venuscat

I don't see it that way love. I see you continuously doing your best to overcome some big challenges, and it is not easy. But you keep moving forward, and sometimes you run out of gas. But only briefly. You never give up. xx s

Dee74

I think most of us can self-identify at one time or another with 'serial relapser' Leshar.
We're all still working at it, at different points, day by day.

Nothing to be ashamed of here

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Leshar

Thank you, Suze and Dee.
I am pressing on. Starting day 3. I walked a lot yesterday and challenged myself to some hills. I am so out of condition.

I suppose I wonder how my siblings can drink heavily and regularly and still seem to function well with apparently no adverse effects. It's a bonding thing between them. And we are all getting older, and they have no health problems it seems. I'm envious, I won't deny it. I know I have a big problem though.

Suze, thinking of you as you do your exam! Good luck!

venuscat

Thank you love, halfway through. I have been going for over four hours, so that is enough for now. It is due late tomorrow, so I should be fine now, I think. Phew. I was having a a panic attack early this morning over this, that's for sure. It is a HUGE exam; there are six separate sections.

Siblings and alcohol and other drugs....hmm....this is my situation as well. And I am not allowed to judge because I was the only one who ever got into real trouble. So I have said nothing for years. My older sister has more health problems than you have ever heard of, but she drinks when she wants to. And then doesn't. I have no clue to be honest.

Walking is good dear Leshar. I actually believe it is the cure for many things. s ❤️

Leshar

Thanks Suze. My goodness, your exam sounds exhausting!
Starting day 5. I'm walking every day and feel so stiff and sore! But, I will keep it up.
Yesterday was a bad day. Just felt really down. Worried about family wedding next year, my sister's son. I'll be sharing a rented house with my siblings and partners. It's so difficult alone. And celiac too and how to manage shared meals. Sets me even further apart. I just get no joy out of the prospect of going.
I wish my family was into playing board games, or trivia or such like, I love doing that. Instead it's just a drink fest and the same old rubbish stories and jokes. Ah well, it's not today, or tomorrow so I will just get on with today!

venuscat

I am the same dear Leshar, from the food to the games. I love games!! Board games especially.

samwitch

Hi everyone. I had a slip this weekend-I'm so mad at myself. I was so determined, but I let my guard down. Well, I'm back to not drinking and have learned yet another valuable lesson. Boy, do I hate alcohol.

Leshar

Hi Samwitch, I certainly understand. I've been struggling too. Don't be hard on yourself. Let's just keep going.

Dee74

welcome back Sam

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samwitch

Thanks Dee and Leshar. It's good to be sober.

lmvalentine

7 weeks for me today. I haven’t had any strong urges to drink even though my job is up in the air. I’m not freaking out with anxiety over it although an anxiety attack started it. I’m glad we are here together.

venuscat

Congrats love; 7 weeks is wonderful! ❤️

samwitch

That's great. I struggle with anxiety as well so I know how hard that can be to deal with.

Leshar

Hi Imvalentine, 7 weeks is awesome!
I'm going for a daily brisk hour walk and have lost a couple of pounds. I really have to push myself but it's good for me.
Starting day 6. I'm helping a friend sort stuff at her house this afternoon as she readies the place for sale. I haven't talked to anyone for ages, so I'm looking forward to this.

Dee74

Congrats on seven weeks ImValentine

congrats to you too Leshar on 6 days

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Leshar

Starting day 7. I feel exhausted after helping my friend. 5 hours of moving and sorting "stuff" and little progress was made as my friend can't let go of things. It's really an emotional time for her. I had planned to walk this morning but feel too wiped.
Hope others are well.

lmvalentine

I drank way too much coffee and couldn’t get to sleep last night. It wasn’t a bad day and I even received a compliment at work from the mean boss.

You don’t have to walk every day Lesher. We all deserve some downtime especially after dealing with a friend in an upsetting spot.

I’m old and tired. Goodnight!

Dee74

We continue here:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-2-a.html (Class of May 2022 Part 2)

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