Class of March 2020 Part 5
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Quick check in before bed. Had a quiet day enjoying the sunshine here too. Apparently getting storms tomorrow !?
Well done Bil on not only getting through your wife being away but also enjoying being sober. I'm feeling more like that now too, just the thought of having to crawl through a hungover day again makes me feel ill !! Its a weird one to explain but i feel like I'm healing now.
Well done Bil on not only getting through your wife being away but also enjoying being sober. I'm feeling more like that now too, just the thought of having to crawl through a hungover day again makes me feel ill !! Its a weird one to explain but i feel like I'm healing now.
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Originally Posted by Tinkerbeau 
Quick check in before bed. Had a quiet day enjoying the sunshine here too. Apparently getting storms tomorrow !?
Well done Bil on not only getting through your wife being away but also enjoying being sober. I'm feeling more like that now too, just the thought of having to crawl through a hungover day again makes me feel ill !! Its a weird one to explain but i feel like I'm healing now.
Well done Bil on not only getting through your wife being away but also enjoying being sober. I'm feeling more like that now too, just the thought of having to crawl through a hungover day again makes me feel ill !! Its a weird one to explain but i feel like I'm healing now.
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I'm going to go back to the topic of time - it's just flying by even though days seem long. 12 weeks for me tomorrow. Maybe time is always like this and I missed it when I was drunk - but I like it. And I find it strange
Haha of all the side effects of becoming sober, one I didn't expect was 'finding time strange'
Haha of all the side effects of becoming sober, one I didn't expect was 'finding time strange'
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Healing
I am also feeling like I’m healing, lol. There has definitely been a change as of late. I can’t pinpoint one thing, but it’s like an overall feeling. Highs and lows for sure, but more highs than before. Hopefully this gets even better. If I had known this I would have quit sooner.
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Originally Posted by Splash29
Day 2 again and it's 5pm here
The cravings are srong. But I will stay strong this time and get through, I'm embarrassed it's gotten this bad.
Sry just noticed I'm in wrong thread.
The cravings are srong. But I will stay strong this time and get through, I'm embarrassed it's gotten this bad.
Sry just noticed I'm in wrong thread.
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Good work Bilr.
Ive been thinking about drinking today - not as in I've thought about today getting a drink and drinking it, more vague thoughts like: 'In the future it would be nice to sit in pub garden with a pint' or 'when this is all over I'll be ok to drink again'.
Im not worried about my sobriety as there is no chance I will drink today, but it is the first time in 84 days I've had those thoughts, and I'm a bit concerned I'm opening a door to allowing myself to drink in the future.
Dee, Venus - any words of wisdom on this? Should I let it pass as just thoughts that I'm not going to act on? Or do I need to address them?
Ive been thinking about drinking today - not as in I've thought about today getting a drink and drinking it, more vague thoughts like: 'In the future it would be nice to sit in pub garden with a pint' or 'when this is all over I'll be ok to drink again'.
Im not worried about my sobriety as there is no chance I will drink today, but it is the first time in 84 days I've had those thoughts, and I'm a bit concerned I'm opening a door to allowing myself to drink in the future.
Dee, Venus - any words of wisdom on this? Should I let it pass as just thoughts that I'm not going to act on? Or do I need to address them?
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Dee will do the wisdom 
But here is how I feel.....thoughts are automatic.....and the AV would really love it if you let those thoughts run the show.
But we don't have to.....I challenge them out loud.....as in.....oh really, as if you are really going to sit in the garden and have one pint? No. More like 6 or more and then what? Back to the land of drinking out of control every day and more than likely getting thrown out by wife pretty fast.....and when what is over? the pandemic? because why does that make a difference?
I challenge them out loud....I often say very loudly at the end of the challenge.....AND THANKS FOR SHARING. (sarcastically).
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But here is how I feel.....thoughts are automatic.....and the AV would really love it if you let those thoughts run the show.
But we don't have to.....I challenge them out loud.....as in.....oh really, as if you are really going to sit in the garden and have one pint? No. More like 6 or more and then what? Back to the land of drinking out of control every day and more than likely getting thrown out by wife pretty fast.....and when what is over? the pandemic? because why does that make a difference?
I challenge them out loud....I often say very loudly at the end of the challenge.....AND THANKS FOR SHARING. (sarcastically).
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Here’s my two cents. My wife always told me, “if you want to drink, then do it in front of me and not hide it”. There is where the problem lies, I don’t want one cocktail or beer, I want to get blitzed. Drinking one in front of her would lead to ten behind her back. My AV doesn’t even try to fool me into thinking I could sip on one drink casually. I really don’t miss the 30 minutes of enjoyment for a trade off of 23.5 miserable hours.
. I wish I could wish her good morning but I can't 
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