Class of May 2020 part 14
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Class of May 2020 part 14
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Thanks for the honest posts everyone.
It sure is great that we have this place to express ourselves.
Will really like some relaxation today. Feeling tired and spread thin.
Need some rest, some eats, some coffee.
Strange, that when any sort of discomfort comes my way, my mind is so likely to revert to thoughts of alcohol.
We have to be ever-diligently.
Karen, be kind to yourself. Continue to check in, friend.
Have a decent day SRers!
It sure is great that we have this place to express ourselves.
Will really like some relaxation today. Feeling tired and spread thin.
Need some rest, some eats, some coffee.
Strange, that when any sort of discomfort comes my way, my mind is so likely to revert to thoughts of alcohol.
We have to be ever-diligently.
Karen, be kind to yourself. Continue to check in, friend.
Have a decent day SRers!
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I had to take care of my H.A.L.T. situation late this morning. Because I was worn out, tired, hungry, sitting by myself, I had some thoughts about the drink.
Ate, had a coffee, went for a nap.
The day turned out really darned nice.
I hope your Saturday was a good one.
Ate, had a coffee, went for a nap.
The day turned out really darned nice.
I hope your Saturday was a good one.
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Well done TC, I’m glad you worked through that.
I went to yoga this morning, first time in ages so I am feeling it. It was really good
Sunday afternoon here and I’m having a much needed lazy afternoon
Day 14, so I’ll be 2 weeks sober by tonight
I went to yoga this morning, first time in ages so I am feeling it. It was really good
Sunday afternoon here and I’m having a much needed lazy afternoon
Day 14, so I’ll be 2 weeks sober by tonight
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Congrats on 2weeks willow!
Managing HALT is huge for me too TC. I was listening to some psychology videos on youtube the other day and one of the speakers was talking about cbt for problem eating and she mentioned a similar acronym to watch out for - FLABS (frustrated, lonely, angry, bored, stressed). Was just really interesting to hear similar techniques on different issues. I would have loved to work with a therapist that had competance in addiction therapy but i cant say i ever have. Seems a good therapist is a rarity these days or they have a long wait list.
Managing HALT is huge for me too TC. I was listening to some psychology videos on youtube the other day and one of the speakers was talking about cbt for problem eating and she mentioned a similar acronym to watch out for - FLABS (frustrated, lonely, angry, bored, stressed). Was just really interesting to hear similar techniques on different issues. I would have loved to work with a therapist that had competance in addiction therapy but i cant say i ever have. Seems a good therapist is a rarity these days or they have a long wait list.
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I was watching Leaving Las Vegas last night. I relate to the main character in many ways. For those who haven't seen it, it's about an alcoholic who has decided to leave everything to go drink himself to death in Vegas. I can definitely see myself going down that path eventually. I have this notion that when my father dies, I will use my inheritance to travel the world until I run out of money, ending up in a Las Vegas motel to drink myself to death. Sounds morbid but, frankly, it's seriously something I think about. It brings a strange comfort knowing I have that option 5 years from now and things haven't gotten any better. I think about such scenarios every day pretty much. Then I move on to something else less morbid.
Other than these fleeting dark thoughts, I'm sober and bored to death. Full lockdown still in effect for at least a few more weeks. Life goes on...
Other than these fleeting dark thoughts, I'm sober and bored to death. Full lockdown still in effect for at least a few more weeks. Life goes on...
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There are probably some really good AA meetings in the big city, WL.
Some of the most memorable characters, I met in a downtown basement meeting in Calgary more than a couple of decades ago. Irish Mike was one of them. (more on him some other time).
It shouldn’t be too far off that we can meet again. Most provinces still claim a second dose majority by end of September, some earlier.
Recoated my camper roof with white elastomeric paint today. This is the third, and final, coat. So pleased with it.
Spent most of the day checking in to an online auction. The wife and I bought a bunch of items, most were necessary (I can’t believe I said that with a straight face)
Have a good day everyone.
Some of the most memorable characters, I met in a downtown basement meeting in Calgary more than a couple of decades ago. Irish Mike was one of them. (more on him some other time).
It shouldn’t be too far off that we can meet again. Most provinces still claim a second dose majority by end of September, some earlier.
Recoated my camper roof with white elastomeric paint today. This is the third, and final, coat. So pleased with it.
Spent most of the day checking in to an online auction. The wife and I bought a bunch of items, most were necessary (I can’t believe I said that with a straight face)
Have a good day everyone.
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There haven't been any in-person meetings in Toronto since the pandemic began. They are all online now. Pre-pandemic I went to meetings often. The online meetings don't do anything for me. Hopefully, in-person meetings will resume when 2nd doses have been distributed enough
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Thanks everyone
WL, I hope you can find something positive to look forward to. I have morbid thoughts sometimes too, and I try to banish them by finding something to look forward to. A couple of times I’ve spotted someone drunk outside a pub in the city in the morning, and the AV says, that wouldn’t be so bad. You could drink as much as you wanted, whenever you wanted. But I know it’s the AV talking. I’d have to give up everything for alcohol, and I don’t want to. So instead I have to give up alcohol. So I can have everything else in my life.
The AV has been whispering that it would be ok to drink in the future. Like at an upcoming party. The real me knows that it wouldn’t be ok at all.
I find it useful to separate the two voices (or thought patterns) in my head into separate entities, like the good & evil wolves. Like the bad guy or evil wolf on one shoulder (the AV that only wants a drink, at the expense of everything else) and the good guy or good wolf on the other (the real me that wants what’s best for me). I have to keep feeding the good wolf.
WL, I hope you can find something positive to look forward to. I have morbid thoughts sometimes too, and I try to banish them by finding something to look forward to. A couple of times I’ve spotted someone drunk outside a pub in the city in the morning, and the AV says, that wouldn’t be so bad. You could drink as much as you wanted, whenever you wanted. But I know it’s the AV talking. I’d have to give up everything for alcohol, and I don’t want to. So instead I have to give up alcohol. So I can have everything else in my life.
The AV has been whispering that it would be ok to drink in the future. Like at an upcoming party. The real me knows that it wouldn’t be ok at all.
I find it useful to separate the two voices (or thought patterns) in my head into separate entities, like the good & evil wolves. Like the bad guy or evil wolf on one shoulder (the AV that only wants a drink, at the expense of everything else) and the good guy or good wolf on the other (the real me that wants what’s best for me). I have to keep feeding the good wolf.
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I love it, too! There are in person meetings again where I live. I haven't gone, even though I'm fully vaccinated and really should. It would be really good for me, even to just sit quietly and not interact. Just listen. I'm working toward it.
My son and I got into a discussion about philosophy and I said, "You can't be spiritual if you don't have a soul." He said, "How so?" and I said, "It's like trying to tell a joke when you don't have a sense of humor." And the smarty said, "AH! A good thing for you to keep in mind!" Pooh on that, I laugh at my jokes.
I've had a pretty slow day. I am isolated too, WL. I know it's going to change soon, though. I hope it does for all of us!
Lots of love to all of you!
My son and I got into a discussion about philosophy and I said, "You can't be spiritual if you don't have a soul." He said, "How so?" and I said, "It's like trying to tell a joke when you don't have a sense of humor." And the smarty said, "AH! A good thing for you to keep in mind!" Pooh on that, I laugh at my jokes.
I've had a pretty slow day. I am isolated too, WL. I know it's going to change soon, though. I hope it does for all of us!
Lots of love to all of you!
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