24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 439
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I feel so grateful to be a recovering alcoholic. Even on the worst days of recovery, I can always think 'at least I didn't drink today' and that means I end the day with a win. Every day I don't drink is a win. And I'm learning that that's just the start. I'm learning recovery is so much more than not drinking. It's way more than that. It's about reconnecting with who I am at my core.... It's about seeking my life's purpose..... It's about staring into the darkest parts of my soul and finding strength there. And I get to experience all of this because I'm a recovering alcoholic. Lately I've been thinking and worrying about someone I know, someone I love, who isn't an addict but who seems to have lost her way in life. I've been thinking about how she would benefit from a 24 hour thread. But she isn't an addict so doesn't need to recover from addiction. But when she speaks, she says things that make me think she does need to recover. From something. Something that she doesn't mask with alcohol but something nonetheless. Maybe everyone needs to recover from something? I've suggested she come to my mindfulness group. I think meditation will help.... Even if it just helps point her in the direction of the help she needs. After speaking to her, I realise that I'm so lucky. How incredible that my recovery has a home. I can come here and be with people who understand. I can share and learn and grow and feel safe. Because I'm a recovering alcoholic. And I'm so grateful for that. Congratulations to everyone celebrating a milestone today and 24 more for me please xxx
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Join Date: Apr 2019
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I should have posted this morning as that seems to help. Woke up anxious but went for a run. Went to work. Felt super down and overwhelmed after and thought about drinking wine. Just one glass of wine I thought... And oscillated back and forth entertaining the idea of stopping at the store en route home. Instead I parked my car and went inside and sat here reading posts for the last hour. I reflected on my partner's recovery (instead of my own, not sure if that's the healthiest thing or not) and their strength/courage and not wanting to disappoint. Doing so, kept me in my seat, grounded (or at least increasingly grounded!!). The urge isn't entirely gone, but it's lessened.
Thank you for this space and for all of you.
I thanked my partner.
And I'm now posting for myself. Another 24 for me, please.
Thank you for this space and for all of you.
I thanked my partner.
And I'm now posting for myself. Another 24 for me, please.
Gosh Buffy.....so much love. ♥
You may not realise just how HUGE your accomplishments are right now....you are in the early days and your body/mind is still finding homeostasis, and it is not easy. Yet you are making good choice after good choice, and that is just wonderful.
I think almost all of us have faced that parking-lot dilemma.....and you won today. Sending so many hugs. ♥
You may not realise just how HUGE your accomplishments are right now....you are in the early days and your body/mind is still finding homeostasis, and it is not easy. Yet you are making good choice after good choice, and that is just wonderful.
I think almost all of us have faced that parking-lot dilemma.....and you won today. Sending so many hugs. ♥
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Join Date: Apr 2019
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Here I am again. I road the wave of urge 1. Second one surfaced. Realized I have a stash still. Not much but enough. I smelled it. I then reread a message of support. I then proceeded to dump the bottle. It's gone. Flushed away. This is good and the release I ultimately was looking for. This isn't easy. But it's better in the long run. There is much to lose if I sabotage myself. There's much to gain by taking the risk to actually live life and appreciate what I have.
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