Dee74

Last part here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-525-a-20.html (24 hour Recovery Connections Part 525)

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Dee74

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Bailey3

Thanks, Dee!

abcowboy

Thanks D-Man!

venuscat

Goodnight all ❤️

Hevyn

Phew - glad I'm still on the list.
I will have another 24 sober ones, please.

IcedVoVo

24 hours for me to start off the weekend right ⛈ Still raining in Texas, 6 weeks later,

xx

BarbieKen

🏡 🏡

Friday Night Live On The Porch Tonight ..... and 24 more for me❣️




Bobbi

Coldfusion

Glad to be sober today!

8:49 PM in the San Juan Islands.

1newcreation

Think I squeezed in before Friday’s day was shut for another 24

TiredCarpenter

IcedVovo, I’ll take some of that rain if you’re offering.
Up where I live it is a rarity to have our lawns turn brown from the heat. It’s happening this year.

Even being skirted to the north by forest, and having the typical temp drop to the mid or low sixties overnight hasn’t quelled the dryness any.
Fingers crossed for rain.

I look forward to another sober 24 hours.

Stay well SRers.

Endoftheday

Another 24 please , 6.22am

tgirl

Another one please

Daisybelle

06.37

Thank you for the new part Dee.

24 more for me please should carry me nicely over into Sunday.

Lots of love to all of you. xxx

Reid82

Thanks Dee for the update. In again for 24.

kenton

Hi everyone, hope you are all doing really well.

All good with me. I just wanted to share some thoughts....always helps me to write things down. So, for the last year or so, I've been working on my novel. I sent it out to agents a couple of years ago when I first finished writing it but I didn't realise that you should never send out a first draft. You should edit and edit and edit some more and get professional feedback if possible before you even think about sending it out. So, anyway the first time I sent it out, it got rejected by everyone. And I've spent the last year getting feedback and editing. Anyway, last week someone who works in publishing read the first 50 pages of my redrafted novel and really liked it and recommended it to a top literary agent! I mean, one of the THE top agents in London. Normally I wouldn't have the courage to send my work to someone like that but because I was recommended to her, I sent my work and she got back to me and said she would read it this week. So, that's all really exciting. But what's interesting and maybe some of you can relate, is what my AV has been saying about this whole situation.

So, first of all .. I'm not tempted to drink. I haven't drunk for over 4 and a half years at this point and I'm not in the least bit tempted to drink. But... I think this voice in my head is my AV and I wonder whether it's trying to get me to drink in a roundabout way by messing ever so slightly with my mind. So, this is what the voice has been saying... it's kind of a two pronged attack. Firstly, when I first sent my work to the agent last week, the voice was saying, 'Who the bleep do you think you are? You are a nobody. Less than a nobody. Why would an agent like that want to read your work? You are a joke. Laughable. Email the agent right now and say you sent it to her by mistake. Save yourself the humiliation of yet another rejection... and this rejection will feel worse than all the others because you've got your hopes up, you stupid fool.'

Now that it's Saturday and I haven't heard anything, the voice is saying, 'See!! I told you. If she really liked your work, she would have read it and got back to you by now. But she hasn't, because you are a failure. A monumental, embarrassing failure. You always have been and you always will be.'

The voice never seems to say anything nice.

And listening to it, I can see why I drank to drown it out in the past but now that I don't drink, I'm just listening to it and trying to use this situation as an opportunity to learn more about it. It's actually quite interesting - how much the voice dislikes me. It doesn't want me to succeed, it doesn't want me to be happy. It wants me to self-sabotage my chances at achieving my dreams and it catastrophises ALL THE TIME. By observing the voice, almost as an outsider, I can bring some rational thought into the equation. Even if this agent doesn't like my book, I was recommended to her by someone in publishing. That is awesome. That gives me confidence and inspiration to keep trying. Even if this book never gets published, it doesn't make me a failure. It just makes me someone who tried. So, even though the voice is ranting - I'm able to cope with it... I'm not able to completely calm it or silence it but I'm able to put it into a different part of my mind, where it's not demanding ALL my attention. It's a bit like putting a toddler having a tantrum on time out. I know it's there, I know I have to deal with it but I'm aware it's just doing what it does and I don't need to make it my focus. I guess I can allow the voice to be there and I can hear it ... but I don't have to listen. If that makes any sense.

Thanks to anyone who's read this far. It has helped me to write it down. I don't know if everyone has a voice like this ... or maybe I'm just odd. But when anything I experience has anything to do with my AV, I'm always going to come here and share. Because even though I don't come here every day anymore like I used to, I'm still very aware that if my AV ever takes control and I start drinking, this beautiful world sobriety has allowed me to build - that all comes crashing down.

Love to everyone and 24 more for me please xxxx

Purplrks3647

(((Kenton))) Congrats on the recommendation! That is WAY cool....I have a voice like that too.....makes sense that it's another version of the AV talking....the way a narcissist will put on different masks....Thanks for sharing! Sending good thoughts for the book progress....I shall order one and request your autograph


Edit to add: 24 please!

yukonm

Signing up for 24 hours drink and drug free. 6.47am in Jacksonville, Florida.

Congratulations to all celebrating milestones today!

Sober53

I’m in for another 24

countrystix

In for another 24 please. 7:07 AM EST.