Dee74

last part here
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-6-a-20.html (Class of December 2019 part 6)
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venuscat

Thank you Dee and goodnight s xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Zura

Thanks for the new thread Dee.
Hello lovely Venus
A greenhouse sounds wonderful Willow.
Sending you love & support Steely xxoo

venuscat

Where are the girls? s

Steely

Here's one of the girls Venus.
Got through my brother's funeral, and said goodbye best we could. In many ways a weight feels lifted from my shoulders. He was always on my mind. A constant. He didn't have very good parenting and felt very maternal towards him. I loved him very much. Incredibly sick, but strong in his endurance.
He had accrued some money over time and we are donating it to schizophrenia research. Let him do something to kick this mongrel disease/illness in the head as it did him.
I didn't drink and am so glad. Maybe I can start to move forward now.

venuscat

Oh love. How beautiful that you passed the money forward. s

And just so glad to see you and know that is behind you now.
And super proud of you for honouring yourself in this hard time. s xx

Zura

Morning Ladies,
That's a lovely gesture Steely, sounds like you are doing the best you can under sad circumstances. Your a good sister xxoo

venuscat

Good morning lovely Zura. How are you doing? s xx

Zura

I'm well thanks Venus, have my daughter coming this weekend for Mothers Day & my son's birthday. How are you hun?

venuscat

Oh that's so nice.
I hope it's a lovely weekend.
And Happy Mother's Day! s

I am good but super-tired. Need a good sleep so I am having an early night. s

Zura

Sweet Dreams xxoo

Steely

Mothers Day today and 146 days sober. Onwards good life.
Thank you both, Venus and Zura. ❤️ ❤️

venuscat

So much love dear Steely.....and I hope today is a god day sweetie. xxxx s

Zura

Happy Mother's Day to you too Steely xxoo
Hope you are having a lovely day too Venus xxoo

venuscat

I will not lie.
I am not.
But this too shall pass. s xx

Steely

You ok Venus?

venuscat

No, I am not. I am in an un-ending panic attack.
Trying my best to breathe and stop shaking but I can't.
I am going to call a doctor when it is normal hours, too early still. s

venuscat

I know it is Mother's day. And that is always a tough one now. It so happens this year that it is also the anniversary of my dad's passing.

I spoke to a therapist online....for free.....seriously.
I am aware that I am dangerously depressed.
Working on it. s

Zura

Im so sorry your experiencing that Venus xxoo Im sorry about your dad too. I think it is wonderful that you are being open about how your feeling and allowing yourself to have support. Its important we all support each other through hard times, we are all in this together after all. Yes it will pass but we are here in the meantime. I hope it passes soon xxoo

venuscat

Thank you very much love. s
I spoke to a therapist online for a while.....not sure it helped much except that she also thinks I have major depression. I never thought I would have to go through this again. I am not at all coping. xxxxx