Backtogood

congrats on 2 weeks! Good job playing the tape forward, knowing that if you drink you would regret it come morning. I can totally relate on the blackout/what if/anxiety situation.

CaptainCrow

Becky7 that is such good work playing the tape forward. And now you've had a sober out of town surrounded by booze night that is another situation to chalk up as yours in the battle.

Backtogood you sound so down on yourself but you're doing a positive thing by coming here and starting to take stock. You don't need all the answers straightaway.

End of day 22 here today. I went for a massive 8km walk after work. It was such a nice evening and I was amazed at everything I looked at, going on about "wow those tulips are GORGEOUS aren't they LOOK AT THAT BIRD LOOK AT IT". Not sure if it's sobriety or sunshine but I felt happy for the first time in I don't know how long. Unchemically happy.

Now sitting in bed listening to Mozart and reading Maggie O'Farrell and I hardly recognise myself. I want to keep this up. I still get the AV. Today it was when I knocked off work, I really wanted to open a tinny and watch a gameshow but I'm so glad I didn't otherwise I wouldn't have seen those tulips. They were perfect and they won't be the same tomorrow so I was in the right place.

Backtogood

Captain- congrats on day 22! Glad you were able to get out and enjoy the 🌞 and 🌷

venuscat

I Iove your post CaptainCrow..... s ❤️

countrystix

It's great you were able to navigate through that situation Becky. I've been there in the past and almost always partook of the free "happy hour" plus more drinks afterwards and always regretted it. Feeling like crap the next day for meetings, just barely able to function, almost missed a couple flights etc. Much better waking up sober!

freedomfries

Good morning. It's day 12. Had a bit of a nightmare. Relieved to wake up and find it not real.

Willow00

Thanks. Somehow I counted backwards lol, it’s actually day 15 today

Best wishes for the colonoscopy. I had one last year, and all was well, phew. Hopefully you’ll have the same result

Willow00

Well done on 2 weeks Becky, and 22 days CC, and 12 days Freedom and Countrystix.

Cara39

Morning everyone,

Thanks for the warm welcome, appreciate each one but I can't seem to thank anyone's posts for some reason.

Day 2 today, so happy to go to bed sober and wake up hangover free.

Had some bedtime reading last night reading the thread from the beginning and kept nodding my head at all the same experiences and feelings it's nice not to feel so alone. Amazing achievements so plenty of inspiration I already don't want to let you all down

I'm not the most prolific poster and I really need to push myself to engage, I know in the past I've made the mistake of not reaching out and posting when my AV starts shouting at me. I'll definitely work on that. Also found some great tips for your go to when those cravings hit - I'm not going to worry about giving in to the sweet tooth for now!

Working today (thankful to be working from home) and planning to treat myself to takeway later. Hope you're all having a good day.

Stay strong x

venuscat

Have a good day dear Cara! s xx

adrunk42long

Good Morning all !
1 week in the bank and on to day 8. So grateful for this place to stayed connected. Thank you for the support!
Have a great day.

venuscat

Fantastic!!! s ❤️

phoebe64

Good morning. Welcome Cara!

I’m reading along, just not a lot to say. Not much exciting or interesting going on. I’m taking time away from my phone, which I use here and for everything these days, due to conjunctivitis caused by a stye. I just can’t see that well. No worries, I had a telehealth visit with a nice doctor yesterday, who gave me antibiotic drops. Ironically, he also has a stye. Common in allergy season.

Good to see the milestones! FF, I hope your hand is getting better. 💕

countrystix

Congrats on a week and keep it up!

Backtogood

Good morning! Waking up sober, promising a better day. Sun is out, might try and get out for a walk or even do an at home workout of I still just want to chill at home. Just get the body moving a bit. Hope you guys all have a good day

Willow00

Hi everyone

Cara well done on day 2! I know what you mean, I have a tendency to not post when the AV is harassing me, but I’ve had so many day ones because I hadn’t reached out for help when I was struggling. So now I’m trying really hard to post whenever I feel I could do with some extra resolve to stay sober. The support here is so wonderful

You’re into your second week AD42L, that’s fantastic

Phoebe I hope the eye drops help quickly. It must be painful, but hopefully it will improve now

BTG it’s soooo good to wake up sober and some gentle exercise is really good for our soul. I really should do some too. I keep saying I will, but only seem to actually do anything on the weekend. . A walk in the sun sounds lovely.

hi Countrystix, hope you’re doing ok. Drinking that awful prep stuff isn’t a whole lot of fun.... It’s less than a year since I did it, so I feel for you.

A big hug for you Suze

Day 16. Still going. Having my Wed morning coffee and reading on SR

countrystix

Hi Willow,
The procedure went smoothly and no issues found. I don't have to go back for five years

Grats on day 16.

Willow00

Great Countrystix, that’s really fantastic news

freedomfries

Good morning. It's day 13.

Hand is still sore but not as bad as it was. Seems to be healing, though very slowly.

I'm very depressed. I feel like I have no future and my mental state is worsening with each passing day. Feels like I might as well drink but I want to stay sober for my parents.

The pharmacy opens in two hours. I could get a litre of Listerine and get destroyed. But I know it won't make me happy. And god knows what I'd do drunk. But still, it's tempting. I'm going to look over my past posts as a reminder of how drinking made me feel.

freedomfries

I like to post in the crippling alcoholism subreddit when I'm drinking. I just looked at my post from 13 days ago. It's pretty disturbing. I think alcohol makes my mental health worse.