The Power Of Sobriety Thread (POST!) #9
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My son got heavy into prog rock for a while -- check this out (but don't take it seriously!!!):
Irrelevant troubadour on prog-rock album covers
Irrelevant troubadour on prog-rock album covers
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
Join Date: Oct 2009
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Lovely thread going on here I’d love to join.
Hello Aly, Sassy, FBL, PJ, Courage, Dee, and everyone else.
Ive come to realize I’m extremely impressionable, somewhat gullible, and easily thrown off my path to boot. I had set my mind on NOT doing something yesterday, but when my mom started doing it, I did it and did 3x as much as her. It was food. But I felt unhappy knowing it must be a disorder to be so easily influenced by those around you. I need to protect myself in these early days. Im broken and I’m in the process of rebuilding myself i guess. I am so very happy to be sober, and through the POST I know I conquer all my other “demons” or “character defects” so to speak. An amazing Sunday to you all!
Hello Aly, Sassy, FBL, PJ, Courage, Dee, and everyone else.
Ive come to realize I’m extremely impressionable, somewhat gullible, and easily thrown off my path to boot. I had set my mind on NOT doing something yesterday, but when my mom started doing it, I did it and did 3x as much as her. It was food. But I felt unhappy knowing it must be a disorder to be so easily influenced by those around you. I need to protect myself in these early days. Im broken and I’m in the process of rebuilding myself i guess. I am so very happy to be sober, and through the POST I know I conquer all my other “demons” or “character defects” so to speak. An amazing Sunday to you all!
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Hi LLGold! Nice to meetcha 
Do you live with your mom?
Me & my siblings all had a lot of stress around my mom, though to this day, I couldn't quite say why. When I used to go & visit her when she was old, I'd be up all night drinking after she went to bed. I'd do "errands" as an excuse to replenish her stock of booze so she wouldn't know how much I was drinking.
for what you're going through, and congratulations on your sobriety!
Do you live with your mom?
Me & my siblings all had a lot of stress around my mom, though to this day, I couldn't quite say why. When I used to go & visit her when she was old, I'd be up all night drinking after she went to bed. I'd do "errands" as an excuse to replenish her stock of booze so she wouldn't know how much I was drinking.
for what you're going through, and congratulations on your sobriety!
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
Join Date: Oct 2009
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Hi Aly and Courage!
I dont live with her but I think I may be codependent on her. I call her about 10x a day, I pick her up and take her where she needs to go, I offer most of the time, but occasionally she asks, and I bring her to my home. She is an extreme alcoholic 2-3 weeks out of every month. I usually go collect her and detox her at my place. She wakes up not knowing how she got there. We have the most ridiculous bickering, boundaries blurred, I believe we may be “enmeshed.” I’ve wanted to cut her out of my life before multiple times but I haven’t been able to follow through.
On the flip side, she didn’t answer the phone today, I’ve gone to 2 AA mtgs, on my way to my 3rd, and may even hit a 4th before going back home. I think it was a blessing she didn’t answer or else we’d be together now over eating and arguing. Oh lord, spelling it out, I’m seeing that this needs to change! Off to my 3rd mtg, I’m so happy I’m back in AA.
I dont live with her but I think I may be codependent on her. I call her about 10x a day, I pick her up and take her where she needs to go, I offer most of the time, but occasionally she asks, and I bring her to my home. She is an extreme alcoholic 2-3 weeks out of every month. I usually go collect her and detox her at my place. She wakes up not knowing how she got there. We have the most ridiculous bickering, boundaries blurred, I believe we may be “enmeshed.” I’ve wanted to cut her out of my life before multiple times but I haven’t been able to follow through.
On the flip side, she didn’t answer the phone today, I’ve gone to 2 AA mtgs, on my way to my 3rd, and may even hit a 4th before going back home. I think it was a blessing she didn’t answer or else we’d be together now over eating and arguing. Oh lord, spelling it out, I’m seeing that this needs to change! Off to my 3rd mtg, I’m so happy I’m back in AA.
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(((LLGold))) That's a lot to work through, but the meetings and this website will help you. Good for you for knowing your issues, you will deal with it when you know it is right. Have you ever thought of therapy maybe? I know it is not for everyone, but I see a psychiatrist and he is immensely helpful. I got really lucky to get a great dr., but I've also had some bad doctors too, so don't be afraid to get rid of one that doesn't feel right and get a new one.
Take good care of yourself, my dearie! ♥♥♥ So glad you are here.
Take good care of yourself, my dearie! ♥♥♥ So glad you are here.
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Welcome, LLG! Nice to have you here.
Carlos, big congrats on 6 years! Hope you and NE are enjoying each other's company.
Am starting on a new work project today. This one is pretty specialized, it's songs that only made the Top 10 in regional markets across the country in 1958. Looking forward to making some new discoveries!
Have a great Monday, gang!
Carlos, big congrats on 6 years! Hope you and NE are enjoying each other's company.
Am starting on a new work project today. This one is pretty specialized, it's songs that only made the Top 10 in regional markets across the country in 1958. Looking forward to making some new discoveries!
Have a great Monday, gang!
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Hi, gang!!! So happy to see the thread is back and growing.
Yes, it's true...6 years clean and sober today. What a journey out of the darkness to this amazing life that I never knew existed.
I hope to catch up with you all soon.
Thank you for all the love and support from so many on SR...especially this wonderful group of POST'ites.
Love to all...
Carlos
Yes, it's true...6 years clean and sober today. What a journey out of the darkness to this amazing life that I never knew existed.
I hope to catch up with you all soon.
Thank you for all the love and support from so many on SR...especially this wonderful group of POST'ites.
Love to all...
Carlos
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
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Congrats to Carlos!
Aly- It is a lot to work through. However, I can say I have had therapy and not everyday is the same. Yesterday and today I ate really healthy homemade food, im practically a gourmet chef (not really) when I want to be. I didn’t call my mom all day yesterday and today I called twice to check in for a few minutes, let her know I’m psyched about AA and politely hung up before letting her nonsense get to me.
I feel seriously high on AA right now though lol. I went to 4 mtgs today and 4 yesterday (and I apologize for repeating myself all over the forum), and I shared at every meeting today. And I mean I raised my hand and spoke even though my gut was burning and heart pounding with anxiety. I punched fear in the face and this just has to be my new way of life. I really like who I am in this moment.
have a great Tuesday everyone!
Aly- It is a lot to work through. However, I can say I have had therapy and not everyday is the same. Yesterday and today I ate really healthy homemade food, im practically a gourmet chef (not really) when I want to be. I didn’t call my mom all day yesterday and today I called twice to check in for a few minutes, let her know I’m psyched about AA and politely hung up before letting her nonsense get to me.
I feel seriously high on AA right now though lol. I went to 4 mtgs today and 4 yesterday (and I apologize for repeating myself all over the forum), and I shared at every meeting today. And I mean I raised my hand and spoke even though my gut was burning and heart pounding with anxiety. I punched fear in the face and this just has to be my new way of life. I really like who I am in this moment.
have a great Tuesday everyone!
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
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Thank you so much Aly. Did 3 meetings today, spoke through my anxiety, was surrounded with welcoming arms and phone numbers. I’m just living the life i needed right now, eating well, etc. I see how important this is for my crazy self lol!
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Good morning everyone!
Just a quick check in. I went to my regular doctor last night. She helped me more than I expected for the month anyway. So glad for that!
Tonight my twin nephews are graduating h.s. Very heartwarming. The whole family will be there and I'm just hoping for no drama. I love my niece and my 3 nephews so much. Now that they're getting older, I just don't get to see them that much anymore.
Have a great day everyone. ♥
Love and peace to anyone suffering or struggling. ♥♥♥
Just a quick check in. I went to my regular doctor last night. She helped me more than I expected for the month anyway. So glad for that!
Tonight my twin nephews are graduating h.s. Very heartwarming. The whole family will be there and I'm just hoping for no drama. I love my niece and my 3 nephews so much. Now that they're getting older, I just don't get to see them that much anymore.
Have a great day everyone. ♥
Love and peace to anyone suffering or struggling. ♥♥♥
The Little Alcoholic Monstress That Could
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So awesome that your doc was very helpful and that you got to be there for your nephews!
Thanks stargazer!
Going to sleep soon, first sober night in Miami down. 6 more to go. I want to do this so I will. Night al!
Thanks stargazer!
Going to sleep soon, first sober night in Miami down. 6 more to go. I want to do this so I will. Night al!
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LLGold, your commitment is inspiring. I've done the 3-meetings a day route. If you want or think you need a meeting, go! I used to set up chairs and make coffee a lot -- it was a really important part of getting sober for me.
Are you in Miami on a trip? Check in often. Traveling sober the first few times around is stressful. You can do it!
Aly, you sound cheerful! I'm glad about the doctor, and hope the big graduation night went well
FBL -- does that mean, for instance, this song hit #3 in Atlanta but didn't rank anywhere else? That actually sounds really interesting to me. I think I could do something with that statistically....
Are you in Miami on a trip? Check in often. Traveling sober the first few times around is stressful. You can do it!
Aly, you sound cheerful! I'm glad about the doctor, and hope the big graduation night went well
FBL -- does that mean, for instance, this song hit #3 in Atlanta but didn't rank anywhere else? That actually sounds really interesting to me. I think I could do something with that statistically....
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Thank you, Cour! I am feeling really well mentally lately, despite my pain issues. I'm just not going to stop living my life.
The graduation was great and drama free. We went apart from the rest of the family. As we were leaving we ran into my niece one of my sisters that hasn't spoken to me for many years actually gave me a hug, but didn't say much. It was a nice gesture. I'm so proud of my nephews at their graduation. Actually I really love my niece and 3 nephews. They've been through so much with their mother being such a horrible drunk and even now, she is supposedly sober/clean, but I'm not so sure.
So good to see you all! Everyone, have a wonderful day!
The graduation was great and drama free. We went apart from the rest of the family. As we were leaving we ran into my niece one of my sisters that hasn't spoken to me for many years actually gave me a hug, but didn't say much. It was a nice gesture. I'm so proud of my nephews at their graduation. Actually I really love my niece and 3 nephews. They've been through so much with their mother being such a horrible drunk and even now, she is supposedly sober/clean, but I'm not so sure.
So good to see you all! Everyone, have a wonderful day!
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Hi All, it’s been a while since I posted here. I tend to hang out on the gratitude thread, which I am deeply grateful for . Somehow, what I’m feeling today does not make sense to post on that thread, and sometimes I feel uncomfortable or out of place on the main forum posting about my own issues.
So last week, a young girl in my town was drunk driving and hit a young man walking across the street. He has now died from his injuries. Both the driver and victim were under 30. The girl was said to have been hard struggling with grief from the loss of her father by suicide a few months ago. She was arrested at the scene and taken to jail. The family posted bail so she was released but is now being held at Kaiser on a 5150 suicide watch. I do not know either family personally, only their names. There is a lot of talk in my community about this incident. It happened right across the street where I grocery shop and pass by everyday to pick my son up from school. It is now marked by flowers, RIP sign, etc. I guess it hits me hard because I could have been that girl but I was lucky. My husband and I talked. He’s a normie but he did do drugs and drink in college, and he just now told me about a story of him getting arrested for DUI and reckless driving in his 20’s. He didn’t hurt anyone. Interesting that he tells me this just now after over 20 years of marriage! I also had an incident in my 20’s where I had one too many at a bar ( I also think someone may have slipped something else in my drink that night) and I woke up in the middle of a country road facing wrong direction with vomit all over me, paramedics at the scene. I was then taken home in the back of a police car and escorted to my apartment. I will never understand why I did not get a DUI that night, why I did not die or kill someone else. This is a crazy life!
Anyway, my son and I talked about the recent DUI incident in town and fact that the girl is on suicide watch. He said “mom, why wouldn’t she want to kill herself? And why shouldn’t she be allowed to? She made a big mistake and I’m sure she’s not a bad person, but she knows she will forever be known as the drunk girl who killed a pedestrian. There is no good end to this story.” I was speechless. I told my husband. The thing is my son has a point. But I know it’s not the answer and I don’t want to validate his belief that suicide is the answer. Suicide runs in my family. I feel I need to have another conversation with him but don’t know what to say. I am just feeling sad. But glad you are all here.
Thanks for letting me get my thoughts out.
. Somehow, what I’m feeling today does not make sense to post on that thread, and sometimes I feel uncomfortable or out of place on the main forum posting about my own issues. So last week, a young girl in my town was drunk driving and hit a young man walking across the street. He has now died from his injuries. Both the driver and victim were under 30. The girl was said to have been hard struggling with grief from the loss of her father by suicide a few months ago. She was arrested at the scene and taken to jail. The family posted bail so she was released but is now being held at Kaiser on a 5150 suicide watch. I do not know either family personally, only their names. There is a lot of talk in my community about this incident. It happened right across the street where I grocery shop and pass by everyday to pick my son up from school. It is now marked by flowers, RIP sign, etc. I guess it hits me hard because I could have been that girl but I was lucky. My husband and I talked. He’s a normie but he did do drugs and drink in college, and he just now told me about a story of him getting arrested for DUI and reckless driving in his 20’s. He didn’t hurt anyone. Interesting that he tells me this just now after over 20 years of marriage! I also had an incident in my 20’s where I had one too many at a bar ( I also think someone may have slipped something else in my drink that night) and I woke up in the middle of a country road facing wrong direction with vomit all over me, paramedics at the scene. I was then taken home in the back of a police car and escorted to my apartment. I will never understand why I did not get a DUI that night, why I did not die or kill someone else. This is a crazy life!
Anyway, my son and I talked about the recent DUI incident in town and fact that the girl is on suicide watch. He said “mom, why wouldn’t she want to kill herself? And why shouldn’t she be allowed to? She made a big mistake and I’m sure she’s not a bad person, but she knows she will forever be known as the drunk girl who killed a pedestrian. There is no good end to this story.” I was speechless. I told my husband. The thing is my son has a point. But I know it’s not the answer and I don’t want to validate his belief that suicide is the answer. Suicide runs in my family. I feel I need to have another conversation with him but don’t know what to say. I am just feeling sad. But glad you are all here.
Thanks for letting me get my thoughts out.
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