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Old 04-17-2020, 09:47 AM
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Glad you guys are bearing up. I could do with more work myself but I think it is going to get worse before it gets better.

In a strange reversal of how things were when she was a teenager and still living at home my now 27 y o daughter phoned to tell me off for going out (I only went to wash my car in its allotted parking space as I live in an apartment)
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Old 04-17-2020, 10:58 AM
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I managed to do some writing today - have to admit, it's really exhausting because the topic is mostly unknown to me, but I'm trying my best to get a handle on it. So a large chunk of my day went on that. Then there was a nap and now I'm looking to get some gaming in for good measure.

The work guy contacted me (already yesterday, actually) - there was an offer available but it fell through. He said that his memory cannot conjure up a time where his entire week was completely void of translating. According to him, there was still 'something' even during the 2008 financial crisis. But all in all, it did give me a little bit of hope that work will eventually return. And it would be best, for now, if I could get some odd small translations here and there as I push forward with my research activities.

Since one of the book chapter proposals was officially accepted recently, this means I'll have quite a schedule last 2 weeks of May and early June to get it done alright. The current thing I'm engaged in, and which teaches me something entirely new each day I read some theory or other works, was for course work. Today we got an email saying that incomplete analyses are welcome as well at the deadline (midnight Sunday), and that basically you don't need to submit it for this midway evaluation to get a grade. I was relieved to read about the incomplete projects being welcome part, because there's no way I'll finish it on time - it's too far out of my usual range and therefore more demanding (in order to do well).

PS: Sao - I found myself doing the same thing on the phone to my grandma. She still has a lot of 'girlfriends' who pop by every now and again, so I thought it necessary to remind her 'this is not the time for that'. Realising at the same time, there's no one pushing to meet me lol

End of Day 340. I did not drink today.
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Old 04-18-2020, 09:31 AM
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Well done on the writing kk and well done on 340 days, getting close to a year now.

I notice that this thread is getting close to 500 posts too so well done on that.
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Old 04-18-2020, 01:38 PM
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Howdy all, I write from the depths of my usual afternoon doldrums.

On the positive side of things: I finally got the collar sewed so it lines up mostly right; also I chased my Dad into his bedroom to take his nap so I can have the run of the apartment without his disturbing snores; I've gotten myself to do a bit of yoga and push ups. The latter does give my mood a bit of a wiggle away from depression.

K, I'm glad you have the mental escapism of that computer game. I have been finding my escapism in rewatching the Australian mini series Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries. Also I have discovered a Victorian author, Frances Trollope who I am really enjoying. The novel is a bit of a commentary on British classicism which I find fascinating.

Saotchik and Dee do you two have some kind of non-alcoholic escapism you practice?

So I'm off to tidy up a bit, do 10 more push ups and read some more Frances Trollope.
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Old 04-18-2020, 01:58 PM
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Thanks Sao - it seems that slow and steady does it Soon enough it's time for a new thread.

Bekind, it's good that you have that series. Interestingly, I've recently only watched documentaries or the likes of Last Week Tonight on TV. Some movies here or there. But I'm not currently into any particular show. The Walking Dead finale was postponed. In a very dark way, I find amusing that a show about relentless zombies (due to a mysterious disease) cannot continue production ...due to a mysterious disease.

I spent most of my day re-writing a section of the paper I'm working on. Now, this is 'not funny' (cause it applies to me, right) because this single section I was re-writing is also the only section I have....total. Which means I actually don't even have anything else to submit for feedback from other participants in the course.

And my brain was so tired that after I had dinner at around 6 pm and then just lounged around for a bit, I fell asleep and woke up only at 11 pm. Truth be told, I woke up quite refreshed. I'm not sure why, but this particular project (or this current section of it) is somehow 'extra exhausting'. Today and yesterday definitely weren't what I'd call 'writing days', because it was so heavy on the so-called 'thinking in writing' stuff that it just tires me out.

I'll see what tomorrow brings regarding the manuscript/project and if I'm able to put some more meat on those bones. Although, I think that now ...the 'bones' are at least a bit stronger compared to yesterday's state of affairs.

Hope everyone enjoyed their Saturday the best way they could.

End of Day 341. I did not drink today.
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Old 04-19-2020, 10:58 AM
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Had myself a day off today. Made some spring rolls in the oven once again, those are delicious.

Think I needed a break anyways, because the past couple of days have been kind of rough on the brain. Sent in what I had for feedback, we'll see how my (very incomplete) submission is received and reviewed. Hopefully I'll get some solid feedback on the portion I did end up submitting. The material is interesting but exhausting, so it's going to take a while to finish it.

Anyways, hope everyone had a good weekend (or are still having one). I ended up watching a docu/crime on netflix titled 'Tiger King'. It's about this Joe Exotic character and other big cat 'enthusiasts'. They are most definitely a really weird bunch.

End of Day 342. I did not drink today.
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Old 04-20-2020, 03:40 AM
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Hi folks, haven't read back yet, just want to send my best wishes to you all and hopes that you keep well and of course, sober - though I've no worries on the latter, you're all sounding solid!
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Old 04-20-2020, 10:56 AM
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I hope you get some positive feedback kk

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Saotchik and Dee do you two have some kind of non-alcoholic escapism you practice?
In the first two years of my recovery I spent almost every spare minute that I wasn't at work restoring an old Lancia - I sort of documented it on SR a bit like kk's diary. It was a major undertaking driven by a fear of relapsing. I don't think I have it in me to repeat that. Nowadays I limit myself to contributing to a few classic car and engineering forums.
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Old 04-20-2020, 11:23 AM
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Saoutchik, people who can do music and fix cars are kind of semi Gods to me as these two bodies of knowledge are a mystery to me. I have changed my own oil and did learn some Gregorian chant at one time so perhaps I'm not quite a zero on cars and music but I'm pretty close.

Yesterday, Sunday, was a Do-Diddly-Day. I accomplished little to nothing. Ugh. We did have our family self-directed mass. My continues to love it as his grandkids show up.

Today was one of the bimonthly drive my car around a bit just so it isn't sitting without driving for several months (I vaguely understand that it is not good for cars to sit for months on end.) Yeehaw, big deal for me these days.

I made myself a quick mask out of quilting cotton before I went out. I"m a bit dubious on the efficacy of masks as it seems that it blocks the air from coming through the cloth and so directs air intake to the sides where the mask it not airtight . . . .of course I don't know for sure.

Well off to do some more push ups, change the needle in my sewing machine and measure and pin some sleeve trim.
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Old 04-20-2020, 12:32 PM
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The Rome building crowd is very active tonight, I'm happy to see

To add my own 2 cents about escapism, then I think I use copious amounts of documentary films and series to quiet my thoughts (however odd that sounds). When I was a kid, maybe like 10 years old, I remember having a small radio which I used to listen to late in the evenings before sleep. Sometimes, hearing someone speak softly about a random topic helped me fall asleep. The reception on the things wasn't anything to shout about and the best that was available from local radio stations, which tended to have shows with speaking rather than music were a Christian radio, a classical music/art/culture radio and then a more general education/news of the day radio, which had the best shows. Mostly I couldn't stomach the Christian radio, because their topics and zeal sounded so weird to my ears even then. Classics radio had the distinct downside of ...music :P So, my favourite situation was when the 'news of the day' radio had good shows about history, for example.

When I drank, and woke up the next noon horribly hungover, I'd put on some soft-spoken documentary and try to sleep for the entire day. That voice from the documentary was my escape from utter loneliness, the shame and guilt of 'I did again, why can't I ...', and shutting out the world and all of its requirements, rules and the like. Those documentaries, sounds and topics were like a cocoon that allowed me to cut ties with reality as I recuperated. Alcohol 'functioned' to the same end. Of course, due to my past drinking, my sleep schedules are still pretty messed up at times, but they have certainly become a whole lot better since quitting.

So I guess for me, the perfect escape is still a quiet sounding documentary (preferably about history) that induces sleep. Sleep, in general, seems to be the way my family deals with things. My mother has also reported that during tough times, she would sleep a lot more. When I drank, 'sleeping it off' way past the time that I could have theoretically become functional again was, starting at some point, a conscious decision because it allowed the time to pass me by. Not sure when it happened exactly, but I had realised that every cringeworthy event gets easier to reflect on and deal with in time. There were things that didn't get easier, and only slightly faded as time went on, but for the most part this technique 'worked' (i.e. what I expected would happen, happened, even though it never really solved anything).

Just today, actually, I woke up okay but I never managed to shake a sleepy feeling, even with a decent breakfast and a cup of coffee.

I started my morning by listening to a lecture, half a sleep lol. But at around 1pm I just 'gave up' and slept until 5 pm. After that I felt really refreshed and had a cup of coffee, made dinner.

Also, I managed to complete a small section of the manuscript this evening, which I'm very glad about and grateful for. It was one of those 'this idea is ready now' things.
Somehow, during the day, I also managed to communicate enough with the lecturer in whose course my so-called written lecture will be used the day after tomorrow. The text and tasks are mostly set up for the students - they'll just get the text and do their tasks and then I'll check if they did enough. Admittedly, this solution probably didn't raise my stock price too much but at the current time I'm okay with it.

Think I'll read for a bit and then shut down the laptop for tonight. Figured I'd say 'hope I'll get to write another passage tomorrow', but I'm retreating to 'I hope I'll get decent sleep' - that seems to be a far better indicator of what does or doesn't happen on any given day

Hope everyone is feeling and doing alright.

End of Day 343. I did not drink today.
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Old 04-21-2020, 10:10 AM
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I have heard Gregorian chants are great for restoring classic cars although I'm sad to relate my method often involved a lot of swearing when things went wrong.

I hope you manage to get outside for a while at least kk. Sunlight it is really important for good sleep - I learned that at a lecture given by a doctor at a science exhibition.
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Old 04-21-2020, 10:30 AM
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True - the weather is getting better here, so I should go.

Today was a day of looking at the ceiling, no real motivation to do anything. Tomorrow I then have to check on some students doing online tasks/exercises based on the materials that I submitted last week. That'll be interesting and different.

Other than that - well, I found a Netflix documentary titled Dirty Money. I'm on season 1 ep 2. So far it's a great series. First one was about the VW diesel scam and the second is about payday loans in the US. Well made stuff.

I just made 'a muffin' (singular) - just poured the batter mix into a baking tray. Zero F's given.

End of Day 344. I did not drink today.
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Old 04-21-2020, 02:43 PM
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The muffin (singular) makes me laugh. Living single changes things. I've done stuff like that.

S, maybe you could put me on speaker and I will chant to whatever your mechanical problem is. The Salve Regina has lots about groaning and crying in misery to our merciful mother Mary . . . not sure it is totally appropriate except groaning and crying is too often a natural reaction to much of life.

I managed to get in a bit of exercise, a bit of sewing and also cleaned my Dad's bathroom. He had a huge amount of detritus on his bathroom counter. At some point, the elderly stop dealing effectively with stuff and it just stays wherever they left it. It was wierd to go through my Mom's wallet after the Alzheimers took her. The last reciept showed the last time a financial transaction was relevant to her. This life is really a short show.

Well all take that next right step no matter how teeny it is.
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Old 04-22-2020, 01:33 PM
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Today was mostly okay, I'd say.

It was grocery store day, which means I stocked up my fridge that had become quite empty. Now I've got salad materials, fries, pork for schnitzels, chicken wings (which I'll probably be making in the oven tomorrow), gizzards :P for those sauces. There's something to cook with again and that's a positive. Quite frankly, once the coronavirus emergency situation lifts, I think I will put effort into retaining a similar food shopping approach - once, maybe twice a week. When things are running out, I'll use creativity rather than the ease of walking to the store for every little thing.

Can't really consider it exercise, of course, but at least the shopping got me out of the apartment and into the sun for a brief while.

I woke up real early and stayed awake for no reason until I had breakfast, then ...as always (sigh) ... I fell back asleep. When woke up and checked the online study system, I saw that the students had started on their tasks. It was cool to see them apply a theoretical framework (my own concoction) to real life problems. It was especially cool to see that they 'got it' and came up with brief but interesting analyses on the basis of the framework.

Also managed to write some of my own text in the evening, a solid day-effort's worth. Just now I had to provide feedback to someone else's homework task in the course I'm in. And it was a super weird experience, because the work I was giving feedback to was just very awkward and sort of 'half-cocked' at best. No one's work is perfect, but you can (quite easily) see whether someone has put effort into their work or not. This person had, for some reason, decided not to do that ....

Just a quick bit about that documentary series I mentioned yesterday (Dirty Money) - the last episode of Season 1 is about the Donald if anyone is interested. About his various (failed) businesses and his status as a 'confidence man'.

Hope everyeone had a productive day. We're quickly coming to the end of this thread, only a few posts' worth of room left!

End of Day 345. I did not drink today.
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Hey, I posted last night but it got eaten by SR tech difficulties and/or user error. &nbsp;The latter is most likely.<div><br></div><div>K, your story of changing your grocery shopping habits makes me wonder how many human actions big and small will change after this &nbsp;is all over. &nbsp;</div><div><br></div><div>Bad thing of today: my lower back is acting up. &nbsp;Good thing of today: &nbsp;phone calls from friends and family.</div><div><br></div><div>I'm off to read a bit about 1880s underskirts and take another look at sleeve trim.</div><div><br></div><div>May all be well all.</div>
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Thanks for posting now, Bekind I hope your back gets better soon.&nbsp;<span style="font-size: 12pt;">I got work today! Yes, 30 pages to translate by Wednesday next. This was very good news, and I will get to it tomorrow morning. At the current rate I've been using my money, 30 pages is approximately three weeks worth of funds.&nbsp;</span><span style="font-size: 12pt;">Otherwise, I checked what the students had written for their tasks, and it continues to be cool seeing how they're applying the 'approach/tool' I created. Sometimes I wonder about 'coincidences' - because, my manuscript where I present this approach/tool had been sitting in the review order of a journal (without any initial response or anything) since the start of November... and the evening before the students are to start doing the tasks, the journal finally responds to one of my "are there any updates?" e-mail (I sent a total of two in the almost six months), and said they're waiting on reviews. Of course, this doesn't mean the manuscript will be successful but it does mean it didn't get so-called desk rejected for unsuitability.&nbsp;</span><span style="font-size: 12pt;">While I know this e-mail reply and the students applying the method just happen to coincide, it still makes me wonder :P It's the accuracy of the coincidence that makes me wonder lol.&nbsp;</span><span style="font-size: 12pt;">Hope everyone had a good day.&nbsp;</span><div><br></div><div>End of Day 346. I did not drink today.</div>
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Old 04-24-2020, 02:05 PM
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Since the posting system still looks and feels weird, I'm guessing the techies are still hard at work trying to fix stuff. The good news today was that one of my shorter articles was accepted, yay! I also managed to do about 8 or 8.5 pages of translating - although I discovered that the total amount will be larger than what the work guy initially suggested, so it'll be 30+ pages. Should be fine. Right now I graded some student responses and now I'm super ready to go to bed, maybe watch a bit of TV as I doze off. Hope everyone had a productive day. End of Day 347. I did not drink today.
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I can;t thank at the moment but still reading

ready for part 3 kk1k?

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Yep, I think so - I will be going with "All in all, Rome wasn't built in a day, eh? kk1k5x accountability thread Part 2" There's still a lot of days of building ahead
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no time like the present

part 2:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ad-pt-2-a.html ( All in all, Rome wasn't built in a day, eh? kk1k5x accountability thread Pt 2)
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