Class of June 2019 part 2
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I think it's part of Kindling. When I started drinking it was rare for me to feel depressed or joyless after wards...physically sick maybe, a hangover but no more than that
20 years on, that's all I felt - for a while...
I hope your spirits will lift this week RAL
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20 years on, that's all I felt - for a while...
I hope your spirits will lift this week RAL
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Hi all. Hopefully back to some normality this week, even with a holiday in the middle. Pete-It's funny to me that you mention getting up in the middle of the night for a newborn, sober. With our 3 children, my MIL and I would sit up drinking until the late night feeding and then pass out. That would probably kill me now.
Hope everyone has a great week!
Hope everyone has a great week!
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Day 26 for me today.. I know I'm doing better as I was asked to go out for dinner with my partners family for the anniversary of his brothers passing, I normally would've had a couple of drinks or freaked out that I was driving and could only have 1 but tonight it didn't even cross my mind. It did help that half of them were teenagers so it wasn't geared around drinking but still a great feat for me as I didn't even think about it, my partner still asked me a couple of times if I wanted a drink.
I'm very happy that it is now July and I can use the excuse of dry July for not drinking, in NZ we do dry July to raise funds for Cancer research and whilst I'm not doing the raising funds I'm using it as an excuse if anyone asks me why I'm not drinking.
At the moment I'm finding it fairly easy not to drink as I've filled my weekends with things where alcohol is off the cards or not appropriate. I just finished knitting a scarf that has kept me busy so I think I need to find something else to fill my evenings with, maybe yoga and spring cleaning even though it's winter lol
Im so happy to see so many people still going into July from this class especially for those in the northern hempishere where its summer as I know for a lot of people that can be a huge trigger, well I know it is for me at least..
I'm very happy that it is now July and I can use the excuse of dry July for not drinking, in NZ we do dry July to raise funds for Cancer research and whilst I'm not doing the raising funds I'm using it as an excuse if anyone asks me why I'm not drinking.
At the moment I'm finding it fairly easy not to drink as I've filled my weekends with things where alcohol is off the cards or not appropriate. I just finished knitting a scarf that has kept me busy so I think I need to find something else to fill my evenings with, maybe yoga and spring cleaning even though it's winter lol
Im so happy to see so many people still going into July from this class especially for those in the northern hempishere where its summer as I know for a lot of people that can be a huge trigger, well I know it is for me at least..
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Originally Posted by Purina 
I made it to 15 days! Whew! Its been really tough. I have had quits in the past that have gone MUCH smoother. This time around I am plagued with problems and unexpected bills and cash outflows.
The situation felt so "unfair" since I am being a good person and staying sober and yet it felt so unfair that ll these new problems where landing on my lap. On at least 4 occasions I came VERY close to drinking.
Im very glad that I was able to abstain from that first drink. My thinking is still very clouded. It takes alot of FAITH that the future is going to be okay. I start to panic when I think about how I can find a resolution for many of my money problems.
Oftentimes I will hear a pessimistic voice in my head "May as well just drink. You have messed up your life too much, there is no way to repair it now....You are too far gone..... May as well just have a drink and cheer up"
But of course this inner enemy is lying to me. Miracles DO HAPPEN and they happen everyday.
So i have to take thoughts of drinking or killing myself and just dispense with those absurd thoughts.
I just hope my brain begins to regenerate itself soon. Because I am in such a fog that I even tried learning some computer programming from a book and I am too stupid to progress thru it. 15 years ago I would have BREEZED thru that kind of material. I was a straight A student. But the extended bout of alcoholism has really fried my brain cells this time around.
I had to pray to God to please heal my brain and restore it to health the way it was before. Just yesterday I was at an NA meeting and they had a big cake and afterwards I asked if I can take home the half of cake that had not been consumed and they said "Sure". But then I was chatting with people outside (smokers) and I ended up forgetting the cake! Can you believe this? I left the cake behind! This is just one example out of many.
I went to Home Depot to buy 5 items and only bought 4. I also bought the wrong size of one of them. So had to go back 3 times to Home Depot to complete the project. I am brain-dead even at 15 days. This is just a small example. I am making these kind of mental errors everyday and several times per day.
The situation felt so "unfair" since I am being a good person and staying sober and yet it felt so unfair that ll these new problems where landing on my lap. On at least 4 occasions I came VERY close to drinking.
Im very glad that I was able to abstain from that first drink. My thinking is still very clouded. It takes alot of FAITH that the future is going to be okay. I start to panic when I think about how I can find a resolution for many of my money problems.
Oftentimes I will hear a pessimistic voice in my head "May as well just drink. You have messed up your life too much, there is no way to repair it now....You are too far gone..... May as well just have a drink and cheer up"
But of course this inner enemy is lying to me. Miracles DO HAPPEN and they happen everyday.
So i have to take thoughts of drinking or killing myself and just dispense with those absurd thoughts.
I just hope my brain begins to regenerate itself soon. Because I am in such a fog that I even tried learning some computer programming from a book and I am too stupid to progress thru it. 15 years ago I would have BREEZED thru that kind of material. I was a straight A student. But the extended bout of alcoholism has really fried my brain cells this time around.
I had to pray to God to please heal my brain and restore it to health the way it was before. Just yesterday I was at an NA meeting and they had a big cake and afterwards I asked if I can take home the half of cake that had not been consumed and they said "Sure". But then I was chatting with people outside (smokers) and I ended up forgetting the cake! Can you believe this? I left the cake behind! This is just one example out of many.
I went to Home Depot to buy 5 items and only bought 4. I also bought the wrong size of one of them. So had to go back 3 times to Home Depot to complete the project. I am brain-dead even at 15 days. This is just a small example. I am making these kind of mental errors everyday and several times per day.
You are far from brain dead dear Purina ~ you are doing amazingly well!!!
It is completely normal to forget to take the cake home when you are in a situation that is so emotional and I am betting it went home with another newcomer who had no food at home.
And everyone forgets one item at Home Depot....for me it's Lowe's....there is always one thing I need, usually the thing I go there to get, that I leave without. But I always come home with more plants. (Haven't been there for a while, trying to dial back my plant addiction. ).The fact that you are trying to learn something at 15 days like some programming you don't know....well that's admirable. I bet if you try again in two weeks it will all make sense.
We heal. Truly.This is the scary part though....we have to face the debts and the things life throws at us. Life on life's terms is not so easey peasey....I know that was one of the reasons I drank in the first place.
But it is possible. And we do find ways to work through whatever issues we need to work through.....financial and otherwise.
How? One day at a time. In small bites.
I really had no clue how I was going to be able to survive financially or find who I really wanted to be at this late stage. And I have made lots of mistakes in that search, I keep getting it wrong. Or I did. I finally got my lightbulb moment last night. And I am heading to 5 years sober. I am slowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Be kind to yourself....all of you be kind to yourselves.....I agree with Abraham....this class thread is going to be around for years.
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Summer can indeed be a trigger, on so many levels, but I also have another way to look at it....especially now that I live in the US....I have never had real seasons before, where there is such cold and snow....it was a huge shock....it isn't the same as Melbourne Aus, that's for sure....there are maybe two weeks of the entire year there that the weather will keep you stuck inside. Here it can be months of such cold. So now, as summer is in full summeriness, I see it is an opportunity to get outside and really do things....it is exciting!!
And very very hot here. So I crave water and fresh grapes and kiwi fruit and watermelon and all things healthy. I want to feel the best I can feel and go enjoy some crazy things I have never done before....like go to a water park. There are so many awesome places to go in OH, and I have yet to explore. (much).
I would never ever enjoy any of this if I wasn't sober. So sober summer is just the most wonderful thing now.
And very very hot here. So I crave water and fresh grapes and kiwi fruit and watermelon and all things healthy. I want to feel the best I can feel and go enjoy some crazy things I have never done before....like go to a water park. There are so many awesome places to go in OH, and I have yet to explore. (much).
I would never ever enjoy any of this if I wasn't sober. So sober summer is just the most wonderful thing now.
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Originally Posted by Petecrab
It does get better but it takes time. Day 21 for me and I’ve woke feeling tired and cranky. Didn’t make the gym for the first time in the past 2 weeks!
How about nurturing your grumpy self a little today....maybe a lovely take-out for you and your wife tonight as a treat....it can be healthy.
Huge hugs.
s xx
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Thanks Dee in all the times I've quit I've never felt so bad at this stage. Feel really depressed and on holiday which is crazy.
I've had several av moments.
you feel so bad you might as well drink.
It'll make you feel better
what's the point if you feel this bad.
You're on holiday a glass of wine won't do any harm.
But I won't drink. I will get through this . Keep telling myself it is only a bit over 2 weeks. Not long at all
I've had several av moments.
you feel so bad you might as well drink.
It'll make you feel better
what's the point if you feel this bad.
You're on holiday a glass of wine won't do any harm.
But I won't drink. I will get through this . Keep telling myself it is only a bit over 2 weeks. Not long at all
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We can't have a glass of wine....we can't stop. So going down that road to try and feel better is so crazy. s
My last withdrawal was really hard love....it took a good while to feel better emotionally as well as physically. Maybe do something nice for yourself? And remember you are a human....and we are moody and unpredictable, and there are things like hormones....so much stuff. Sending you more love. s
s My last withdrawal was really hard love....it took a good while to feel better emotionally as well as physically. Maybe do something nice for yourself? And remember you are a human....and we are moody and unpredictable, and there are things like hormones....so much stuff. Sending you more love.
s
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Originally Posted by Purina
I made it to 15 days! Whew! Its been really tough. I have had quits in the past that have gone MUCH smoother. This time around I am plagued with problems and unexpected bills and cash outflows.
The situation felt so "unfair" since I am being a good person and staying sober and yet it felt so unfair that ll these new problems where landing on my lap. On at least 4 occasions I came VERY close to drinking.
Im very glad that I was able to abstain from that first drink. My thinking is still very clouded. It takes alot of FAITH that the future is going to be okay. I start to panic when I think about how I can find a resolution for many of my money problems.
Oftentimes I will hear a pessimistic voice in my head "May as well just drink. You have messed up your life too much, there is no way to repair it now....You are too far gone..... May as well just have a drink and cheer up"
But of course this inner enemy is lying to me. Miracles DO HAPPEN and they happen everyday.
So i have to take thoughts of drinking or killing myself and just dispense with those absurd thoughts.
I just hope my brain begins to regenerate itself soon. Because I am in such a fog that I even tried learning some computer programming from a book and I am too stupid to progress thru it. 15 years ago I would have BREEZED thru that kind of material. I was a straight A student. But the extended bout of alcoholism has really fried my brain cells this time around.
I had to pray to God to please heal my brain and restore it to health the way it was before. Just yesterday I was at an NA meeting and they had a big cake and afterwards I asked if I can take home the half of cake that had not been consumed and they said "Sure". But then I was chatting with people outside (smokers) and I ended up forgetting the cake! Can you believe this? I left the cake behind! This is just one example out of many.
I went to Home Depot to buy 5 items and only bought 4. I also bought the wrong size of one of them. So had to go back 3 times to Home Depot to complete the project. I am brain-dead even at 15 days. This is just a small example. I am making these kind of mental errors everyday and several times per day.
The situation felt so "unfair" since I am being a good person and staying sober and yet it felt so unfair that ll these new problems where landing on my lap. On at least 4 occasions I came VERY close to drinking.
Im very glad that I was able to abstain from that first drink. My thinking is still very clouded. It takes alot of FAITH that the future is going to be okay. I start to panic when I think about how I can find a resolution for many of my money problems.
Oftentimes I will hear a pessimistic voice in my head "May as well just drink. You have messed up your life too much, there is no way to repair it now....You are too far gone..... May as well just have a drink and cheer up"
But of course this inner enemy is lying to me. Miracles DO HAPPEN and they happen everyday.
So i have to take thoughts of drinking or killing myself and just dispense with those absurd thoughts.
I just hope my brain begins to regenerate itself soon. Because I am in such a fog that I even tried learning some computer programming from a book and I am too stupid to progress thru it. 15 years ago I would have BREEZED thru that kind of material. I was a straight A student. But the extended bout of alcoholism has really fried my brain cells this time around.
I had to pray to God to please heal my brain and restore it to health the way it was before. Just yesterday I was at an NA meeting and they had a big cake and afterwards I asked if I can take home the half of cake that had not been consumed and they said "Sure". But then I was chatting with people outside (smokers) and I ended up forgetting the cake! Can you believe this? I left the cake behind! This is just one example out of many.
I went to Home Depot to buy 5 items and only bought 4. I also bought the wrong size of one of them. So had to go back 3 times to Home Depot to complete the project. I am brain-dead even at 15 days. This is just a small example. I am making these kind of mental errors everyday and several times per day.
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Petecrab - thanks for the useful feedback. I obviously just need to be patient. I had a very restless/sleepless night and when I finally fell asleep I woke up shortly afterwards to the alarm, convinced I had a hangover I felt so bad! That's the only good bit of course. I didn't have a hangover.
RAL - so sorry the gloom and despond hasn't lifted yet and really hope it gets better soon. Not fair when you are meant to be on holiday. As Venus says, remember you are human which makes us tricky enough even without the add on of coping with alcohol withdrawal. But it kicking that habit remains the best and decision possibly bravest decision we've made so we have to stick with it.
RAL - so sorry the gloom and despond hasn't lifted yet and really hope it gets better soon. Not fair when you are meant to be on holiday. As Venus says, remember you are human which makes us tricky enough even without the add on of coping with alcohol withdrawal. But it kicking that habit remains the best and decision possibly bravest decision we've made so we have to stick with it.
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Hi June starters. Day 18 for me and I too woke up crabby, tired and depressed.
I slept ok but the darn dreams...
Feel like I dug ditches with my head all night.
Hanging in there and getting work done.
My sweet little dog Esme has vet appointment soon so we will be off for that shortly.
I may go and ride a horse today too if I can snap out of my funk.
Have a good rest of the day all.
I slept ok but the darn dreams...
Feel like I dug ditches with my head all night.
Hanging in there and getting work done.
My sweet little dog Esme has vet appointment soon so we will be off for that shortly.
I may go and ride a horse today too if I can snap out of my funk.
Have a good rest of the day all.
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Hi all, I jumped on the July thread thinking that was the done thing, apparently not!
Day 21 for me and I've been really busy, absolutely wrecked today but waiting to take the dog out for an evening walk.
Was talking to a friend in work today. I've been telling people I'm on a health kick, well, I'm not lying just keeping a lot of info to myself but I have told them I'm not socialising because I'm not drinking and they're happy enough with it. They realise, going out with all them is heavy drinking and there's no way they'd allow me just to drink soft drinks!
Anyways, someone asked me if I felt better for it all and I honestly had to stop myself from talking so much about how much better I do feel. As much as I'm not a morning person, getting up at 6 and getting me and the dog out is part of my morning routine and I really enjoy it. I did say to someone, even if I just had a couple of drinks, no way I'd be able to get up at 6am and they agreed they couldn't either but it was also nice to be in work feeling fresh when others were coming in complaining about their hangovers and how tired they felt! Not me, not today!
Day 21 for me and I've been really busy, absolutely wrecked today but waiting to take the dog out for an evening walk.
Was talking to a friend in work today. I've been telling people I'm on a health kick, well, I'm not lying just keeping a lot of info to myself but I have told them I'm not socialising because I'm not drinking and they're happy enough with it. They realise, going out with all them is heavy drinking and there's no way they'd allow me just to drink soft drinks!
Anyways, someone asked me if I felt better for it all and I honestly had to stop myself from talking so much about how much better I do feel. As much as I'm not a morning person, getting up at 6 and getting me and the dog out is part of my morning routine and I really enjoy it. I did say to someone, even if I just had a couple of drinks, no way I'd be able to get up at 6am and they agreed they couldn't either but it was also nice to be in work feeling fresh when others were coming in complaining about their hangovers and how tired they felt! Not me, not today!
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Cant wait to chow. Finally have a good appetite and my wife is making one of my least favorite meals. I love pork chops but I like the thick cut ones, we make the thin cut ones cuz my 9 year old loves them. 
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