Congrats willow!!! Incredible.

the author is Laura McKowen.

have a great day.
My oldest is going to school
my youngest is still sick.

Hey guys.

hope everyone is enjoying their weekend.

my youngest is still sick. It has been a week of illnesses in my house.

im not feeling great. My husband is off so he has been helpful.

i have been able to lay around and relax a lot. Which is so nice. But also feels a little depressing. I feeling really moody and less positive.

it night also be due to pms. It might be taking care of sick kids and cancelling a million plans the last week. It might be the never ending to do list I have before Xmas. I don’t know.

but about to get up and going to be positive and grateful today.

So yesterday ended up being a better day.

i think there was a lot of my mind. A few things have taken care of itself. I also went to a wedding last night with my husband.

my parents babysat the girls. They are both feeling a lot better now.

So I actually showered and did my hair, makeup. Put on a dress and heels. Just that, the action helped my mood.

i think I was in unconsciously nervous about the wedding too. It was my hubby co-workers. I don’t see them often... so they don’t know that I no longer drink.

A previous wedding I went to with the same group of people- I was wasted. Taking shots, throwing up. I cringe thinking about it.

anyhow, last night went really good. I love to dance. Love it. Maybe it is the cheerleader in me from when I was younger. I enjoy dancing even if sober. But once dinner was over and I was dancing. The night without drinking was seamless.

people were getting SLOPPY drunk!!! It wasn’t bothering me last night, sometimes it annoys me. Probably because I am looking directly in a mirror of my past.

but it was more intriguing to me last night. Kinda like a little movie I got to watch unfold.

hubby drank. He was def feeling tipsy. I drove, obviously.

8:05 am. The house is asleep. Even the girls! And I am awake, hangover free and smiling.

enjoy the day everyone.
im thinking about you all.

bumble

I survived December.

it was a crazy busy month for me.

Laying in bed. 6:30 am. Waiting for the girls to wake, and see Santa came.

Ready to watch some magic, through their eyes.

Merry Christmas to my SR family!

Bumble

Hey guys. Anyone around?


I hope everyone is having a good holiday week.

I had a pretty bad urge on Christmas Day. My mother in law came over with gifts.
Husband was at work. She brought a bottle of wine for me. (She doesn’t know/realize I don’t drink.)

Well, since my husband was at work. This was it. My perfect opportunity to have just one, by myself. Enjoy it and be done. I deserve it right.

The internal conflict... ugh. It’s been a while since i felt that. It is exhausting. Time consuming. I don’t miss it. I didn’t enjoy it.

I did not drink it. And eventually the urge and the thought was completely gone.

Over 18 months of sobriety... it is scary how strong those urges can be.

So. Yeh. That was Christmas Day.

It is now Saturday. There is a surprise party across the street for my neighbor. She is turning 50 years old. I was there for a little... everyone drinking. Not me.

I am back home now. Had to put the girls to bed. My husband is still over there.

I have to make some sort of plan for next year and my eating and weight.


Every time I don’t drink. I feel like I deserve a treat in return... we’ll, let’s just say I’ve been eating a lot of treats this month. And it is never just one. Ever! Sound familiar?...

Have a good one guys! Post if your here. Just say hi if you don’t feel like writing a lot.

Thanks
Bumble

Way to go John and willow. You made it past the hardest day!

dee- I actually did tell my mother in law I don’t don’t drink anymore a few times. But it was nonchalant- like, ‘oh I’m not drinking anymore... it gives me headaches’

not, ‘oh I’m not drinking anymore... I am an alcoholic and cant control myself.’

Sooooooo, yeah. The wine she bought me is out of the house now. So no more temptation.

jan 2nd. Back to reality and routines. Feels good.

new years resolutions anyone???? Other then don’t drink 😊

im going to try to significantly cut out sweets and wake earlier to improve productivity.

bumble

Just stopping to say hi to everyone.

my new year is going good thus far. Busy with life. Can’t complain.

today is going to be a strangely warm day for Pittsburgh in the winter. Going to take my oldest around the neighborhood to sell Girl Scout cookies.

how is your new year going?

bumble

Hello everyone.

Hope you enjoy your long weekend willow.

We are also busy busy busy. Actually at dance right now for my older daughter. But January feels more manageable busy, compared to December.

My youngest daughter asked me what do I dislike?
She proceeded to tell me she does not like going to school.... of course.

Then it was my turn- and you know what? I had a really hard time coming up with things I do not like or enjoy.

She reminded me I don’t like steak. Lol. since then I have been able to think of a longer list. But it just made me realize how luck I truly am. I immediately could not think of anything I didn’t like.

furthermore my list of things I like/enjoy was easy and endless.

When I was drinking. I would wake up hungover, everyday. Look forward to nothing... except drinking again and getting to sleep at the end of the day. Everything I did felt like a chore. It’s pathetic really.

I hope you guys are enjoying your day!

Bumble