aasharon90

Well, i made it thru today without drinking. Yeah..! I noticed yesterday at work i had to go down the wine isle to return a bottle. When i got there i felt the temptation extremely strong....i set the bottle down anywheres and left emmediately.

I guess i have anxiety over this time of the yr.and then the neighbor upsetting me again this afternoon...no not upsetting me...pissing me off...lol

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. You know the feeling?

Drinking wont solve my problems..they will still be there no matter what i do....i just want to be happy in my life and that im not here in houston...

sniffle sniffle.. : )

BuDoc

I am good today... It was a couch potato day! It's my day off. Everything appears to have worked out at work. I am being transferred yet again. But, to a male honor dorm and with a manager that I get along well with. Between the family health crisis with my Daughter In-Law Laura and baby Lillian, and the drama and garbage at work, this has been an extremely stressful and trying couple of months. But, through it all I stayed clean and sober! Today is day 118 for me. Saturday will be 4 months, whoohooo!!!

Hang loose, "Doc".

chicago

overall had a pretty good day today. work dragged a little but i got home and have been relaxing ever since. cleaned my place a little, threw my clothes in the washer, and added 150 songs to my mp3 player. its day 305 for me...i keep getting this overwhelming feeling of positivity about my recovery. i cant believe that im actually putting together some time. its great.

sometimes usually when im coming back from a meeting ill be listening to my music walking home or to a bus and ill get this feeling of warmth throughout my entire body. i think its the presence of God in my soul. i used to talk to my sponser about feeling lonely and he would tell me that im never alone with God in my life. im starting to actually feel that. this program is teaching me patience, knowing that everything happens on God's time and when its meant to be. he will give me what i need WHEN i need it.

scaredykat

Hi Sharon, I didn't have a very good day today. I woke up very depressed. I just joined this forum and I want to quit drinking again after Christmas. I'm thinking about going to rehab again and I'm scared to death. I have other health problems now and don't know if they'll be able to help or understand. I live with chronic pain and can't sit or stand for long periods of time. I was hurt from a ex-husband is what caused it. Thanks for listening.

aasharon90

Thanks chicago and scaredykat for ur shares. I read it shortly after u both posted and wanted to reply then, but got side tracked.

First im glad u both r here. Glad u both shared with what was going on with u that day. I hope today was an ever better day then that one. Each day as we stay sober and clean its another step in the right direction to living a more happier way of life.

Share anytime with whatever is going on with u....just letting people know where u r in ur recovery can give them hope and let them know they r not alone.

Im glad ur here.

So how was ur day today?

aasharon90

Well you guys i made it here to Baton Rouge. : ) We got here safe and sound. Yeah..! Im tired tho...long afternoon of driving. My room here at the hotel is very nice and comfortable. Anyway... a good nights sleep and i should be good as new tomorrow. : ) Ill keep u posted as the week conitues.

Anything happening with u were u r?

aasharon90

Hi....Im in the process of relocating and while
my mind is on that, i still think of u guys..... : )

Esp. folks i havent seen or heard from in a little while.

I know this is a busy time of the yr. but i still need
to check in here with u guys as a way to stay focused
on my program .

Im wondering where Budoc is....

He normally pos in to lets us know how things r going
with him....

Budoc...if ur around....show urself.... : )

Folks like me r missing ur shares and updates.

I miss u guys more than u know when i
dont hear from you...

BuDoc

I'm still alive and well... My Son and I just returned from a pretty harrowing trip to Colorado and back. Bad weather and driving both ways. We got out just in time too. Beautiful country, and I want to go back, just not in mid December. A good trip overall. Work is busy, my residents are gone for wiinter break, so we have allot of cleaning and maintenance we do while the dorms are closed. We had a Senator visit yesterday, that was quite the dog and pony show...


Hang loose, Doc.

aasharon90

Hi Doc....good to hear from you....We went to Colorodo
on a trip and love it....beautiful country too.....

Glad u r doing well.....

Just wanted to let u know ur in my thoughts just like
many here that i do and dont hear from from time
to time... : )

BuDoc

Thanks Sharron, The most important thing is we made the drive to and from Colorado, in blizzard conditions and made it out safe and alive. Also I am still clean and sober... This New Years Day will be 5 months for me! I am feeling good physically and my thinking process is much clearer and saner now. Once again, thanks for checking on me...

Hang loose, Doc.

aasharon90

You betcha buddy.....since you have the knowledge of recovery
already applying it now to ur life should be rewarding. Esp this
time go round.

Glad ur doing good.....

Im with ya for the long haul.... : )

aasharon90

Today my daughter and husband drove back
to Houston. They were very instrumental in
helping me pack on short notice and get
my butt back in Baton Rouge pronto so I
can start my new bank job on Wednesday.

I finally finished a few minutes ago fixing up
my apt. I guess you dont realize how much
crap you can accumulate in ones life time till
u have to pack it up and haul it somewheres
else and unload it....

Anyway....i feel free right now....out from
under all those boxes.... whew..!

Tommorrow i go check to see when they
will connect my cable...im missing tv
noise. : ) Then i go for my blood or
urine test sometime during the day for
my job....

That is something im glad i dont have
to worry about....esp. since ive been
sober for 16 yrs now. No guilt there.

I also need to haul out those remaining
boxes and trash to the dumpster.

Oh, and i have a little care box of things
i dont want....where should i leave it?

Maybe the laundry room? I dont want
anyone to see me leaving it...i just want
someone to pick it up to make their day.

What do u think?

Well...how was ur Christmas?

aasharon90

This morning i checked on my cable and mail box..
No mail for me yet... Then drove to the Lab to
pee in a cup for my drug test...before i begin my job
tomorrow.

Came home to find a leek over my bed...YIKES..!
Good thing i had it protected which i normally due
for the cats....i have a pretty burgandy cordory Walmart
spread... : ) and with white fur from my cats...it
has to be protected...

Anyway...i walked in and saw a wet spot....hmmmm...
Did my cats take a urine test too while i was away and
missed the box...lol then i looked up and saw drips....

NOOOOO.....lol

So i called the office and a man came out pronto
to sweep the standing water off the roof..tomorrow
he will tar it....

And soooo life goes on...SOBER... : )

TGA

Erin,
I know excatly what you mean. I just starting walking in the monring. 5:40am, for about 2wks now. The key for me is that I put my gear right by my bed side and get out of bed and out the door. This way there is no time to do anything else, especially go back to bed. FYI

aasharon90

Today went along accordingly...I left for my orientation for the bank allowing myself enough time for traffic....smooth sailing all the way....wonderful....
There was just 3 of us in training today....

I was elected to change the tapes that we had to watch in the machine...rewind them until we viewed all of hmmmm about 4 tapes.

Then there was paper work and finally finger printed...YIKES..!

Ive never been finger printed before...

We finshed early and was sent home....tomorrow i report to my branch for further training my the head teller.....

So all in all....things continue to move along just as they are suppose to be....

Im just sooooo elated to be here in Baton Rouge....and Sober.....and have been given another chance to work banking like i did 20 yrs ago....in fact the head teller whom i will report to is name Cheryl....the same exact name as the girl who trained me 20 yrs ago ....coincidence?

None of this could be possible if i hadnt stayed sober and worked my program to the best of my ability....My HP had definitely been working over time with me....What an AWESOME HP..!

caladan

Try as I might to stay sober, I always fail. I spent last night in prison!!! DWI, of course. I don't know what else to say, I feel like the scum of the earth.

BrandiK

caladen, each day is a new beginning. (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) I am sorry.

aasharon90

Your absolutely right...you never have to
live the way u r living right now ever again....
All u have to do is have the Desire to stop
drinking and the Willingness to go to any
lengths to do so....

Try as a suggestion only....go to 90
meetings in 90 days and if u havent
been convinced that this program
of AA or NA works...then they will
gladly refunf ur misery....

Find someone sober and hold on tightly
to their coat tails ...once u get sober
drinking will never be the same....

I'mready99

I had a GREAT day helping my son in law lay hardwood flooring in his new house...

Its amazing how much you can get done without having a drink in your hand...

Good evening Sharon...



One day at a time.

Steve

aasharon90

Evening Steve... : )

Your absolutely right about that Steve,,,,Its a nice feeling
to be free from the drink....It's like ur in a new world...
Eyes wide open....seeing or feeling things for the first
time....It's pretty awesome and amazing. : )

Im glad u had fun with ur son in law.

Me, today was my first time to work at the bank
branch...Im mainly still in training...taking this huge
test but i have the manual to help find the answers...
like an open book....I never had to learn all that stuff
yrs ago when i first went into banking....I dont know
how i made it for 2 yrs like i did....im sure drinking
was a huge factorin helping me get by...

Now ...my concern is being able to read the
computer.....i have my glasses on and wont
really know till i have my own cash drawer
and computer....Im hoping once im right
in front of it then ill be able to see better...

See thats one of the disadvantages of getting
older...u start to lost things...lol eye sight too...

Let's see..what else...i go in tomorrow at 8:30
to 5....boy...i sure havent worked long hours like
that since i was 20 yrs old.... : )

And now im what??? lol

Well...i definitely like the pay....seeing that my last
job for 5 yrs was just minimum wage and they
wouldnt raise me because i wouldnt move up.

Well...no heart feelings...im just grateful to have
a full time job to pay for my apt. : )

Surely couldnt do any of this on my own
if i were drunk....

Your never to young or old to get sober or clean.