24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 441
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I had a lot of trouble letting things go too Kenton.
I worked out in the end I had two interconnected problems.
I was still looking for external validation from people - the way people treated me had a disproportionate effect on my sense of self worth...
but I also had a burning resentment at being treated that way - didn't they know what a good person I was?
It took me a while to get past that and be able to let things go - not to let them win, or me lose (or vice versa) but simply to find peace.
It's hard to move on with your hands around someone elses neck.
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I worked out in the end I had two interconnected problems.
I was still looking for external validation from people - the way people treated me had a disproportionate effect on my sense of self worth...
but I also had a burning resentment at being treated that way - didn't they know what a good person I was?
It took me a while to get past that and be able to let things go - not to let them win, or me lose (or vice versa) but simply to find peace.
It's hard to move on with your hands around someone elses neck.
D
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Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
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24 for me please.
My mother is in intensive care with septic shock. Terrifying couple of days. We love her and hope she can recover. There is a significant chance she will. I was so afraid yesterday. Today I woke up more rested. My body finally rested. I’m feeling more hopeful this morning. They’re going to try to start weaning her off the ventilator today. It’s a long road, and I know she might not survive, but I will not give up hope. Doctor assured me that she needed the rest to fight the infection. I’m looking at it that way. She held on yesterday with no trouble, and some improvement. I sure love my sweet mother and want to spend time with her. I’ve accepted what is happening—that was the hardest part.
I am going to the hospital around 8 to see how the trial went. If she does well she may be off of it but I don’t expect it yet. I want to keep things going in my life somewhat, take breaks and not do vigils and lose sleep and food. That’s how I started, but not today. I may go into work for a bit if things are stable. Starting a week of vacation tomorrow. I want to keep things normal. I want to keep close to friends. And stay sober. No desire for a drink and that’s wonderful.
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Red
My mother is in intensive care with septic shock. Terrifying couple of days. We love her and hope she can recover. There is a significant chance she will. I was so afraid yesterday. Today I woke up more rested. My body finally rested. I’m feeling more hopeful this morning. They’re going to try to start weaning her off the ventilator today. It’s a long road, and I know she might not survive, but I will not give up hope. Doctor assured me that she needed the rest to fight the infection. I’m looking at it that way. She held on yesterday with no trouble, and some improvement. I sure love my sweet mother and want to spend time with her. I’ve accepted what is happening—that was the hardest part.
I am going to the hospital around 8 to see how the trial went. If she does well she may be off of it but I don’t expect it yet. I want to keep things going in my life somewhat, take breaks and not do vigils and lose sleep and food. That’s how I started, but not today. I may go into work for a bit if things are stable. Starting a week of vacation tomorrow. I want to keep things normal. I want to keep close to friends. And stay sober. No desire for a drink and that’s wonderful.
Love
Red
No quitting on yer quit eh!
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“I know how challenging it can be to think positive when there are so many things going wrong in your life, but until you change the way that you think, you will not achieve the life that you are looking for.” - David A. Hunter
5:20am in Alberta, 24 more for me please, and thanks...
Today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
5:20am in Alberta, 24 more for me please, and thanks...
Today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
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Good Morning, and 24 please.
Just finished The Tattooist of Aushwitz, by Heather Morris. I hesitate to rate it because it’s a true story (at least based on one and mostly true) and the suffering of these poor people shouldn’t be rated by entertainment value. That said, it’s worth a read if you are interested in such stories. I am so spoiled as to not be able to fathom what so many people have endured, and to survive with such strength of body and spirit. The capability and ingenuity for which humans can inflict horror on other humans (or animals), never ceases to sadden me, and it continues today, daily.
I have always said that humans are and have been the scariest monsters Earth has ever known, and put to shame anything conjured up by Stephen King or any other fictional writer. I still believe that, unfortunately.
I doubt I’ll ever visit Europe, but if I do, I’ll need to see this place. Sorry to bring such a down note to the thread.
Just finished The Tattooist of Aushwitz, by Heather Morris. I hesitate to rate it because it’s a true story (at least based on one and mostly true) and the suffering of these poor people shouldn’t be rated by entertainment value. That said, it’s worth a read if you are interested in such stories. I am so spoiled as to not be able to fathom what so many people have endured, and to survive with such strength of body and spirit. The capability and ingenuity for which humans can inflict horror on other humans (or animals), never ceases to sadden me, and it continues today, daily.
I have always said that humans are and have been the scariest monsters Earth has ever known, and put to shame anything conjured up by Stephen King or any other fictional writer. I still believe that, unfortunately.
I doubt I’ll ever visit Europe, but if I do, I’ll need to see this place. Sorry to bring such a down note to the thread.
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