Misc72

Venus cat I hope you feel better ear infections are the worse!!

venuscat

Just so dizzy and yep, it hurts a lot.
However, I can just enjoy the last day of summer today and do things around the house, so I kind of feel spoiled.

Hope you have a great day love. xx

LuluBread

I'm back at day one again. I'll need to be here for some help. Feeling low and rattled with anxiety. My mother died last month and I've been getting panic attacks. All alone here in Texas. I can't believe she's dead...I wish I could call her. I have to start a new job too. It's all messed up. But I am thankful to have an apartment for my cats. FEELING SAD AND LONELY IT'S OVERWHELMING

Dascha

So far so kinda good, kinda bad...

Today is day 5 without drinking.. and still feeling rough 🙀
I've had a few thoughts come in my head to go grab just one can of hard ice tea, or something like that...

But it's just cheating on myself. I want to be free, not chained to a drink that ends up making me sick..every single time!!!

I guess what's hard to deal with is I have the issue of my disc problems, the headaches..chronic pain and muscle spasms in my neck, my arm is always on fire. Hopefully that will get fixed a bit by the surgery coming up . But that's still a couple of months away and I don't have a date yet.

I would like to go back to the gym, but I can't yet. Can't work either, and I honestly enjoy my job, I miss my friends at work too. I can feel I'm falling into a depression. It sucks.

I just want to crawl under the covers and hide..

LuluBread

I feel the same lurking depression too Patterson

venuscat

Oh gosh honey I am so sorry. ❤️
I lost my mum a few years ago.....it is the hardest thing on the planet. s

Really glad you are here with us... s
Yes, doing this together is the only way.
And you are not alone now.....we are all right there with you. ❤️

Gabe1980

Hi Everyone. I'd like to join please. 3rd October is the start of my recovery journey 💞

Dascha

I'm so sorry Lulu...

Losing my mom was the saddest moment of my life, for a few years after I would go to reach for the phone to call her...

I'm glad you have your home and cats, my cat is my best buddy, she helps my anxiety too. Just know you are not alone here, I guess we can be depressed together, and then get better together...💚💙💚

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Dascha

Hi Gabe!!

venuscat

Oh just so much love to both of you. Healing love. s

There are a lot of SRs who deal with chronic pain, and I know it sure isn't easy when you are detoxing.....but ultimately it doesn't help. s

Getting through day 5 is just HUGE Patterson....I bet tomorrow is a bit better.

And LuLu honey....right here with you all the way. s

venuscat

Just love you to pieces sweetheart....you coming back is an answer to a prayer for me. s ❤️

(Of course it's all about me.....he he )

Dascha

Thank you Venuscat!!!

You made me smile 😺
Ear infections are the worst! I'd want to cram anything into my ear to fix the pain...my know it all doctor didn't go for that treatment plan...lol

I hope you get some relief soon..😳

venuscat

Well my landlady just informed me that workers are coming tomorrow inside the house and I have to move a ton of stuff....so now I cannot go to my doctor's appt and I had a bit of a cow shall we say.....momentarily, then changed my appt and calmed down. I am really tired of my landlady's inconsideration.



And I do not feel well and yes Patterson, I want to rip my ear off.

Dascha

No kidding ...that's pretty short notice, certainly inconsiderate.
Take care, and try to take it easy...I suppose that's impossible when you have to move stuff....pfft landlords..

venuscat

Actually, I use this stuff to work on my recovery tools.
I still have a temper that is not good for me or anyone else....I am getting better, but I have a long way to go. I am annoyed about the doc appt though. I really need to see a doctor.

But mostly.....not such a big deal. And it is only one day this time instead of a week.

venuscat

Hello dear JulySeaCoast. s
Come join us. s

Dee74

welcome Gabe and LuluBread

for anyone doing it tough right now - try and focus on the fact this is NOT the best it gets - it gets a lot better

D

LuluBread

Made it through day one...looking forward to some peace and joy.

JulySeaCoast

Welcome, Alkfee!

JulySeaCoast

Thank you, Venuscat. I’d like to share a bit ~ I read the forum for months before joining Jan 2016 class. I was sober until mid Feb. ‘16. Then sober again July ‘17 to early Aug ‘17.

My last glass of wine (wine, always wine) was this past Sunday the 29th.

Why now? Not sure why. I will articulate more later. Need to organize my thoughts.
I know I was consuming way too much, up to a bottle of wine and sometimes an extra glass thrown in before bed. Starting drinking at dinner making time and stopping around 10 ish at night.
I can get up and go to work and get stuff done. So I am high functioning which only served to make me think I was fine. Just fine.
But I’m not. I hate what I’m doing to my health. My looks are suffering. I have had enough.
I learned hard lessons through the sober times and thinking I could have a glass here and there, I can moderate......no, no I cannot. Zero alcohol is my goal.
I am working on my plan to not drink. It’s mostly needing to work on making it through the 5:30 pm time. I am avoiding the kitchen and mostly getting takeout. That’s temporary though. I’ll post more as I go through process.
So happy to be here, I’ll say, and looking forward to learning from and helping our October class.