Class of May 2022 Part One
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I'm in for one day at a time. I haven't had much to drink the last 2 weeks as I've had covid and haven't felt like drinking as I've been unwell. Even with being unwell I've had great sleeps, haven't woken up needing to go to the loo and not getting back to sleep, waking up with covid for me has been much better than any day waking up hungover.. Anyway, the last few nights I've had a couple of wines but it hasn't affected me or my sleep and I didn't want more than the 2 wines in fact I tipped the last of the glass out. Then last night I had a few extra drinks and boy did that make a difference!! Wide awake at 4am busting for the toilet, headache and feeling very groggy, this is mild but I certainly don't miss it.. Time for something different in my life..
And I can only do this by thinking about today only, if I cast my thoughts into the future I just never make the move to give up as there is always some event on.
Day 1..
And I can only do this by thinking about today only, if I cast my thoughts into the future I just never make the move to give up as there is always some event on.
Day 1..
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Bit of a close one tonight. Got home and hubby had clearly had quite a bit to drink. I went into our room and got on a meeting and he followed shortly wanting to talk and for me to make frozen pizza. I ended up stopping my meeting to make dinner and I said eff it and cracked a beer. But I really don't want to drink! I ended up having a good cry and pouring the beer out, thank goodness. I did get to join the meeting back for the end. I've heard some great and helpful things lately that I hope will help me. I started reading the aa book Living Sober and We are the Luckiest.
I heard someone today say sobriety without working the steps is just a wish. I'm not totally sure or all in on step work at the moment. But it really is sinking in that I need to be doing things even just learning more self soothing things if I am going to be successful.
Something also clicked today a bit about doing small chunks of sobriety to begin with. I thought 24 was the way to go, but I think I need smaller baby steps for a bit. Just saying no to AV hour by hour in the afternoons if necessary. I alway thought that was white knuckling and bad. Surely its ok for now if it works. I think it would be a problem if I was still trying to maintain that in 6 months!
Hope some of that makes sense. Lol. I am tired and all of the boys are a bit riled and loud at the moment. I need to go start trying to shoo them the way of bed.
So glad to be sober. Looking forward to day 3.
Night all! ❤
I heard someone today say sobriety without working the steps is just a wish. I'm not totally sure or all in on step work at the moment. But it really is sinking in that I need to be doing things even just learning more self soothing things if I am going to be successful.
Something also clicked today a bit about doing small chunks of sobriety to begin with. I thought 24 was the way to go, but I think I need smaller baby steps for a bit. Just saying no to AV hour by hour in the afternoons if necessary. I alway thought that was white knuckling and bad. Surely its ok for now if it works. I think it would be a problem if I was still trying to maintain that in 6 months!
Hope some of that makes sense. Lol. I am tired and all of the boys are a bit riled and loud at the moment. I need to go start trying to shoo them the way of bed.
So glad to be sober. Looking forward to day 3.
Night all! ❤
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Hi Citrus
I was used to drinking all day every day so at least initially it was hour by hour for me. That didn't last too long tho - the more days I racked up the more confident in my ability to stay sober I got.
I'm sorry your husband wasn't helpful when you were in a meeting, but I'm glad you poured the beer away.
I had a long long list of reasons to drink, but none of them were important enough to break my resolve when I knew I really wanted to be sober
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I was used to drinking all day every day so at least initially it was hour by hour for me. That didn't last too long tho - the more days I racked up the more confident in my ability to stay sober I got.
I'm sorry your husband wasn't helpful when you were in a meeting, but I'm glad you poured the beer away.
I had a long long list of reasons to drink, but none of them were important enough to break my resolve when I knew I really wanted to be sober
D
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Join Date: Dec 2016
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I'm glad you poured it out citrus, in my eyes that means you've got some strength..
My AV has worked really hard this arvo to get me to drink, it's tried to put me in several scenarios that would've eventuated in me drinking so I've had to talk myself out of these things and thankfully I'm now at home making relish with no wine in the house..
My AV has worked really hard this arvo to get me to drink, it's tried to put me in several scenarios that would've eventuated in me drinking so I've had to talk myself out of these things and thankfully I'm now at home making relish with no wine in the house..
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Today is 14 weeks sober for me. However, my husband hung himself last night. I found his body this morning. Alcohol claims another victim. My son without a father. Myself without my best friend and lifelong partner. I am still sober. I'm am, however, checking in with you all for a sober May. 😔 Alcohol is not worth it.
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In bed and sober, yaya! It feels amazing and I'm actually really proud of myself that I managed to beat the AV.. My partner and stepson are out of their isolation period tomorrow so it's back to work, however the mum doesn't want my stepson back unless he is completely negative which defies the rules we have here in NZ, he barely got sick at all and has been sympton free for about 5 days, I'm praying he is negative as I need a break from him as we are driving each other batty.. Anyway I'm sober and that's the main thing.. Good night all. I'm thinking of you BTG..
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Oh, BTG, I am so, so sorry for what you must be going through. An unfathomable loss and trauma. I do hope you have the support of friends and family and mental health services. Please accept my sincere condolences. Stay close.
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