Dee74

hello Bob and Croutie

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Mags1

Morning Julyers

Hope you’re keeping well and weathering the storms/snow/rain and sun.

Love to all xxxx

SnoozyQ

Hello my fave SR peeps

Thanks so much for all the 1 year c9ngrats. It really means a lot.

I know I can do this now after managing to get through Claire's death without a drink.
Croutie how lovely to see you sweetheart. How is hubby going?
Have you seen the grandkids a lot. What about son and DIL .
I hope you are enjoying the retirement you both absolutely deserve

xx

Calmerwaters

I’ve had a confronting experience with a person with an alcohol problem in the workplace.

It’s been huge for me. Seeing the wearing too much scent, chewing gum, wearing a jacket buttoned up so people can’t smell the alcohol reeking out of their pores at work.

I have anger. This person has lied to my face about the situation.

Of course, I see the mirror. It’s like seeing my past self every day.

Dee74

Its very different dealing with someone in real life than it is here CW. You have my empathy.

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SnoozyQ

Wow Crois, so confronting, yet so sad.

Probably had good reasons for lying though.

I wouldn’t trust anyone in the workplace, I probably would have denied it too.

Feeling cringeworthy as I see myself in that post too xx

Soberwolf

Bit of a weird one .. just killing it weightlifting then this thought hit me like a brick

Was i saved ?

When the firemen pulled me to safety apparantly they said the whole house was 5 minutes from burning to the ground and obvs my certain death .. my neighbour made the call sbut like was i saved obvs black smoke coming out the windows isnt good while i was blackout on my bed burning away bbq style scars everywhere blah blah blah but it hit me was i saved yes my neighbour but idk and im dead serious too for us to be here now is awesome but we have all been through so much but indivudually its so deep heatbreaking etc but were here somehow

Weird and sirry if i sound nutty but i think i was saved not for any reason whatsoever but just saved thats what hit me so much i started saying thank you and stuff

Bk to weightlifting and oh ladies wait till you get a load of pics from a new much fitter stronger soberwolf i can do that thing with my pecs easy anyway gotta go lift stuff xxxxxx

PhoenixJ

The neighbour's heard the smoke alarm in the family home- Wolf. They notified emerg services. Otherwise I would be dead. In blackout.

Dee74

I think everyone is here for a reason, especially those of us who've stared death in the face.

If you're lucky, you find your reason

Your reason may not be anything monumental, but it will be important to you and hopefully to others too.


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Calmerwaters

Thanks Dee, and agree Snooz, I don’t expect him to tell me. I think the anger is at the arrogance of the disease - that people are just supposed to deal with our disease also. Anger at myself, for what I must have put people through that I was working with.

I agree with the saved part, Wolfy. And take my hat off to you and PJ for the physical strides you’ve had to make also. But I do believe we were all saved. Because once drinking takes over, we are all dead. Our bodies may have technically been alive, but we were not living, and our spirit was in some unreachable void.

It is a miracle we held on to some small sliver of knowing we had to stop the madness.

PhoenixJ

Very true, Dee. My reentry into sobriety was certainly horrid, but in the end-I am not special, just another garden variety alcoholic.

venuscat

Yeah but Dee didn't say that PJ.....
You are incredibly special and unique....not a garden-variety anything. s ❤️

Dee74

I save my superlatives for my friends PJ so I totally get not wanting to think you're anything special - but I have a crowd of folks here who beg to differ in your case

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venuscat

^^^ Big nods. ❤️

Mags1

Morning Julyers

PJ, I’ve known you since you came to SR and watched your personal growth with nothing less than admiration. As for the pain you suffered (and prob still suffer) with your burns, I can only look in awe after my flare up rash drove me crazy mad for just a few days. You are steadfast, witty, kind, honest, and a person anyone would be proud to call friend.

All that talking has made me thirsty, time for another cuppa.

Wishing everyone a good Sunday xx

SnoozyQ

Hi guys

That’s a very thought provoking post & questioning my own reasons for being ‘saved’
Mine aren’t clear to met , but Pj I think yours is. I truly believe you will be able to help so many with what you have been through.
I had no idea you had been through similar Wolfy yet different.

Maybe it will become clearer to me in time, who knows...or maybe never !

Hope everyone had a good weekend xxxx

PhoenixJ

The beauty of recovery is learning how to live again- with help from the SR community for us all.

Calmerwaters

Apart from my recovery, this forum is the second most important thing I’m grateful for. In fact, I know it would have taken me longer (if at all) to get sober had I not had some “honesty bombs” here.

And so, recovery is a path of challenges. Apart from the alcoholic at work issue, I now have to issue myself an “honesty bomb” about my ‘relationship’. Apparently we were ‘working on things’, but, I think I signed up for someone who is emotionally unavailable. When everything is about him and his issues, all is ok. Me, I’m not allowed to have needs or wants.

So, the honesty bomb is this. I probably chose this guy and his old relationship issues, so I didn’t have to get “too close” myself. It’s been a long road of denial for me to admit that, but I’m there.

Mags1

CW I think it’s good that you can look at yourself and be honest. Sometimes in life it’s easier for us to bury our heads in the sands but being sober and on our road of recovery helps us be the best we can of ourselves.

After all the crap we gave and told ourselves while we drank, it’s refreshing to be honest to ourselves.

And we’ve got each other to work with and learn from too.

All in all, sobriety gives us our lives back.

PhoenixJ

Support and prayers CW....recovery does not give a magical mystery tour that is all pink cloud stuff, but it gives us the ability to care for ourselves, which is, I think what you are starting to do.