Red78

I need to make this my day 1, I am very unhappy and drinking is keeping me in a place of unhappiness. I am not unhappy because I drink but for other reasons..
I can not make the necessary changes in my life whilst under the influence of this demon, it has to go.. It is the 1st step to getting my life back..

Backtogood

Welcome red, congrats on day 1 and making that step.

Dee74

welcome back Red

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Caramel

Onward.
Strength and courage to you

Red78

I need to be honest. I've come here for the same reason Ive come here other times, it is not just about the drinking, its about my partner abusing me when I've been drinking and blaming me and my drinking for him being abusive and it happened again last night plus a lot of other not nice things that were said.
I definitely drink too much, without a doubt but I need for him not to be able to use drinking against me.
So I need to stay extra strong in my resolve to beat this as I am feeling very weak..

Leshar

Hi Red, I'm so sorry that you are going through all this. You're in the right place to start upon change. Hope you're safe.

venuscat

I am here for you honey.....we all are. Lean on us. s

Sending you oodles of love. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ❤️❤️

Red78

Yea I'm safe, it's verbal/emotional not physical..
Thank u

freedomfries

Slept pretty much from 2pm to 4am. Not sure what's up with that, probably just catching up. Think I'll have a few coffees and start my day.

Red78

That's amazing FF I'm very envious of you, I would love that much sleep..

freedomfries

Yeah it was nice. I normally get 8ish hours but I guess I'm catching from unrestful drunk sleep. Probably back to normal tonight.

Anyway day 3. WD has eased up. Looking to the future. Going to head for a walk later, do some housework, strength training. Have a healthy breakfast after my walk. Well, probably just a protein bar lol. Going to meditate for the moment. 15mins.

Red78

I hope you have a good day FF..
It's 530pm here sat night, I'm about to cook tea which will be venison curry something new for me..
I've past the time of night that I would cave to the drink so I feel safe for tonight.
I am feeling exhausted, like a very heavy lethargic feeling, I'm not sure if it's from the hangover, or a form of WD(which I don't normally get) or just because of the emotional turmoil I'm in, whichever doesn't really matter I guess as long as I don't drink.. I might go to bed early and finish watching netflex limited series Midnight Mass and tomorrow look at making a plan to stay off the booze..

freedomfries

Venison curry sounds nice.

Red78

Hopefully it tastes nice too, I've never made a venison curry so will need to look up a recipe..

freedomfries

It's lashing rain so I can't go for my walk. And I had a frigging bacon and egg muffin for breakfast (homemade). It taste nice but 450kcal ish? Urgh. I made a deal with God in court that I'd get down to 63kg by July 1st. Guess I'll pace around the kitchen for a while. The good thing about focusing on diet is alcohol has crazy calories.

Be123

Morning FF and Red. Hope you have a good day after that sleep Freedom and I hope you sleep well Red.

I am going home today, so get up about 9:00, breakfast, drive back and do some domestic admin (washing and so forth). Check my cats ok having been looked after by the neighbours! Then I've got to get my car from the garage - it's cost a lot to keep on the road which is annoying. Then home and a chilled out afternoon watching sport.

Not going to drink today. Or ever again. I don't want to, nobody can force me, so I'm safe and secure

calmself

End of Day 97 - just wrapping up a late night comedy flick , had great fun. Ah life is so relaxing and real without alcohol.
Good night from Seattle!

Red78

97 days is amazing calmself!! You should be very proud of yourself..

I am going to sleep at the end of my day 1, I feel much better now than this morning and am hoping for a good sleep, will put an audiobook on and hopefully that will drift me off..

See ya all on the flip slide..

freedomfries

Rain cleared up so I got to go for a short walk. Still cold and windy. Going to chill with some Pepsi max now before exercise and dinner.

Leshar

Hi all, starting day 16, earlier than I'd like. Awoken by loud storm noise around 5am. grateful though, that not awakening early due to drinking. have a long drive with a friend this am, she's looking at a coat to buy. So tired. And I'm driving. I likely need a nap this aft!