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Old 12-11-2019, 01:54 PM   #361 (permalink)
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Hi Bumblebee

Iím sorry your family is sick again I hope everyone is on the mend soon.

Whatís the authorís name of the book? Iím always on the lookout for books to help with my sober journey. I really found Annie Graceís This Naked Mind helpful.
I still have cravings, had a really big one yesterday as I drove past the RSL club actually. I almost pulled in! But knowing the truth about alcohol helps me to not give in to the urge to drink. Itís funny, I already knew that alcohol was bad, but now I ďknow ď it on a deeper level perhaps. Itís still not easy, I get triggered all the time, but Iím just trying to ride them out by distracting myself, a bit how I did when I quit smoking years ago. I still very occasionally get triggered to smoke but itís rare these days and I know Iíll never smoke again . I hope one day Iíll get to that point with alcohol....

Iím now on day 29 alcohol-free
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Old 12-12-2019, 05:19 AM   #362 (permalink)
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Congrats willow!!! Incredible.

the author is Laura McKowen.

have a great day.
My oldest is going to school
my youngest is still sick.
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Old 12-14-2019, 06:25 AM   #363 (permalink)
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Hey guys.

hope everyone is enjoying their weekend.

my youngest is still sick. It has been a week of illnesses in my house.

im not feeling great. My husband is off so he has been helpful.

i have been able to lay around and relax a lot. Which is so nice. But also feels a little depressing. I feeling really moody and less positive.

it night also be due to pms. It might be taking care of sick kids and cancelling a million plans the last week. It might be the never ending to do list I have before Xmas. I donít know.

but about to get up and going to be positive and grateful today.
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Old 12-14-2019, 04:19 PM   #364 (permalink)
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Hope the coming week is better for you and the family Bumblebee

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Old 12-15-2019, 06:08 AM   #365 (permalink)
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So yesterday ended up being a better day.

i think there was a lot of my mind. A few things have taken care of itself. I also went to a wedding last night with my husband.

my parents babysat the girls. They are both feeling a lot better now.

So I actually showered and did my hair, makeup. Put on a dress and heels. Just that, the action helped my mood.

i think I was in unconsciously nervous about the wedding too. It was my hubby co-workers. I donít see them often... so they donít know that I no longer drink.

A previous wedding I went to with the same group of people- I was wasted. Taking shots, throwing up. I cringe thinking about it.

anyhow, last night went really good. I love to dance. Love it. Maybe it is the cheerleader in me from when I was younger. I enjoy dancing even if sober. But once dinner was over and I was dancing. The night without drinking was seamless.

people were getting SLOPPY drunk!!! It wasnít bothering me last night, sometimes it annoys me. Probably because I am looking directly in a mirror of my past.

but it was more intriguing to me last night. Kinda like a little movie I got to watch unfold.

hubby drank. He was def feeling tipsy. I drove, obviously.

8:05 am. The house is asleep. Even the girls! And I am awake, hangover free and smiling.

enjoy the day everyone.
im thinking about you all.

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Old 12-15-2019, 03:11 PM   #366 (permalink)
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Iím glad your girls are feeling better Bumblebee
Sounds like the wedding was fun
We had a really busy few days, things have been nuts!
Back to work this morning and itís looking like a busy day.
This lead up to Christmas is crazy....
See you a bit later
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Old 12-25-2019, 04:30 AM   #367 (permalink)
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I survived December.

it was a crazy busy month for me.

Laying in bed. 6:30 am. Waiting for the girls to wake, and see Santa came.

Ready to watch some magic, through their eyes.

Merry Christmas to my SR family!

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Old 12-28-2019, 08:37 PM   #368 (permalink)
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Hey guys. Anyone around?


I hope everyone is having a good holiday week.

I had a pretty bad urge on Christmas Day. My mother in law came over with gifts.
Husband was at work. She brought a bottle of wine for me. (She doesnít know/realize I donít drink.)

Well, since my husband was at work. This was it. My perfect opportunity to have just one, by myself. Enjoy it and be done. I deserve it right.

The internal conflict... ugh. Itís been a while since i felt that. It is exhausting. Time consuming. I donít miss it. I didnít enjoy it.

I did not drink it. And eventually the urge and the thought was completely gone.

Over 18 months of sobriety... it is scary how strong those urges can be.

So. Yeh. That was Christmas Day.

It is now Saturday. There is a surprise party across the street for my neighbor. She is turning 50 years old. I was there for a little... everyone drinking. Not me.

I am back home now. Had to put the girls to bed. My husband is still over there.

I have to make some sort of plan for next year and my eating and weight.


Every time I donít drink. I feel like I deserve a treat in return... weíll, letís just say Iíve been eating a lot of treats this month. And it is never just one. Ever! Sound familiar?...

Have a good one guys! Post if your here. Just say hi if you donít feel like writing a lot.

Thanks
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Old 12-28-2019, 08:46 PM   #369 (permalink)
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I'm glad you got through it bumblebee.
Will you tell your MIL you're not drinking anymore/

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Old 12-29-2019, 06:35 PM   #370 (permalink)
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Well done Bumblebee! Youíre doing so well! Iím so proud of you.
Alas, me, not so well
Itís been a crazy month, way too much stuff going on to talk about it all and Iím sad to say I didnít manage to get through it alcohol-free. Ugggh.
The house filled up with alcohol and drunk people for weeks. But Iím hopeful that now everyone has gone it will be easier.
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Old 12-31-2019, 04:33 PM   #371 (permalink)
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Happy New Year! Letís make 2020 an awesome sober year
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Old 01-01-2020, 12:59 PM   #372 (permalink)
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It's day one for me.

Happy New Year everybody!

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Old 01-01-2020, 03:49 PM   #373 (permalink)
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It's day one for me.

Happy New Year everybody!

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Me too John.

Although now I’m actually on day 2 as it’s 2nd January here in Australia.

Let’s make it our last day one ever.
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Old 01-02-2020, 07:11 PM   #374 (permalink)
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Way to go John and willow. You made it past the hardest day!

dee- I actually did tell my mother in law I donít donít drink anymore a few times. But it was nonchalant- like, Ďoh Iím not drinking anymore... it gives me headachesí

not, Ďoh Iím not drinking anymore... I am an alcoholic and cant control myself.í

Sooooooo, yeah. The wine she bought me is out of the house now. So no more temptation.

jan 2nd. Back to reality and routines. Feels good.

new years resolutions anyone???? Other then donít drink 😊

im going to try to significantly cut out sweets and wake earlier to improve productivity.

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Happy New Year Bumblebee
Well done on getting rid of the wine.
I donít have any New Year Resolutions, other than be alcohol-free and work on my own personal growth & self-worth, so that I can maintain being long-term alcohol-free
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Just stopping to say hi to everyone.

my new year is going good thus far. Busy with life. Canít complain.

today is going to be a strangely warm day for Pittsburgh in the winter. Going to take my oldest around the neighborhood to sell Girl Scout cookies.

how is your new year going?

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Old 01-12-2020, 07:32 PM   #377 (permalink)
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Hi Bumblebee
Iíve just been really really busy!
Nuts in fact, trying to keep on top of everything.
But Iíve booked a couple of nights away for the long weekend coming up, a chance to escape and breathe lol
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Hello everyone.

Hope you enjoy your long weekend willow.

We are also busy busy busy. Actually at dance right now for my older daughter. But January feels more manageable busy, compared to December.

My youngest daughter asked me what do I dislike?
She proceeded to tell me she does not like going to school.... of course.

Then it was my turn- and you know what? I had a really hard time coming up with things I do not like or enjoy.

She reminded me I donít like steak. Lol. since then I have been able to think of a longer list. But it just made me realize how luck I truly am. I immediately could not think of anything I didnít like.

furthermore my list of things I like/enjoy was easy and endless.

When I was drinking. I would wake up hungover, everyday. Look forward to nothing... except drinking again and getting to sleep at the end of the day. Everything I did felt like a chore. Itís pathetic really.

I hope you guys are enjoying your day!

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Thanks Bumble
I am looking forward to my weekend away!
Iíll let you know how it goes
Looks like itís just you and I left in this thread, unless there are any lurkers out there? Come and say hello

Bumble do you post in other threads? You would get more interaction from some other more active threads, although Iím glad you still come here. I feel like this is my original ďhomeĒ because May 2018 is when I started this momentous journey of sobriety
Iím also in the One year and under thread. Thereís also a one year and over thread which I did post in a few times, but then slipped up and went back to the unders.
I also post in the 24 hour and weekenders threads.
Plus a couple of others.

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Quick fly by. Day 2

Love to you allóDee. Bumble. John. Bumble. Willow. Guener.

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