Class of May 2020 Part 3
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Thank you SR friends! I made it through the toughest hours when my AV is mocking me in my face with a glass of poison telling me to drink! I was in bed from 5-9:30 crying and with no energy, holding a blanket like a baby. It was not hunger because I had just eaten: is it a coincidence that it’s during the hours when I drank that I’m bawling like a baby, my thoughts are spinning (it’s not easy times too), and I’m filled with regret/remorse.
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But thanks to your posts in my hours of need, I did not drink. It’s 10:00 PM (I’m listening to the tragic news on CNN) but I have no desire to drink. The cravings and tears are gone. I’m not exactly happy but I’m not drunk, crawling around my floors. But I made it through Day 2 thanks to you! So, tomorrow will be Day 3 not Day 1. THANK YOU!
Hello to everyone. I'm trying to catch up but hoping everyone had a great sober day!
Little bit tougher day here. Thanks to all of you that asked. I really appreciate it. I had the house problem that I mentioned and did have someone come out today which was stressful. It definitely triggered me. Will be a few thousand dollars which we do not have at moment. But, it can wait for a while. So it will have to wait. But I made it through the day without drinking.
Blood pressure was up all day. I was trying to go all day without taking any extra meds but finally just said I needed them about 7 tonight. That's why they are prescribed and I was putting myself through unneeded hell for nothing. I don't know if it's still elevated from coming off drinking or from the stress of the house or both. Sorry alcohol. You and that damned AV lost today. In less than one hour I will be 96 hours (4 days sober).
Hope
Little bit tougher day here. Thanks to all of you that asked. I really appreciate it. I had the house problem that I mentioned and did have someone come out today which was stressful. It definitely triggered me. Will be a few thousand dollars which we do not have at moment. But, it can wait for a while. So it will have to wait. But I made it through the day without drinking.
Blood pressure was up all day. I was trying to go all day without taking any extra meds but finally just said I needed them about 7 tonight. That's why they are prescribed and I was putting myself through unneeded hell for nothing. I don't know if it's still elevated from coming off drinking or from the stress of the house or both. Sorry alcohol. You and that damned AV lost today. In less than one hour I will be 96 hours (4 days sober).
Hope
Well done listae! Fantastic news.
Hope - bummer about the house repairs. What do you need done? I'm getting pretty good at building and painting (lol). Congrats to you on four days - even with the stress. I'm sure your blood pressure appreciates the effort you are going to. Keep up the battle with AV - you are in the lead and need to stay there.
Hope - bummer about the house repairs. What do you need done? I'm getting pretty good at building and painting (lol). Congrats to you on four days - even with the stress. I'm sure your blood pressure appreciates the effort you are going to. Keep up the battle with AV - you are in the lead and need to stay there.
Listae, I am so glad you made it though! You can do this!
LilyLady1 - congrats on day 35!
WL- I wish you sleep. I have been there in the past and not sleeping is the worst.
Coz - the lilies are beautiful!
Welcome back Jewel.
FF- You sound strong!
Karen thanks for always being positive!
VenusCat- you are always a breath of fresh air.
Dee- thank you for all you do.
If I forgot anyone I’m sorry. I do appreciate you all so much.
Hope
LilyLady1 - congrats on day 35!
WL- I wish you sleep. I have been there in the past and not sleeping is the worst.
Coz - the lilies are beautiful!
Welcome back Jewel.
FF- You sound strong!
Karen thanks for always being positive!
VenusCat- you are always a breath of fresh air.
Dee- thank you for all you do.
If I forgot anyone I’m sorry. I do appreciate you all so much.
Hope
Thank you, Coz! Our lilies are tall and have buds, but aren't showing color yet. In about a week we should have dozens of blooms in our back yard.
I never thought I would be writing this BUT... I am 60 days sober
I've been on SR each day having varying degrees of involvement, which is okay. Sometime I just read and say goodnight. Sometimes I type something "out loud" because I need to let something off my chest. Sometimes I offer my thoughts. I'm always looking forward to checking in to see how everyone is doing. SR remains very much a part of my "Dream Team" that I've assembled to help beat back the AV and stomp him out for good.
If I've learned one thing so far, it's that you need a Dream Team to beat back this thing. It can't be just one item from the menu of tools. You have to build something strong and sturdy if you're going to push on through to the other side.
To everyone - congrats on each of your milestones today (even if it's Day 0 or Day 1) -- we are all here for the same reason and we're lucky to have SR.
I know some of us are really really struggling right now and others are doing very well. There's also a middle of pack too. Let's keep rolling here!!! Never give up.
And with that (sappy?) rant over and out of the way...
As always, goodnight from Canada, eh!?!?
Zzz...
I've been on SR each day having varying degrees of involvement, which is okay. Sometime I just read and say goodnight. Sometimes I type something "out loud" because I need to let something off my chest. Sometimes I offer my thoughts. I'm always looking forward to checking in to see how everyone is doing. SR remains very much a part of my "Dream Team" that I've assembled to help beat back the AV and stomp him out for good.
If I've learned one thing so far, it's that you need a Dream Team to beat back this thing. It can't be just one item from the menu of tools. You have to build something strong and sturdy if you're going to push on through to the other side.
To everyone - congrats on each of your milestones today (even if it's Day 0 or Day 1) -- we are all here for the same reason and we're lucky to have SR.
I know some of us are really really struggling right now and others are doing very well. There's also a middle of pack too. Let's keep rolling here!!! Never give up.
And with that (sappy?) rant over and out of the way...
As always, goodnight from Canada, eh!?!?
Zzz...
Just awoke from a solid 10 hours of sleep. I rarely get such good REM sleep because of how alcohol disrupts sleep patterns. It feels good to be fully rested and 3 days sober. A rarity for me.
I can't mess this one up. I have spent 3000 dollars the past 6 weeks on booze and cigarettes. I don't smoke unless drinking for the most part so I save so much money by cutting all vices out.
A friend from high school died last year at age 43. His heart just stopped in his sleep. He had a history of substance abuse worse than mine. I am about to turn 44 so I will honour him by living sober past 43.
I can't mess this one up. I have spent 3000 dollars the past 6 weeks on booze and cigarettes. I don't smoke unless drinking for the most part so I save so much money by cutting all vices out.
A friend from high school died last year at age 43. His heart just stopped in his sleep. He had a history of substance abuse worse than mine. I am about to turn 44 so I will honour him by living sober past 43.
Just awoke from a solid 10 hours of sleep. I rarely get such good REM sleep because of how alcohol disrupts sleep patterns. It feels good to be fully rested and 3 days sober. A rarity for me.
I can't mess this one up. I have spent 3000 dollars the past 6 weeks on booze and cigarettes. I don't smoke unless drinking for the most part so I save so much money by cutting all vices out.
A friend from high school died last year at age 43. His heart just stopped in his sleep. He had a history of substance abuse worse than mine. I am about to turn 44 so I will honour him by living sober past 43.
I can't mess this one up. I have spent 3000 dollars the past 6 weeks on booze and cigarettes. I don't smoke unless drinking for the most part so I save so much money by cutting all vices out.
A friend from high school died last year at age 43. His heart just stopped in his sleep. He had a history of substance abuse worse than mine. I am about to turn 44 so I will honour him by living sober past 43.
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