can do this.

Darwex

Thanks anna for your reply.

My fear isn't just about drinking - it's also about facing up to the fact that in the past I've done some terrible things whilst under the influence of a highly destructive drug.

I've done some terrible things whilst drunk.

I want all of this to stop.

Darwex.

Candy Scratch

Hi Darwix!
You've come to the right place -- this forum is such a great place for information and support. There's a great thread called What to Expect When you Quit Drinking and I found it very helpful while I was still contemplating the idea. Have you considered going to AA for a look-see?

I think it's so terrific that you realize you have a problem and want to change your life for the better. It can only get better from here on in.

Best to you,
Chris

Darwex

Maybe I can be honest now.

Both my son and my wife have come home. They have found me in the usual state - i.e. drunk.

I don't like the word "drunkard" but then again that's me isn't it ?

All of the posts have been brilliant.

I know what I need to do now...

Yours,

Darwex.

PS Please get the name right in future lol....

CarolD

Welcome Darwex...

I hope you find your path to sobriety
I found mine in AA.

Blessings to you and your family..

Darwex

Thanks again to all of you.

I need to find "a path" - or rather something which will work for me.

Huge thanks,

Darwex.

Candy Scratch

My mistake! So sorry!

Chris

Darwex

Just to let you know I've contacted AA now and have had a really good chat with a guy called Jamie.

I really want to try to make this work this time (my wife has been hearing this for years).

Thanks for the votes of confidence.

Yours,

Darwex.

PS Yep, it is my car lol

syster

made it home from work.... stopped to get gas and walked right pass the beer and bought one of those new jazz pepsi drinks. so no beer tonite.
congrats on what you have done today!!

laurience

I have done many terrible and shameful things in the past too. It is a very tough pill to swallow. I decided to quit drinking yesterday so today is day 2. Darwex, what gets me the most is I know that if I continue drinking something HORRIBLE WILL HAPPEN. Ticking time bomb and then there will be no turning back. That fear is enough for me to quit and the love for my hubby and kids. My biggest problem is that I seem to forget how bad it is and then start drinking after a few weeks. Not this time.. Just wanted to let you know your not alone.
Joanne

72199

I haven't taken a drink in almost 5 years and haven't really wanted to either THANK GOD! When I stopped drinking, my biggest fears were that I would lose my personality and that I would actually be accountable for the things I said and did. Good luck with the family.