Purplrks3647

(((Sooz))) Sending lots of hugs

PhoenixJ

I hope you feel more connected and at peace, Suze.

venuscat

I am more connected to my husband....I told him I need help here, so that's good.
I can't readily deal with this level of pain...ibuprofen only goes so far and the anti-bs make me feel sick. And I can't lie down....my neck is too swollen. Maye propped up on two pillows tonight. Just the kind of time you want the Aussie medical stuff....clinics you can go to this minute. And even the hospital if you need to. This is hard for me. I am lost at sea right now.

Dee74

I think another trip to the docs is called for Suze - that's not right after this amount of time.

D

venuscat

Yeah....both are on the table for tomorrow,,,,doc and dentist. Doc first. Not so much fun but better than being drunk and hungover any day. I just feel bad cos I let my fear stop me from dealing with this ages ago. But bad luck. It is what it is and self-recrimination ends up in self-pity pretty fast. I did that...now I can do better. s

Purplrks3647

Hope your appointments go well today Sooz

Bobbieka

Sending lots of love, Suze. I hope you can get some relief.

ManInTheArena

Hey gang. Back from the traveling thing, just catching up.

Venus, I really hope you can get some relief. Sometimes the pain is unbearable - I've been there. Keep us posted.

PJ - glad things seem to keep moving in a positive direction for you!!

Spacegoat - great to see you. Potatoes gonna Potate

Hi BBG, Bobbie, Purps and Caramel (and Dee!!)

So, Im doing okay the last couple of days - I had a few touch and go moments during my traveling though. I should have posted, but sometimes the timing is tough. Here is a strange thing though - I came close, very close, to having a drink. The thought of it actually made me almost physically ill. Really, I thought I was going to throw up. I'm kind of happy for the physical response - I think it helped keep me on the right track - but I'm kind of concerned about that strong of a physical response. That's a new thing for me. Has anyone ever experienced this? I haven't read about this happening.

I'm off work today for the MLK Day holiday - so taking it slow and enjoying the peace and quiet. Oh wait, it's landscaping Monday in my neighborhood - I guess I'll just take it slow

Caramel

Greetings, ManInTheArena, thanks for the mention.

Glad you continue to do ok.

Bobbieka

Hey MITA. Enjoy your day off. I've never had a physical response to the thought, but I have felt sick smelling alcohol when we were around people that were drinking. Seems like your body was protecting itself maybe.

Have a great day, March People!

Dee74

Hope all went well Suze

D

venuscat

It went for a long time.
I am in way less pain but may have quite a few procedures in front of me.
They can't do more till all of the swelling subsides.

Thank you all very much.....I honestly don't remember most of yesterday. Funny how that happens with trauma and pain.

Bobbieka

Hugs, Suze.

Have an awesome day, guys!
January 21, 2020
– NATIONAL HUGGING DAY
– SQUIRREL APPRECIATION DAY
– NATIONAL GRANOLA BAR DAY

ManInTheArena

Take it slow, Venus - sometimes progress comes in baby steps

Bobbie, they were doing some kind of segment on squirrels on one of the local morning shows. Did you know that squirrels can be either right or left "handed", like us? I guess it's not surprising - as I think about it, probably most mammals can have a dominant "hand".

I started watching this movie last night called "Don't worry, he won't get far on foot". It's about this guy in recovery who is paralyzed from a car accident he was in and the healing power of art. Made me kind of think of you, PJ. Some of it is hard to watch - so a warning on that front. Maybe its come up here before and I missed it?

Be good ...

PhoenixJ

Hoping you feel better, Suze. I relate to the pain/trauma and not being able to remember stuff. A daily battle for me....but much better than the alternative.

Trauma and art- almost a direct replacement for escaping life by seeking oblivion with booze. I was reminded (as ever) of where booze left me in the end the other day. The biopolymer skin I have on 20% of me is a miracle - a wonder. But it is not skin- although it blends with skin. I heped a neighbor work out how to put her back seats down on her sedan car- for extra boot space, and got a 10mm diameter skin tear- which I did not feel- but saw later. Despite covering it- dressings etc- with in a week, it had tripled in size. No infection- clean, but the biopolymer takes about 5 times as long to heal and does not like adhesive backed dressings (obviously with a nonstick dressing bit). So I have overengineered a dressing- based on what the Burns guys do- but more. A dressing, strapped on each side with paper surgical tape- THEN reinforced with surgical tape- orbiting my forearm (loosely dso as not to cause constriction).

Always my brain goes straight to booze+blackout = what you got now to look at...…

wth- better than the alternative..

ManInTheArena

That's a pretty crazy story PJ. I had no idea that's how your new skin is - awesome in its own way, really.

Off to a decent start this morning - got my startin' fluid and a few projects to work through. Continue to work on my own recovery baby steps - just trying to remain realistic about day-to-day issues and managing my expectations a bit about how much better things can get in only a short time (not a huge amount - but a little better most days!!!)

Thanks guys - have a great day

PhoenixJ

A good way of thinking MITA.

Dee74

you handle a lot PJ - gotta hand it to ya man

D

ManInTheArena

Work day all wrapped up - not bad, as far as work goes

Venus, how are you doing today? I hope MUCH BETTER!!

venuscat

It has been hard....in between dental procedures and it hurts.
But it will be better soon. Or in a while.
And thank you. s xxxxxx