FBL

Courage and LLG

My inferiority complex fueled my addiction for years. Took me a long time to realize that the only one I have to measure up to is myself. Positive thinking and learning to let go have helped me tremendously. It's something I'll be working on the rest of my life.

courage2

Thanks everybody. Going on about my business....

for your hard work on your sober self, LLGold. The program --especially service and the steps -- helped me in more ways than I can count.

FBL, before I read your post, I was just wondering, was the inferior thing mostly among women. I mean, we're low on the pole to start with -- in a world run by men, there's a lot of weight to feel worse than. It's kind of comforting to hear you've felt it too.

Stargazer, what's your son doing this summer?

courage2

Thanks everybody. Going on about my business....

for your hard work on your sober self, LLGold. The program --especially service and the steps -- helped me in more ways than I can count.

FBL, before I read your post, I was just wondering, was the inferior thing mostly among women. I mean, we're low on the pole to start with -- in a world run by men, there's a lot of weight to feel worse than. It's kind of comforting to hear you've felt it too.

Stargazer, what's your son doing this summer?

courage2

^^^ I have no idea how that post got doubled. Sorry!

FBL

Courage, it's a human condition for sure. I have two older twin brothers that both excelled at sports and one that excelled at academics. I was clumsy when it came to sports and I was a bit lazy when it came to academics. I can't count the number of times people told me "why can't you be more like your brothers." Instead of encouraging my own talents, I was constantly trying to be somebody I was not. I'm sure that fueled my addiction, especially when I was younger. I did eventually come to realize that I am my own person, but I had to basically encourage myself. By following my heart, I have found a life that I love and my recovery has really reinforced my life decisions. There will always be someone better looking, more successful, kinder, etc, etc. Worrying about such things is a waste of time and energy. All I can do is try to be the best version of me.

stargazer016

I feel we tend to over appraise the traits in others that we feel that we lack. This woman may envy what you have, the lack of social commitments and people constantly demanding her attention. We are all just people. I once had a boss tell me, in a cleaned up version, "That we all have to drop our pants to use the restroom." It takes the mystique out of others in my eyes, lol! Spend time with this person. It sounds like it would be good for both of you.

I got a text from one of my employees at 2:00 am this morning concerning the sudden no shows of a formerly model employee. Turns out that this individual had a drink which led him back to opioid use and him being dopesick for a week. I hope my boss has the compassion to not slavishly follow company dictates and allows this individual a second chance. He, like all of us, are good people when not using. I plan to go to bat on his behalf if needed. It's a powerful reminder that it's really one day at a time for each of us.

courage2

That's so sad, about your employee, sg. The loss of his job would surely not help the man deal with relapse. I hope you & your boss give him another chance.

LiveLikeGold6

Day 60 over and out here! Night all and keep it up.

Dee74

Congrats LLG!

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Alysheba

Congrats LLG!!!

courage2

Congratulations, LLGold!

LiveLikeGold6

Thank yall so much. Recovery has given me fast and meaningful friends! Day 62 will end with 76 meetings in the bag!!

FBL

Nicely done, LLG!

LiveLikeGold6

Day 63 ending with 78 meetings in the bag. Going to continue my 4th step in about 5 minutes. Good vibes to all!

stargazer016

My employee whom had a relapse returned to work yesterday. Very happy to see him back. I hope that he can muster the strength to stay committed and attend meetings. He is one of my top employees.

You rock LLG!

Have a good day all!

stargazer016

Up at 2:30 am for work, after going to bed at 12:30. One of my brother in law's ex bands got mostly reunited for a one off show last night, which I couldn't miss. I used to drink all night and make it to work with a couple hours sleep. I will see how I do sober.

Have a good day all!

FBL

Star, hope you can catch up on your sleep. If I don't get my 8 hours in, I pay for it a bit the next day. Still not nearly as bad as when I was drinking though.

LLG, always look forward to your updates. I love being around those in early recovery and watching their progress.

Have a great Monday, all!

LiveLikeGold6

SG howd the show go? Also I really admire your compassion for that fellow!

FBL, thanks so much. Your avatar is a good reminder that this thing is a daily reprieve.

Been getting into myself and irritable as a result. After meeting with my sponsor and commencing my 5th step I feel much lighter. I’ll be secretary at a meeting tonight. The awesome chairlady invited me to do it in practice for my meeting coming up. Day 67 will end with 79 meetings in the bank.

I leave to Miami friday. Ill be there one week. My AA girls are already in anticipation. I cant wait to see them, i really love the Miami fellowship! Also used the massage chair at the gym tonight, aaaaahhhh. <3

LiveLikeGold6

Woops actually day 67 ended with 82 meetings. Im so close to 90!!! secretarying the meeting was a wonderful new experience also.

Dee74

congrats LLG
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