freedomfries

Good morning on day 19. Just got up to go to the bathroom. Back to bed now. Going to get up in a few hours, go for a short walk then head to my morning zoom meeting

Willow00

I tried to go back to sleep this morning when I woke up at 5.30am (I don’t have to work today) but I couldn’t, so I made a cup of tea instead
I love not having a hangover. When I was drinking, even when I wasn’t hungover, I felt pretty ordinary for at least half the day. Now I wake up with a clear head and bright eyes. Well maybe not straight away when I wake up, but it doesn’t take long

freedomfries

5am. Had a dream where I didn't turn in college assignments on time had got drunk. Was such a relief to wake up sober

Willow00

I have dreams like that too. It’s sooooo good when you realise it was only a dream!

freedomfries

Just back from a trip into town. Bought a notebook. Going to start journalling. I have a lot on my mind and it'd be good to write stuff down instead of getting wasted and posting about it on reddit.

Willow00

Journaling is a great way to sort out our thoughts I think. I used to journal a lot but it’s fallen by the wayside lately. Good idea Freedom, I might start doing that again too

MaximusD

FF, you can also start a journal here too. Congrats to you too and your days piling up! I went back for grad school and spent most of it buzzed slightly drunk to the point where I could still function but still so bad. Used to keep a drink in my backpack in an inconspicuous container.

freedomfries

I had another drinking dream. It was terrible. I got kicked out of my parents' house and stole someone's purse to buy more booze. Quite a relief to wake up.

Dee74

I used to dream of high school years after I left it FF - didn't mean I wanted to go back there

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freedomfries

Had another nightmare when I went back to sleep. My subconscious just be a ness right now. Happy to be awake

Willow00

I’ve just finished 3 weeks today
The AV reared up this morning before brekkie, but it’s slunk off again thankfully.
I just had some icecream and it’s completely disappeared
I joined the July class too for some extra support

freedomfries

Congrats on 3 weeks. I had some AV this morning too but I posted a thread to the newcomer's forum and it helped. Just back from a F2F AA meeting. Was a nice meeting. I shared a little.

MaximusD

FF, great job on keeping off that craving and for posting here. Willow, we are happy to have you over in July, FF you are welcome too.

Willow00

Thanks Freedom and Max
Yes the July class is great Freedom, and you’re welcome there

Also the Undies (One year and Under) club is great. I’ve been posting there for over 2 years lol. I did actually make it to a year when I first joined in May 2018 but then I blew it and have had loads of day ones since then. I was really annoyed that I had to go back to day one, but I’ve had trouble getting more than a few weeks or a month or so since then.
Hopefully this time is different!

freedomfries

Good morning on day 21. Had a horrible nightmare where a video of a drunken paranoid rant I made went viral. Quite a relief to wake up.

Willow00

Good morning Freedom. That would have been an awful dream! I can usually remember mine too but I haven’t remembered them the last week or two, just vague shadows of what I was dreaming. Maybe I’m actually sleeping more deeply than usual. That’s a good thing, as I have long term trouble sleeping

Day 22 here and still going ok. When the AV comes calling I have been managing to ignore it, and it goes away. So far so good this time around.

freedomfries

Good morning Willow. Yeah my AV got pretty strong yesterday but I posted on SR and went to a meeting. Trying to use the tools at my disposal.

Willow00

Yeah I think that’s what we have to do, use the tools at our disposal. It’s great that you’re getting to plenty of meetings. I’m seeing a psychologist which is helping me work through my “stuff” which I think is helping me.
And icecream. That’s helping me too

freedomfries

I'm on the wait list to see an addiction counsellor but they're not doing appointments now because of covid so it might be a while. It's a health board counsellor. I might think about getting a private counsellor.

freedomfries

Strong AV attack here about an hour after my lunchtime meeting. Got a little "poor me, poor me, pour me a drink" but recognised it for what it was. AV using self-pity to try and get me to drink.

The meeting only had four people there so it was a short one. Over in twenty minutes. I think I'll catch a Zoom meeting later.