Class of September 2018 Part 5
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Good morning everyone!
I have had a shift in my thinking regarding my mom, brother, and their living situation. For starters, I found out this morning that she is already there and has given up her beautiful apartment. All that is left is for my brother to move her stuff out and pack it in to his small 2 bedroom dump.......Moving forward......
I have decided that it isn't my place anymore to tell her what is best for her. Maybe she enjoys living as a martyr, doing without the basic needs and complaining about it so she can gain sympathy from the rest of the family. She is too old to change, and I don't have it in me anymore, I have to let go and trust that she will be happy.
Getting through this emotional rollercoaster without wanting to drink has solidified my sobriety. For as long as I can remember, I drank to forget about the painful truth of my dysfunctional family. The difference is, this doesn't have to be my truth, my life, or my concern. I am free to live happily, and never have to fall into that despair again.
The sober bus rolls on.....
Have an awesome day!
I have had a shift in my thinking regarding my mom, brother, and their living situation. For starters, I found out this morning that she is already there and has given up her beautiful apartment. All that is left is for my brother to move her stuff out and pack it in to his small 2 bedroom dump.......Moving forward......
I have decided that it isn't my place anymore to tell her what is best for her. Maybe she enjoys living as a martyr, doing without the basic needs and complaining about it so she can gain sympathy from the rest of the family. She is too old to change, and I don't have it in me anymore, I have to let go and trust that she will be happy.
Getting through this emotional rollercoaster without wanting to drink has solidified my sobriety. For as long as I can remember, I drank to forget about the painful truth of my dysfunctional family. The difference is, this doesn't have to be my truth, my life, or my concern. I am free to live happily, and never have to fall into that despair again.
The sober bus rolls on.....
Have an awesome day!
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Glad to hear you found some perspective. Our excuses to drink over our dysfunctional family only gives more power for them to affect our well being.
All good changes in becoming the best you.
Bumboid, have you been to the doc?
All good changes in becoming the best you.
Bumboid, have you been to the doc?
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Happy Sober Saturday!!
Another full day for me today...then I get my 2 days of rest and rejuvenation. I have decided to join a spiritual center, one that welcomes all faiths and backgrounds. I think that moving forward in my recovery it would be a good idea to have some more social support and some guidance when the going gets rough. I know that I never want to drink again, but I also know that I will need more to sustain this momentum permanently. I'm looking forward to stepping out of my comfort zone a little. They also have a SMART recovery program onsite, if I ever need it
Have a beautiful day!!
Another full day for me today...then I get my 2 days of rest and rejuvenation. I have decided to join a spiritual center, one that welcomes all faiths and backgrounds. I think that moving forward in my recovery it would be a good idea to have some more social support and some guidance when the going gets rough. I know that I never want to drink again, but I also know that I will need more to sustain this momentum permanently. I'm looking forward to stepping out of my comfort zone a little. They also have a SMART recovery program onsite, if I ever need it
Have a beautiful day!!
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How are you feeling Bumboid?
What have you been up to Hopeful?
WF, at some point I would like to do something like that. I've always felt a connection with Buddhism though I was raised a catholic. I wouldn't say I'm of any denomination now but I always felt a connection with something more. I have a strong sense of spirituality and reflect often on it. Right now, I gave too many things keeping me busy and sober. Hopefully I don't burn myself out before I get to relax.
But I am incredibly happy right now. Super sure of who I am and that alcohol has no place in my life. I'm starting my second act, so just stay tuned!
What have you been up to Hopeful?
WF, at some point I would like to do something like that. I've always felt a connection with Buddhism though I was raised a catholic. I wouldn't say I'm of any denomination now but I always felt a connection with something more. I have a strong sense of spirituality and reflect often on it. Right now, I gave too many things keeping me busy and sober. Hopefully I don't burn myself out before I get to relax.
But I am incredibly happy right now. Super sure of who I am and that alcohol has no place in my life. I'm starting my second act, so just stay tuned!
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Early morning check in.....
I will never grow tired of waking up in the morning without a hangover. I am shocked that I allowed myself to live in that fog for so many years. Even if I have nothing planned for the day, every moment feels like an opportunity to experience life completely. I enjoy the simple things and am no longer looking for instant gratification. I accept myself as I am, and know that I am blessed. I continue to evolve and grow in my sobriety and I am so grateful to have this community, thanks SR.
I will never grow tired of waking up in the morning without a hangover. I am shocked that I allowed myself to live in that fog for so many years. Even if I have nothing planned for the day, every moment feels like an opportunity to experience life completely. I enjoy the simple things and am no longer looking for instant gratification. I accept myself as I am, and know that I am blessed. I continue to evolve and grow in my sobriety and I am so grateful to have this community, thanks SR.
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That's right Final.....Sober does NOT suck.
I'm feeling sort of run down today, overworked myself a little last week. No contact with my mom, it was good for me to take a big step back! I'm gonna have a self care day......soft music, reading, maybe a little walk, some healthy foods, and a nap. I am grateful to be in tune with my needs and have the ability to stop and take care of me. This is the best gift I have ever given myself.....the freedom to slow down and really listen......
Have a beautiful, sober week my friends. I appreciate you all.
I'm feeling sort of run down today, overworked myself a little last week. No contact with my mom, it was good for me to take a big step back! I'm gonna have a self care day......soft music, reading, maybe a little walk, some healthy foods, and a nap. I am grateful to be in tune with my needs and have the ability to stop and take care of me. This is the best gift I have ever given myself.....the freedom to slow down and really listen......
Have a beautiful, sober week my friends. I appreciate you all.
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Took my youngest son to work with me yesterday. Had a busy and productive day. Came home and made dinner. Wife finished work early and my oldest was home so we all ate dinner together.
Does it get any better than this? I hope not.
Does it get any better than this? I hope not.
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Great weather here too. I'm crazy busy with work. Good and bad. One of those days today that I feel like I've been run over in both directions. Going to chill for an hour and take in some fresh air. Put things in perspective. Not going to try to drown them in a bottle of rum fir sure. I'll get back at it tomorrow and hopefully have a better day.
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