Class of March 2016 Part 82
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There was nothing specifically- just an attack of the grief/sad/depression kicking in. Exercise helps a lot. Thanks people for the concern. I suppose when others share about their kids, or their wonderful Christmas's...I just feel crap. Much better today.
Well I have finished my good deed stuff. A friend of mine (with a Master's degree, mind) moved into a 1br flat- downsizing from a 3br townhouse. Only prob was- she did not realise until after she signed the lease- that it was furnished. So for the moment- my spare bedroom is a storage facility. 5 car loads (I have a 4wd).
The weather is more mild today, which is good. Gym work going well- have to get back into a routine again and start art with rules practice. With my shot memory- what others find easy., I struggle with, so this is a must do..
Well I have finished my good deed stuff. A friend of mine (with a Master's degree, mind) moved into a 1br flat- downsizing from a 3br townhouse. Only prob was- she did not realise until after she signed the lease- that it was furnished. So for the moment- my spare bedroom is a storage facility. 5 car loads (I have a 4wd).
The weather is more mild today, which is good. Gym work going well- have to get back into a routine again and start art with rules practice. With my shot memory- what others find easy., I struggle with, so this is a must do..
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Hello Marcheros.
Sounds like a good day, Purps.
I made it to the gym this morning, but nothing too crazy. I'm mostly just doing a bit a warm up to get my body temp up and my muscles loose, and then working on mobility and flexibility. I'm finding it to be kind of a zen thing - especially when I'm using that foam roller
Enjoy the day everyone!!
Sounds like a good day, Purps.
I made it to the gym this morning, but nothing too crazy. I'm mostly just doing a bit a warm up to get my body temp up and my muscles loose, and then working on mobility and flexibility. I'm finding it to be kind of a zen thing - especially when I'm using that foam roller
Enjoy the day everyone!!
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Happy Monday all
While in general not my favorite day of the week, today is starting out ok. Kind of busy, but that is fine. Some travel this week.
It was a good weekend. We had a neighborhood part to go on Saturday - all the wine snobs get together about once a month. Fortunately, in AZ water is almost always an acceptable beverage. I tell them I am sparkling water connoisseur.
Have a great day!!
While in general not my favorite day of the week, today is starting out ok. Kind of busy, but that is fine. Some travel this week.
It was a good weekend. We had a neighborhood part to go on Saturday - all the wine snobs get together about once a month. Fortunately, in AZ water is almost always an acceptable beverage. I tell them I am sparkling water connoisseur.
Have a great day!!
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Happy Monday.
It's gloomy out. and cold.
We took the 3 granddaughters to see Nick Jr. Live yesterday. I have to say, it was fun and I am not as young as I used to be. They wore us out. Grateful we got to take them.
Have a great day, guys!
It's gloomy out. and cold.
We took the 3 granddaughters to see Nick Jr. Live yesterday. I have to say, it was fun and I am not as young as I used to be. They wore us out. Grateful we got to take them.
Have a great day, guys!
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Well folks, yesterday I started my climb back into art with rules by setting up my studio. I do not retain info- unless reinforced over time, as my memory is shot- from THAT incident. I could not find something I thought I needed (oils) and without conscious thought- my bod and brain went back into c-PTSD mode...where every negative memory and every negative thought and emotion is manifest...regardless of how simple the event/task. I knew logically what to do, I accepted the feelings/thought and continued on, I mindfully breathed- did the HALTS stuff and went to the gym. I cleaned, cooked, supported others- in other words I did what I do every day- but at such times doing 'normal' stuff is so exhausting- especially the connection with thoughts, and pain. The pain is real enough (no migraine- thankfully) but all I can really do is wait it out. It sucks somedays. I will never give in or isolate or ignore others, it is very frustrating. Still sore today and away soon to support a friend, but then back into the business of my life- with what I need to do. Even though I am an advocate of sometimes just enough- IS enough, I prefer to be more productive.
....Sounds like you're on top of the mindful crap!
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Started art with rules- chromatic tonal scale and stuff, and music practice...I have improved somewhat.
Brother mine sent email after a year's silence, a begrudging acknowledgement of recent birthday. He started off with 'I don't know why I am doing this again'...and finished with '..do not see this as an invitation to burn me again'.
I replied if he doesn't know why, then don't and the bro he remembers does no longer exist. I understand his thought process but I am not going there. I knew my mind on the email, and replied appropriately in kind- emotions? The usual feeling crap with any contact, didn't sleep well, but more annoyance than anything. He did say he hopes I am okay, but the tone of the message was - it was all about him. Not interested. Draining though.
It is not the thoughts or feelings, but what I do that defines me.
Brother mine sent email after a year's silence, a begrudging acknowledgement of recent birthday. He started off with 'I don't know why I am doing this again'...and finished with '..do not see this as an invitation to burn me again'.
I replied if he doesn't know why, then don't and the bro he remembers does no longer exist. I understand his thought process but I am not going there. I knew my mind on the email, and replied appropriately in kind- emotions? The usual feeling crap with any contact, didn't sleep well, but more annoyance than anything. He did say he hopes I am okay, but the tone of the message was - it was all about him. Not interested. Draining though.
It is not the thoughts or feelings, but what I do that defines me.
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Sorry about the email pj.
I did a lot of things wring as a drinker, but I've worked damn hard to change,m and to make amends.
There's a couple of people who want to see me keep paying - that's entirely their prerogative and their call - but I don't have to assume the position of whipping boy any longer
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I did a lot of things wring as a drinker, but I've worked damn hard to change,m and to make amends.
There's a couple of people who want to see me keep paying - that's entirely their prerogative and their call - but I don't have to assume the position of whipping boy any longer
D
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