Class of December 2020 Part 5
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On the brightside, because I am an alcoholic, bust was not small or tidy. So I feel like absolute gates of hell right now.
Sorry team D. The suicide of my gaming buddy, work pressures and MH . But it could have been a leaf falling out menace. Let’s be honest.
I am here , day 1.
Sorry team D. The suicide of my gaming buddy, work pressures and MH . But it could have been a leaf falling out menace. Let’s be honest.
I am here , day 1.
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So glad you are here. Not sure what MH is unless that's Marvin. 
s
If this was easy love, well, you know the rest of that sentence.
But it isn't. And sometimes we fall down.
But you got right back up, and that's a really big deal.
s xx ❤️❤️
sIf this was easy love, well, you know the rest of that sentence.
But it isn't. And sometimes we fall down.
But you got right back up, and that's a really big deal.
s xx ❤️❤️
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Morning Zura honey and hi dear Elly ....it amazes me, but after a few years 0C is not even a tiny bit cold for me....I am liking the winter here.
Once we are covid safe, you are all invited for a visit. s ❤️
....it amazes me, but after a few years 0C is not even a tiny bit cold for me....I am liking the winter here.Once we are covid safe, you are all invited for a visit.
s ❤️
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Originally Posted by venuscat 
So glad you are here. Not sure what MH is unless that's Marvin. s
If this was easy love, well, you know the rest of that sentence.
But it isn't. And sometimes we fall down.
But you got right back up, and that's a really big deal. s xx ❤️❤️
sIf this was easy love, well, you know the rest of that sentence.
But it isn't. And sometimes we fall down.
But you got right back up, and that's a really big deal.
s xx ❤️❤️ideation . Didn’t share here because is depressing/triggering for others to hear and I know it will just mean people have to say the kind of lines that I say to my clients.
usually after I drink like that it will go away for awhile.
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You can talk to me anytime on Skype....
I am not sure what I would normally say here.....I would probably leave it to Dee.
But I know you now....I know your wonderful sense of humour and passion for life....I know you are wounded and hurting and your job is mega-hard.
I know you love your kids and your dog and the smell of the sea breeze. And I know that you know that suicidal thoughts need to be taken seriously.....this means it is time to get more help.
Your kids need you and love you and so do we. Life is precious my friend.
No matter what crap it throws at us.
So let's heal.....and move forwad into a better place. xx ❤️
I am not sure what I would normally say here.....I would probably leave it to Dee.
But I know you now....I know your wonderful sense of humour and passion for life....I know you are wounded and hurting and your job is mega-hard.
I know you love your kids and your dog and the smell of the sea breeze. And I know that you know that suicidal thoughts need to be taken seriously.....this means it is time to get more help.
Your kids need you and love you and so do we. Life is precious my friend.
No matter what crap it throws at us.
So let's heal.....and move forwad into a better place.
xx ❤️
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Great to see you back this morning tanky and congrats on day 1 👍please feel free to post tanky it PM me anytime .yiurenkt alone in this.
Sorry you are in pain zura. I will gladly take the heat from you though 😃
Had a good day . Eaten better and got some exercise. Feel better. Just tired still but sleep is the only cure. I will have a long lie in tomorrow I think.
Hope everyone ok. Take care xx
Sorry you are in pain zura. I will gladly take the heat from you though 😃
Had a good day . Eaten better and got some exercise. Feel better. Just tired still but sleep is the only cure. I will have a long lie in tomorrow I think.
Hope everyone ok. Take care xx
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Welcome Snooz
I'm glad you're back Tanky. I think Suze's advice of get more help is pretty sound - and if you use that line a lot with your clients that must mean it has some efficacy?
D
I'm glad you're back Tanky. I think Suze's advice of get more help is pretty sound - and if you use that line a lot with your clients that must mean it has some efficacy?
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Welcome Snooz
I'm glad you're back Tanky. I think Suze's advice of get more help is pretty sound - and if you use that line a lot with your clients that must mean it has some efficacy?
D
I'm glad you're back Tanky. I think Suze's advice of get more help is pretty sound - and if you use that line a lot with your clients that must mean it has some efficacy?
D
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Originally Posted by venuscat
You can talk to me anytime on Skype....
I am not sure what I would normally say here.....I would probably leave it to Dee.
But I know you now....I know your wonderful sense of humour and passion for life....I know you are wounded and hurting and your job is mega-hard.
I know you love your kids and your dog and the smell of the sea breeze. And I know that you know that suicidal thoughts need to be taken seriously.....this means it is time to get more help.
Your kids need you and love you and so do we. Life is precious my friend.
No matter what crap it throws at us.
So let's heal.....and move forwad into a better place. xx ❤️
I am not sure what I would normally say here.....I would probably leave it to Dee.
But I know you now....I know your wonderful sense of humour and passion for life....I know you are wounded and hurting and your job is mega-hard.
I know you love your kids and your dog and the smell of the sea breeze. And I know that you know that suicidal thoughts need to be taken seriously.....this means it is time to get more help.
Your kids need you and love you and so do we. Life is precious my friend.
No matter what crap it throws at us.
So let's heal.....and move forwad into a better place.
xx ❤️
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Originally Posted by EllyB
Sometimes we can be too dang smart for our own good. You are just as worthy as anyone to get some help! I know how hard this all is, but in the long run it will only blunt the pain for a short while.
thanks Elly and Dee.
Dee- yes I guess the response to this stuff is like it is for a reason.
Elly - I am trying to sit with your words and feel it. I am just as worthy of help
My d&a counsellor is aware . I was honest with him earlier in week. He said I need to consider going back on medication.
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Originally Posted by SnoozyQ
Hi everyone 
I'm just going to slide into this group if you don't mind.
Been sober since December 26th after 2 years of sobriety , then off and on before that.
I'm committed to staying sober once and for all as I've literally had a gutful.
I know I can never ever have another drink. NEVER.
That one glass leads to destruction every single time.
I'm just finally getting over my detox and the god awful withdrawals & starting to feel human again.
I'm looking forward to a long sober life and back to being pre drinking happy, cos face it, we are never truly happy on that cycle . It changes who we are.
I'll go back to the beginning of the thread and catch up.
let's all help each other to stay well :-)
xxx
I'm just going to slide into this group if you don't mind.
Been sober since December 26th after 2 years of sobriety , then off and on before that.
I'm committed to staying sober once and for all as I've literally had a gutful.
I know I can never ever have another drink. NEVER.
That one glass leads to destruction every single time.
I'm just finally getting over my detox and the god awful withdrawals & starting to feel human again.
I'm looking forward to a long sober life and back to being pre drinking happy, cos face it, we are never truly happy on that cycle . It changes who we are.
I'll go back to the beginning of the thread and catch up.
let's all help each other to stay well :-)
xxx
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Last year, around June I think, I had a breakdown. I guess I say around June as it didn't happen in a minute....it progressed over weeks.
Until finally something awful happened outside (animal stuff, doesn't need to be repeated) and I lost my mind. Screamed my head off in the street (at a cat mind you) and then came inside and lost it badly. And someone called the police....yes really....this country is interesting.....but the point was here was this nice police officer with a silly name (Officer Good, yes really) and he was all are you alright mam people are concerned and if you are in trouble I can take you to the hospital right now.....
And I was thinking: where on earth am I? The Twilight Zone? Is this the 1950s?
A woman out of control means call the cops and the dudes with the white coats?
It's pretty funny now.
But the unfunny part was I knew I needed more help before I lost it that day....I knew I was in trouble for a while.
I kind of tried....got some online therapy, but it was beyond awful. Useless to the max. So I gave up.
And then when that all went down I got this reality check....it was time to get my mental house in order.
We need to put our own oxygen masks on first.
I heard that a thousand times but I really learned what it meant last year.
I need to look after me or eventually I can't look after anything.
OK, diatribe over. Love you Tanky. ❤️
Last year, around June I think, I had a breakdown. I guess I say around June as it didn't happen in a minute....it progressed over weeks.
Until finally something awful happened outside (animal stuff, doesn't need to be repeated) and I lost my mind. Screamed my head off in the street (at a cat mind you) and then came inside and lost it badly. And someone called the police....yes really....this country is interesting.....but the point was here was this nice police officer with a silly name (Officer Good, yes really
) and he was all are you alright mam people are concerned and if you are in trouble I can take you to the hospital right now.....And I was thinking: where on earth am I? The Twilight Zone? Is this the 1950s?
A woman out of control means call the cops and the dudes with the white coats?
It's pretty funny now.But the unfunny part was I knew I needed more help before I lost it that day....I knew I was in trouble for a while.
I kind of tried....got some online therapy, but it was beyond awful. Useless to the max. So I gave up.
And then when that all went down I got this reality check....it was time to get my mental house in order.
We need to put our own oxygen masks on first.
I heard that a thousand times but I really learned what it meant last year.
I need to look after me or eventually I can't look after anything.
OK, diatribe over. Love you Tanky.
❤️
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Morning all
Thanks Chancellor Great to see you.
That's scary stuff Venus. I agree, self care, is so important. You take such great care of all of us-you must look after yourself too. nd let us look after you.
Day 41. Is anyone else losing track of the days of the week in this lockdown. Anyway, not sure what doing today as just woke up. Will check in later.xx
Thanks Chancellor
Great to see you.That's scary stuff Venus. I agree, self care, is so important. You take such great care of all of us-you must look after yourself too. nd let us look after you.
Day 41. Is anyone else losing track of the days of the week in this lockdown. Anyway, not sure what doing today as just woke up. Will check in later.xx
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Venus! You have to take care of the lovely person that is you!
RAL, day 41 is great!
Tanky, big hug to you too.
I'm so bad at responding to people individually... so sorry for that. I will make it my New Year resolution and really work on it.
Day 4 here, and I am back on track. Eating well and being grateful really works. I'm feeling good.
Have a happy, sober day!
RAL, day 41 is great!
Tanky, big hug to you too.
I'm so bad at responding to people individually... so sorry for that. I will make it my New Year resolution and really work on it.
Day 4 here, and I am back on track. Eating well and being grateful really works. I'm feeling good.
Have a happy, sober day!
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I didn't make any new year's resolutions this year....but I like to make one as my birthday is coming up.....so I resolve to take way better care of myself. Going to lose this weight and get fresh air and listen to more music and read more....and I have another project to get going on that is exciting, but in order to be a happy Suze I need to be a healthy one.
I am sure that is the same for all of us.
I am sure that is the same for all of us.
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Good Morning All,
Venus - I'm glad you got used to the cold. I'm finding the heat much more intolerable than cold....maybe it's a getting older thing. I'm even caving and getting aircon in one room when I always thought it was unnecessary 😂
RAL - you are most welcome to the heat, I imagine the cold gets old. I used to laugh at my dad (from Scotland) complaining of the cold here...Its far more cold where he comes from. He should have moved further up North, nice and toasty up there. I hope you did get a chance for a lie in.
Tanky - sending you lots of love. I wish there was something I could say or do to take all that away for you. I hope today is a good day for you xxoo
Lixie - so glad you are feeling good today, but don't forget to check in here when your struggling too 😊
I hope everyone is having a good day and more people come back to post soon. Missing you all lots.
Venus - I'm glad you got used to the cold. I'm finding the heat much more intolerable than cold....maybe it's a getting older thing. I'm even caving and getting aircon in one room when I always thought it was unnecessary 😂
RAL - you are most welcome to the heat, I imagine the cold gets old. I used to laugh at my dad (from Scotland) complaining of the cold here...Its far more cold where he comes from. He should have moved further up North, nice and toasty up there. I hope you did get a chance for a lie in.
Tanky - sending you lots of love. I wish there was something I could say or do to take all that away for you. I hope today is a good day for you xxoo
Lixie - so glad you are feeling good today, but don't forget to check in here when your struggling too 😊
I hope everyone is having a good day and more people come back to post soon. Missing you all lots.
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