24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 468
Member
Join Date: May 2013
Location: Coquitlam B.C.
Posts: 3,760
After 6 years I finding hard to keep going my mind really crazy,
I like my sober me. Life is better sober . I went for a walk with 3 youngest kids their are turning on being, beautiful people my other 3 they are fine but not that close to me.
My counsellor is not available medical reasons. I being think on hoW to buy cyanide pills , why I go to the extreme being feel down for awhile, hey in the positive side I’m looking forward for my next 24, hours Of freedom from alcohol and drugs.
I like my sober me. Life is better sober . I went for a walk with 3 youngest kids their are turning on being, beautiful people my other 3 they are fine but not that close to me.
My counsellor is not available medical reasons. I being think on hoW to buy cyanide pills , why I go to the extreme being feel down for awhile, hey in the positive side I’m looking forward for my next 24, hours Of freedom from alcohol and drugs.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,433
Eric.....your counsellor may be unavailable but there is always someone to talk to who really cares and wants to help. I know if Dee was here right now he would point out the crisis lines there....I am going to find them.
You have my number and I am totally available....just working on my menagerie of plants and talking to my favourite squirrel.
BRB with the numbers.
Please hang in there....things can always get better.
Suicide is a horrendous end of the line darling Eric.
I need you.....we all do.
s ❤️
https://www.healthlinkbc.ca/mental-h.../crisis-centre
You have my number and I am totally available....just working on my menagerie of plants and talking to my favourite squirrel.
BRB with the numbers.
Please hang in there....things can always get better.
Suicide is a horrendous end of the line darling Eric.
I need you.....we all do.
s ❤️https://www.healthlinkbc.ca/mental-h.../crisis-centre
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Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 5,970
Checking in
I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas .
It poured rain here Christmas Day , the fires around us are officially OUT. What a wonderful Christmas present.
Working long hours at the moment so may not be around a lot.
Love to all
7.35 am in Auss
I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas .
It poured rain here Christmas Day , the fires around us are officially OUT. What a wonderful Christmas present.
Working long hours at the moment so may not be around a lot.
Love to all
7.35 am in Auss
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,344
I'm so glad the fires are out Aussie 
Congrats milestoners!
Chaisson ~ 4 weeks! ♥
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Hats ~ 2 years & 4 months! ♥
lilymaz ~ 2 years & 5 months! ♥
PhoenixJ ~ 3 years & 9 months! ♥
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Congrats milestoners!
Chaisson ~ 4 weeks! ♥
Purplrks3647 ~ 1 year!! ♥
Hats ~ 2 years & 4 months! ♥
lilymaz ~ 2 years & 5 months! ♥
PhoenixJ ~ 3 years & 9 months! ♥
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,637
Post lots Erfra, support to you.
So very well done purp.
Always a stress time of year- as mem's of dead bro (booze- we turned him off) who I share a birthday with (not twins, he was 3y older). My other bro matter of factly informed me I was in the same bad, same ICU bro died in- after waking from an induced coma. I know what NOT to do, and the days drag at times, but even in such times- my gratitude for every breath I take is there.
24 more.
So very well done purp.
Always a stress time of year- as mem's of dead bro (booze- we turned him off) who I share a birthday with (not twins, he was 3y older). My other bro matter of factly informed me I was in the same bad, same ICU bro died in- after waking from an induced coma. I know what NOT to do, and the days drag at times, but even in such times- my gratitude for every breath I take is there.
24 more.
EnjoyingTheJourney
Join Date: Aug 2015
Posts: 3,847
Originally Posted by erfra7 
After 6 years I finding hard to keep going my mind really crazy,
I like my sober me. Life is better sober . I went for a walk with 3 youngest kids their are turning on being, beautiful people my other 3 they are fine but not that close to me.
My counsellor is not available medical reasons. I being think on hoW to buy cyanide pills , why I go to the extreme being feel down for awhile, hey in the positive side I’m looking forward for my next 24, hours Of freedom from alcohol and drugs.
I like my sober me. Life is better sober . I went for a walk with 3 youngest kids their are turning on being, beautiful people my other 3 they are fine but not that close to me.
My counsellor is not available medical reasons. I being think on hoW to buy cyanide pills , why I go to the extreme being feel down for awhile, hey in the positive side I’m looking forward for my next 24, hours Of freedom from alcohol and drugs.
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EnjoyingTheJourney
Join Date: Aug 2015
Posts: 3,847
Originally Posted by Purplrks3647
Chaisson don't underestimate yourself ~ four weeks is huge! 
This picture is how I feel today
This picture is how I feel today
Lol, after almost 4 years of sobriety I still don't know what I'm doing either.
EnjoyingTheJourney
Join Date: Aug 2015
Posts: 3,847
Originally Posted by Optimist4ever57
I will stay sober for the next 24.
As magical as Christmas Eve was at my son's house, it didn't last. Nothing awful, just suffering some flashbacks from when I was married to his dad. Like walking on eggshells. I'm sure he was craving a drink but I thought I raised him better than to be so rude to people.
Or not. There's a ton of stuff to discuss with my therapist 😵.
So, here's to Day 8. Nice to have a week under my belt.
Congratulations to everyone celebrating even the tiniest victory today, and healing thoughts and prayers for those hurting and struggling.
With much love,
Sue
As magical as Christmas Eve was at my son's house, it didn't last. Nothing awful, just suffering some flashbacks from when I was married to his dad. Like walking on eggshells. I'm sure he was craving a drink but I thought I raised him better than to be so rude to people.
Or not. There's a ton of stuff to discuss with my therapist 😵.
So, here's to Day 8. Nice to have a week under my belt.
Congratulations to everyone celebrating even the tiniest victory today, and healing thoughts and prayers for those hurting and struggling.
With much love,
Sue
Keep going - it gets better.
Member
Join Date: May 2013
Location: Coquitlam B.C.
Posts: 3,760
Originally Posted by venuscat
Eric.....your counsellor may be unavailable but there is always someone to talk to who really cares and wants to help. I know if Dee was here right now he would point out the crisis lines there....I am going to find them.
You have my number and I am totally available....just working on my menagerie of plants and talking to my favourite squirrel.
BRB with the numbers.
Please hang in there....things can always get better.
Suicide is a horrendous end of the line darling Eric.
I need you.....we all do. s ❤️
https://www.healthlinkbc.ca/mental-h.../crisis-centre
You have my number and I am totally available....just working on my menagerie of plants and talking to my favourite squirrel.
BRB with the numbers.
Please hang in there....things can always get better.
Suicide is a horrendous end of the line darling Eric.
I need you.....we all do.
s ❤️https://www.healthlinkbc.ca/mental-h.../crisis-centre
i think loneliness is getting to me. i have 2 attempts before, scare me being old here.....
buy new laptop today the old one is done and die. lucky eh!
for listening....Suze you 
big time....
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