Charon

I decided it's way too hot and humid for me to work outside today. The guys came and sealed the drive this morning. That's a job I can no longer pretend I'm able to do. And I'm glad. I always hated doing it and it took all day. It was dirty, hot, and miserable. Some things are worth paying for.

I got some new pictures from the breeder today. Oh gosh, she is so darn cute. I'm going to have such trouble trying desperately not to spoil her. I can't wait till it's mid-september when I can go and pick her up. She's just satrted to crawl and to be able to pick her head up.

wiscsober

Oh my gosh Charon I can see that her face becoming as they look older.
Fine pics made my day!
Doing well living sober

tootsl1

Such a cutie little Ruthie!

Willow00

So adorable Charon ❤️

Purplrks3647

OMG I just love that little pup....if you guys have room for one more, I can be a road trip pet nanny

Charon

Morning.

What a night. Very weird. I was triggering like crazy in my dreams. Every time I thought I'd go and sneak a bottle, my dream self realized I was on antabuse and couldn't. The dream repeated over and over. Now that I'm awake I'm fine but grateful that I'm taking antabuse. The dreams might be telling me they could become reality if I stopped taking it. Not doing that. With the gatekeeper in place I am safe.

wiscsober

Feeling emotional hangover from Friday.
I went to bed meditating thankful I hadn't been drinking or using.
manic day non stop thinking
today I made sure I ate first
just going to stay inside mostly and relax
putter around
Sobriety is #1

fishkiller

charon that is a Beautiful pup! Congrats!

Hope everyone is well. High on life at the moment myself after a period of self pity

wiscsober

Great to see you fishkiller!!!!

wiscsober

today was much better calmer

Sober369

That is such a precious puppy! Thanks for sharing.
I'm glad you're doing better today, Wisc.
I had a restful day, too. I think I really needed it.

tootsl1

Glad you are feeling better Wisc, yesterday sobriety definitely has to be the no 1priority in our lives, - much the way we allowed alcohol to become our no 1 priority in our depths.

good to see you FK

Charon, drinking dreams used to really discombobulate me in the early days, I would wake up thinking I had drunk or worry I would drink. Be strong my friend.

Purps

glad you had a rest day Karen we didn't do too much yesterday either.

Charon

Toots, thanks. I will be strong. I feel so much better when I am locked into sobriety. I fall asleep and wake up instead of passing out and coning to - and feeling lousy to downright miserable. Only black coffee, strong, dark roast for my only vice. Well, maybe not. Ruthie will be a vice of sorts - but a positive one.

And, the funniest thing about the dreams was that every time I decided I wanted to go get a bottle I told myself I couldn't because I was taking antabuse. In the past, dreams would be that I had been drinking and was worried I'd get caught. And, yes, like you, I would wake up feeling I had lapsed. It took a few minutes to realize I hadn't. I like the new kind better. "Nope - forget it. You can't. No way." Someday maybe the dream will be "Yeah, I really have no interest in doing that". Those would be superb.

Got up an hour early to get out and get more of the bittersweet trimmed. Got a third done yesterday. Then I want to get a ride around the neighborhood in. After that, lunch and a nap. I have some inside things I can do if I feel energetic after that, but ...

wiscsober

up early had to eat
an apple and eggs w/cheese
reboot
oatmeal this time
sore heel like a deep bruise inside
no drama
serenity and sobriety
Listened to some NA audios yesterday...refreshing
what is neat when the dreams are about recovery meetings and helping someone

Sober369

I love the early mornings. I sure couldn't say that when I was drinking! I like listening to sobriety speakers, too.
Your dream is interesting, Charon. Maybe it's your mind's way of getting the message deep into your being that you can't drink. Very cool.
I had a dream that I was very drunk, nauseous and disoriented. I was in the hospital and wanted them to give me a shot to make the drunk feeling go away, but I couldn't even talk to tell them that. The medical staff were in the hallway talking about me and I knew they were saying what a terrible person I was, and worthless. I was thinking, "You don't understand. I don't like this at all, I need you to help me." but they didn't. I was grateful to wake up.
Thank God we are sober. It's going to be a lovely day, I hope everyone has a great one.

wiscsober

Yes many of those drunken nightmares of mine were real.....too many ER trips, detoxes, psych wards. Absolute craziness.
No more....one word...freedom. Big thanks to all of you on SR.

Willow00

I think those drinking/drunk dreams are really interesting. Somehow our brain is processing the changes we’re making in our lives while we sleep. I know I feel so relieved when I wake up and realise it wasn’t real!

I’m enjoying a lazy morning today as I don’t have to work today. I have brought a cup of tea back to bed
I’ve been awake since 5.30am because despite being able to sleep in today, my body didn’t get that memo so I was wide awake as usual lol. It’s a cool, overcast morning and I’m enjoying the sounds of nature drifting in through the open window. Winter is beautiful here, a top of 26C today, perfect in my opinion

tootsl1

Sound like paradise to me Willow!

considering the part booze played in our lives for the length of time it did, it's not really surprising it makes guest appearances in our subconscious

fishkiller

Hello fellow unders!

Haven't had a drinking dream in a while now thankfully. They can be very disturbing upon waking. I don't miss them.

Sounds peaceful willow!
It is averaging 952*F here with 3,000% humidity!
I may be exaggerating a bit but it sure feels like it.

Wisc we are free and it feels great!

wiscsober

Another beautiful bright day....temps cooled back to the 80s....65 at night
Great day to live sober