Class of September 2020 Part 2
He he he....Love that. Def for not Ed Sheeran fans.
My husband writes and plays goth metal or some such thing....I always get the name wrong.
I love him and I really try to listen to a 'song' he wants me to every now and then, but that's my limit.
My husband writes and plays goth metal or some such thing....I always get the name wrong.
I love him and I really try to listen to a 'song' he wants me to every now and then, but that's my limit.
Evening folks, checking in on day 30, I think I will try to stop counting the days now, although it can feel like a little achievement each day to tick another day off, I kinda want to stop focusing on it and start looking forwards.
So far I've not really missed the booze, hopefully I learned my lesson from my relapse after 3 years of my life being better in almost every way without drink. I'm finding it's just nice to be able to come home from work and relax properly by engaging in hobbies/activities again, rather than sitting in front of the tv in an alcohol induced haze like a vegetable. The main thing I'm not missing is the constant internal battle of every drinkers pipe dream, moderation. Life is just easier not having to deal with that.
I'll check this out, I'm pretty flexible with music genres and I like listening to ambient stuff when I'm focusing on things
Take care all
So far I've not really missed the booze, hopefully I learned my lesson from my relapse after 3 years of my life being better in almost every way without drink. I'm finding it's just nice to be able to come home from work and relax properly by engaging in hobbies/activities again, rather than sitting in front of the tv in an alcohol induced haze like a vegetable. The main thing I'm not missing is the constant internal battle of every drinkers pipe dream, moderation. Life is just easier not having to deal with that.
Take care all
Morning Septemberinos. Yesterday I felt almost normal. I am usually in a pretty good mood and I noticed yesterday afternoon that I felt "normal". I also went to the grocery store and stopping in at the liquor store next door didn't even cross my mind other than to think "I don't even feel like a drink". Then I had to order some more groceries online (too heavy for me to carry up the stairs) and booze turned up in the recommendations and I didn't get so much as a pang. Have a good day all!
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Good morning, sobernauts.
Going to do w1d1 of c25k at 6am. Ease back into jogging. Exercise is really good for my mental health. I shouldn't have been neglecting it. Hopefully my back won't be too sore running after my possible seozire. Then I'm going to clean my room and meditate for ten minutes. Something else I've been neglecting that's so good for me.
Today is day six of my sobriety and day 1 of getting my **** together. I've been drinking lots of coke these last few weeks and I'm quitting that too. It's so bad for me. Am supposed to have college lectures today but can't attend as there's been a delay with my registration. So that sucks. And was supposed to meet a possible thesis supervisor in the lab today but labs are shut this week due to covid. So that sucks too but I'll meet her next week.
I'm still upset after finding out I said something nasty to my sister while blacked out but it's given me the motivation to make my big plan to never drink again and start practicing AVRT properly, so some good has come of that. I really don't think I'll ever drink again.
Going to do w1d1 of c25k at 6am. Ease back into jogging. Exercise is really good for my mental health. I shouldn't have been neglecting it. Hopefully my back won't be too sore running after my possible seozire. Then I'm going to clean my room and meditate for ten minutes. Something else I've been neglecting that's so good for me.
Today is day six of my sobriety and day 1 of getting my **** together. I've been drinking lots of coke these last few weeks and I'm quitting that too. It's so bad for me. Am supposed to have college lectures today but can't attend as there's been a delay with my registration. So that sucks. And was supposed to meet a possible thesis supervisor in the lab today but labs are shut this week due to covid. So that sucks too but I'll meet her next week.
I'm still upset after finding out I said something nasty to my sister while blacked out but it's given me the motivation to make my big plan to never drink again and start practicing AVRT properly, so some good has come of that. I really don't think I'll ever drink again.
Urgh. We have two significant family birthdays this weekend and they went to celebrate by going to a bar. I don't want to go to a bar. If I cancel or say I can't make it, they'll just pester me to reschedule. They won't care if I drink or not so that's not the problem, it's that I don't want to be in a bar right now.
My work team wants to go to a bar for work drinks but I said I'm not comfortable with going to bars "during covid" so they should feel free to go ahead without me.
My work team wants to go to a bar for work drinks but I said I'm not comfortable with going to bars "during covid" so they should feel free to go ahead without me.
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Just back from a run. Easing back into it. W1d1 of c25k. Anytime I've tried to go for a run lately I've given up halfway through but I finished it today. Exercise is so important for my mental health. I cant neglect it.
Morning Septemberinos. Yesterday I felt almost normal. I am usually in a pretty good mood and I noticed yesterday afternoon that I felt "normal". I also went to the grocery store and stopping in at the liquor store next door didn't even cross my mind other than to think "I don't even feel like a drink". Then I had to order some more groceries online (too heavy for me to carry up the stairs) and booze turned up in the recommendations and I didn't get so much as a pang. Have a good day all!
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Just back from a short 2km walk. Have had a touch of agoraphobia lately so trying to expose myself to town more to lessen my anxiety around it. Going to go for another short walk later.
Might make an another appt with my counselor. Though I don't trust her. I don't know if it's paranoia or if she really is untrustworthy. Not sure if I'll make the appt. But I do need counselling of some sort and I probably won't trust any counselor. So I dunno.
Might make an another appt with my counselor. Though I don't trust her. I don't know if it's paranoia or if she really is untrustworthy. Not sure if I'll make the appt. But I do need counselling of some sort and I probably won't trust any counselor. So I dunno.
Thank you, Venuscat.
I remembered someone (it was Patcha) writing about sitting on the couch, "rage eating chips." I don't know if they were British chips or American chips, but that's what I decided to do, too. Didn't help much, but at least it wasn't alcohol.
I'm not feeling strong today. Not quite sure what my plans are. For now I'll just go with staying away from booze.
I remembered someone (it was Patcha) writing about sitting on the couch, "rage eating chips." I don't know if they were British chips or American chips, but that's what I decided to do, too. Didn't help much, but at least it wasn't alcohol.
I'm not feeling strong today. Not quite sure what my plans are. For now I'll just go with staying away from booze.
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Not being registered for college is so frustrating. I'm missing out on so much. I tried ringing the registration office to see where my application is at but I was on hold for several minutes twice before the call ended. I think everyone is working from home. I emailed them yesterday so hopefully I'll get a reply before the end of the week. If it's a case that the school still hasn't approved it I'll get onto to the head of my department.
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