Class of March 2020 Part One
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Just finishing up my work day. Nope, I couldn't leave early- I supervise nurses in a hospital for the mentally ill and dangerous- not an option most of the time. I am running on adrenaline and coffee at the moment. I am going to go home and make a healthy comforting soup and cuddle up with a blanket and a book I started last night and hopefully sleep. Have a great night everyone! Here's to day 2!
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Hi all,
Welcome B123
Hope work wasn't too bad Caretaker and hope you get a better night tonight
Great to read that tink. congrats on 2 weeks tomorrow. I'm a week behind you
hope you're both ok Venus and Dee and everyone else.
I'm really tired as slept badly last night and had another day of bad eating today which always makes me feel bad but still I do it. Still better than drinking. Going to bed sober and at peace. I will wake with 1 week tomorrow and start afresh with eating better.
Welcome B123
Hope work wasn't too bad Caretaker and hope you get a better night tonight
Great to read that tink. congrats on 2 weeks tomorrow. I'm a week behind you
hope you're both ok Venus and Dee and everyone else.
I'm really tired as slept badly last night and had another day of bad eating today which always makes me feel bad but still I do it. Still better than drinking. Going to bed sober and at peace. I will wake with 1 week tomorrow and start afresh with eating better.
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Hope you get caught up on your sleep RAL my eating still isn't the best but like you say got to be better than drinking, im trying to let things happen gradually as know if i push myself too diet too much i tend to relapse. On plus I'm defo less bloated especially in the face.
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Goodnight dearest RAL....hope you get some good sleep tonight. 
s ❤️
Love to all of you....off to warm up with another shower. It's nice outside, but 12C for an Aussie is still pretty freezing.
s ❤️Love to all of you....off to warm up with another shower. It's nice outside, but 12C for an Aussie is still pretty freezing.
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Originally Posted by caretaker88 
Just finishing up my work day. Nope, I couldn't leave early- I supervise nurses in a hospital for the mentally ill and dangerous- not an option most of the time. I am running on adrenaline and coffee at the moment. I am going to go home and make a healthy comforting soup and cuddle up with a blanket and a book I started last night and hopefully sleep. Have a great night everyone! Here's to day 2!
sSo glad you are going home to lovely soup and warmth and comfort.
s xxxxx ❤️
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Enjoy your shower
Thanks caretaker
I'm the same Tink, I'm listening to my body and if it wants cake it's getting cake. for now anyway. It's better than wine.
hope you're ok Be123, just read your thread.You sound really strong in such a difficult situation. By staying sober, it will all be alright in the end.
Thanks caretaker
I'm the same Tink, I'm listening to my body and if it wants cake it's getting cake. for now anyway. It's better than wine.
hope you're ok Be123, just read your thread.You sound really strong in such a difficult situation. By staying sober, it will all be alright in the end.
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Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
Thanks Dee.
Hi Erratic. I'm in too. I'm embarrassed to be in yet another class but I need the support so there is no place for shame or embarrassment I think
Day 4. I keep getting to day 10,20,30 even 60 and then drink. I have to stop this cycle. I know why I drink -I'm not miserable, unhappy, hiding something. I just like the feel of it. I get to a point where Ive had so many sober days and then the craving hits. Instead of fighting it or even TRYING to fight it I just tell myself I'm an adult, I want a drink,I'll have a drink. So I drink.
When I stop drinking I feel so great and want to be sober more than I want to drink. BUT in that key moment 2,3,4 weeks sober want to drink more than I want to be sober so I drink. It's a split second thing. I have had long periods of sobriety before and have had those moments where I am fighting and discussing with AV and have done urge surfing etc and working through them and NOT drank, gone on to have years of sobriety.
But now, over the last few months it feels different. There is no doubt, negotiation or even consideration. I just throw it all away and drink in that moment which then leads to weeks of every night.
What do I do differently this time? How do I tell myself in THAT moment that drinking is not a good idea. I mean I know it but the AV is so powerful.
I tend to go on holiday regularly and tell myself well you'll drink on holiday so why not now? So I have cancelled all my holidays booked for this year. I am not going anywhere but staying home and focusing on my sobriety. Obviously I need to do more but for now getting through each day.
Starting to feel a bit better today. Sorry for long post just need to write down my mindset. Thank you.
Hi Erratic. I'm in too. I'm embarrassed to be in yet another class but I need the support so there is no place for shame or embarrassment I think
Day 4. I keep getting to day 10,20,30 even 60 and then drink. I have to stop this cycle. I know why I drink -I'm not miserable, unhappy, hiding something. I just like the feel of it. I get to a point where Ive had so many sober days and then the craving hits. Instead of fighting it or even TRYING to fight it I just tell myself I'm an adult, I want a drink,I'll have a drink. So I drink.
When I stop drinking I feel so great and want to be sober more than I want to drink. BUT in that key moment 2,3,4 weeks sober want to drink more than I want to be sober so I drink. It's a split second thing. I have had long periods of sobriety before and have had those moments where I am fighting and discussing with AV and have done urge surfing etc and working through them and NOT drank, gone on to have years of sobriety.
But now, over the last few months it feels different. There is no doubt, negotiation or even consideration. I just throw it all away and drink in that moment which then leads to weeks of every night.
What do I do differently this time? How do I tell myself in THAT moment that drinking is not a good idea. I mean I know it but the AV is so powerful.
I tend to go on holiday regularly and tell myself well you'll drink on holiday so why not now? So I have cancelled all my holidays booked for this year. I am not going anywhere but staying home and focusing on my sobriety. Obviously I need to do more but for now getting through each day.
Starting to feel a bit better today. Sorry for long post just need to write down my mindset. Thank you.
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Hi everyone
I really had hoped that I wouldn’t be joining any more classes, but here I am, along with you guys.
Because I messed up. Again. But I really, really don’t want to drink again. Ever.
I just can’t drink normally, it always spirals out of control and I get really really depressed. But I’m done with it. And I’m hopeful that this is the last class I’ll ever have to join.
I’m now on day 3 and the black cloud of despair is starting to lift again. This time I am going to remind myself of that black cloud that lurks inside wine. When I even contemplate a drink, I’m going to visualise the swirling nasty black cloud of despair inside the wine that I will release into me if I let a drop of alcohol touch my lips.
No wine, no black cloud of despair.
Plus exercise and good food and staying hydrated. Every single day.
I will not drink that black cloud today. Not any day.
I hope you all have a good day
I really had hoped that I wouldn’t be joining any more classes, but here I am, along with you guys.
Because I messed up. Again. But I really, really don’t want to drink again. Ever.
I just can’t drink normally, it always spirals out of control and I get really really depressed. But I’m done with it. And I’m hopeful that this is the last class I’ll ever have to join.
I’m now on day 3 and the black cloud of despair is starting to lift again. This time I am going to remind myself of that black cloud that lurks inside wine. When I even contemplate a drink, I’m going to visualise the swirling nasty black cloud of despair inside the wine that I will release into me if I let a drop of alcohol touch my lips.
No wine, no black cloud of despair.
Plus exercise and good food and staying hydrated. Every single day.
I will not drink that black cloud today. Not any day.
I hope you all have a good day
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So once again I just wrote to you in another thread....
Going to grab part of it....
When we have been in this spiral for so long we lose our self-worth I think.
Our ability to believe that we are the people we thought or hoped we were.
But it isn't true....we are not bad or hopeless....we are in a cycle/illness/addiction that requires proper care and continued treatment. And when we do that, we begin to feel better about ourselves.
s xxxx ❤️
Going to grab part of it....
When we have been in this spiral for so long we lose our self-worth I think.
Our ability to believe that we are the people we thought or hoped we were.
But it isn't true....we are not bad or hopeless....we are in a cycle/illness/addiction that requires proper care and continued treatment. And when we do that, we begin to feel better about ourselves.
s xxxx ❤️
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Hi everyone
Hope it's ok to join the group.
Day 11 for me. Emotions are all over the place, trying to stay busy. Not sure what's up with all the chocolate I'm eating? I didn't know I even liked chocolate?
Going to stock up on fruit tomorrow, no doubt a healthier indulgence.
Hope you all have a great night and sleep well!
Hope it's ok to join the group.
Day 11 for me. Emotions are all over the place, trying to stay busy. Not sure what's up with all the chocolate I'm eating? I didn't know I even liked chocolate?
Going to stock up on fruit tomorrow, no doubt a healthier indulgence.
Hope you all have a great night and sleep well!
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