Class of April 2018 Part 10
Erratic... ahhhh insecurity and uncertainty. Drove me to the bottle for ages. I ruminate over things until they are resolved and I cannot get the thought out of my head. They invade my psyche. I’m never comfortable with the way things are because my life is kind up up in the air. I don’t know what I’m going to do. At least some stability would help.
Ok folks I’m going to my APRN today. I need sneakers, very exciting. There is a really nice runners shop in town and it’s too much. They’re too nice. I’d rather anonymously by a pair of sneakers. I plan on heading back to the gym. The last time I did this the sneakers got used 10 times and sat there for years. Newer ones are so much more cushy.
Anyway, laters
V
Ok folks I’m going to my APRN today. I need sneakers, very exciting. There is a really nice runners shop in town and it’s too much. They’re too nice. I’d rather anonymously by a pair of sneakers. I plan on heading back to the gym. The last time I did this the sneakers got used 10 times and sat there for years. Newer ones are so much more cushy.
Anyway, laters
V
Hugs Nichole, you know you can't go on like this, it isn't right, you deserve so much more. I'm sorry you ended up in hospital and I hope this will be your turning point and you get all the help you can to stay sober.
I'm sorry you're feeling down Erratic and I'm sorry things are not too good with you and your husband right now, that won't help your mood. Is it your appointment with your psych doc on Thursday? Maybe if you can tell him your concerns as in what you've written here, he can offer some help and advice.
Go to your alcohol clinic appt next week even if you have been going for years, they can help you, that's what they are there for. The more support you have, the better.
How did your appointment go with the APRN Viper? I hope she was able to help.
Sneakers? Go on, treat yourself. xx
I hope they are too Dee, thank you.
Going to bed now, goodnight all, back tomorrow.
I'm sorry you're feeling down Erratic and I'm sorry things are not too good with you and your husband right now, that won't help your mood. Is it your appointment with your psych doc on Thursday? Maybe if you can tell him your concerns as in what you've written here, he can offer some help and advice.
Go to your alcohol clinic appt next week even if you have been going for years, they can help you, that's what they are there for. The more support you have, the better.
How did your appointment go with the APRN Viper? I hope she was able to help.
Sneakers? Go on, treat yourself. xx
I hope they are too Dee, thank you.
Going to bed now, goodnight all, back tomorrow.
Morning all
I hope it helped Viper, I look forward to your post later.
I'm off to a theme park today with my lovely daughter and the g.children plus a borrowed one. We got the tickets half price online so it would be rude not to.
See you all later. Happy hump day. xx
You can search through the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere.
You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.
Buddha
I hope it helped Viper, I look forward to your post later.
I'm off to a theme park today with my lovely daughter and the g.children plus a borrowed one. We got the tickets half price online so it would be rude not to.
See you all later. Happy hump day. xx
You can search through the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere.
You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.
Buddha
afternoon x
yeah pdoc tomo, and i had a heart to heart with hub last night which i am hoping we can get back on track together. thanks viper you hit it on the head x hope your appointment goes ok x
hope you have nice day daisy at the theme park x
have a good day all x
yeah pdoc tomo, and i had a heart to heart with hub last night which i am hoping we can get back on track together. thanks viper you hit it on the head x hope your appointment goes ok x
hope you have nice day daisy at the theme park x
have a good day all x
Evening Aprils, I hope you've all had a good day, I'm shattered and ready for my bed. I had a fab day at the theme park and much to the delight of my g.children I took the full brunt of the water splashage ( I made that word up!) on the log flume and got absolutely soaked. My jumper and jeans were soaked and I spend most of the afternoon walking round looking like I'd peed myself lol.
I'll be thinking about you tomorrow Erratic, let us know how it goes. I'm glad you cleared the air with your husband, good on you for doing that, I bet you feel better for it.
Going to bed now, back in the morning, goodnight all. xx
I'll be thinking about you tomorrow Erratic, let us know how it goes. I'm glad you cleared the air with your husband, good on you for doing that, I bet you feel better for it.
Going to bed now, back in the morning, goodnight all. xx
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Morning everyone!
I am at my folks I came back here after work yesterday . Just getting up as got to leave early as my dad is going to take me home (bless him) as I want to make my Thursday meeting as haven't been to one since my melt down lol.
All good with me. I have been eating healthy and it has a huge positive impact on me mentally and physically. I have been applying my programme to food and it is working!
I had a bit if a bust up with my daughters dad on Tuesday. So I have now blocked him from WhatsApp and Facebook and only want to communicate via email. He keeps bringing up my drinking and battering me down with things I have done in the past. I wouldn't even mind as much hit he isn't whiter than white himself! However, I cant keep on listening or reading his abuse to me. I am doing what I can. Not drinking and trying to be a more honest, selfless person. I cant do anything about him or how he feels, so have taken the action to remove him from my life as much as is possible when you share a child with someone. I wanted to be amicable but I think the most I can expect is cordial. Feeling better for it!
It's a lovely morning so after my meeting I am going to do something nice with my daughter. I am going to ask her what she would like to do. Tomorrow we are going to friends got a bbq. Looking forward to that.
Have a fav day everyone I will catch up with posts later x x
I am at my folks I came back here after work yesterday . Just getting up as got to leave early as my dad is going to take me home (bless him) as I want to make my Thursday meeting as haven't been to one since my melt down lol.
All good with me. I have been eating healthy and it has a huge positive impact on me mentally and physically. I have been applying my programme to food and it is working!
I had a bit if a bust up with my daughters dad on Tuesday. So I have now blocked him from WhatsApp and Facebook and only want to communicate via email. He keeps bringing up my drinking and battering me down with things I have done in the past. I wouldn't even mind as much hit he isn't whiter than white himself! However, I cant keep on listening or reading his abuse to me. I am doing what I can. Not drinking and trying to be a more honest, selfless person. I cant do anything about him or how he feels, so have taken the action to remove him from my life as much as is possible when you share a child with someone. I wanted to be amicable but I think the most I can expect is cordial. Feeling better for it!
It's a lovely morning so after my meeting I am going to do something nice with my daughter. I am going to ask her what she would like to do. Tomorrow we are going to friends got a bbq. Looking forward to that.
Have a fav day everyone I will catch up with posts later x x
07.35
Good morning Aprils, how's it going. It's a beautiful morning out there and forecast to be the same all over Easter, I'm so going to get my garden straight. Can't wait to get out there.
Hi Suze, you're sounding good today. I think you've done the right thing re your ex. The past should be left in the past where it belongs, you can't change anything about it. You've been sober now for 12 months and your changed behaviour should be enough to show him how important you daughter is to you. You don't need his negativity.
Enjoy your meeting and have a lovely day with Seren.
Let us know how it goes later. xx
Thinking of you today Erratic, I hope all goes well.
Hope you're feeling better Viper.
I hope all is good with you too Bluesey.
Gosh 5 of us left and that's it,, it would be lovely if some of the others popped in to let us know how they are doing.
Anyway, I've loads to do, catch up with you later. Lots of love to all of you and have a great Thursday. xxx
Good morning Aprils, how's it going. It's a beautiful morning out there and forecast to be the same all over Easter, I'm so going to get my garden straight. Can't wait to get out there.
Hi Suze, you're sounding good today. I think you've done the right thing re your ex. The past should be left in the past where it belongs, you can't change anything about it. You've been sober now for 12 months and your changed behaviour should be enough to show him how important you daughter is to you. You don't need his negativity.
Enjoy your meeting and have a lovely day with Seren.
Let us know how it goes later. xx
Thinking of you today Erratic, I hope all goes well.
Hope you're feeling better Viper.
I hope all is good with you too Bluesey.
Gosh 5 of us left and that's it,, it would be lovely if some of the others popped in to let us know how they are doing.
Anyway, I've loads to do, catch up with you later. Lots of love to all of you and have a great Thursday. xxx
07.20
Good morning Aprils on this beautiful Good Friday, hope you all have a lovely day/peaceful night.
As we grow older and wiser, we begin to realize what we need and what we need to leave behind.
Good morning Aprils on this beautiful Good Friday, hope you all have a lovely day/peaceful night.
As we grow older and wiser, we begin to realize what we need and what we need to leave behind.
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Morning everyone and a very blessed Good Friday to you all.
Awww Daisy, sounds like you had a great tgreat the theme park. Am smiling now just imagining it. They are such fun, how great we can be there for our little ones and really enjoy ourselves without a chemical substance! Can you come do my garden please lol! I am thinking of getting fake grass. I only have a small area of grass and it looked lovely when it was laid but it has gone horrible now. I will give it a good weed and feed aee how it gets on . I prefer real grass but not if it looks patchy and weedy. I am just useless at gardening. I do try but everything wilts under my touch lol.
Hi Erratic, how did your appointment go?
Nichole, I am sorry to read you ended up in the hospital. How are you doing now?
Blusey, we sing have a WhatsApp group. It is a Facebook messenger group. But I would be happy to set a WhatsApp group up? I will definitely let you know when I am next in San Fran. Ot would be amazing to meet up!
Hey Vipe my main man!
Hi Dee 😀😀
Wow how nice is tbe weather here Daisy? Yesterday was lovely! I picked my daughter up from her dads. We are contacting each other via email . It is sad ot has come to this but it has. That's just how it is. I dont need to be constantly put down, you are right Daisy. I mean, I beat myself up enough without getting it from someone else! I do feel relief though so that's good . Anyway , I picked her up and I went to my meeting. It is the first one I have been to in about 2 weeks and it felt good to be there. Then we went to the park. Seren made some little friends and was happily playing whilst I sat in the sunshine.
So then it all got a bit weird.... an AA friend of mine joined me. I was "warned'about her as she has been in AA for 5 years and is a serial relapser. Her boyfriend is an active heroin addict. She came to meet me for coffee but kept saying how much she wanted to drink! We ended up going for food with my mum friend who I introduced her to and they both drank. My mum friend had 2 white wine spritzer and AA friend 2 Rose's. I had tea and diet coke . We left about 7pm but my AA friend wanted to continue. She also let slip that she had been on drink and coke binges with her boyfriend in the last couple of weeks. I dont believe she has any intention of stopping drinking. She admitted to me she loves it too much . That's her business . Nut I have to protect my sobriety. I like her but I think I need to distance myself . I cant talk to my sponsor about it as I dont want to "out" this girl. I know what she would say anyway. It's dangerous for me to be friends with someone in the rooms who is seen to be "working" a programme but still drinking because my mind will start telling me maybe it's ok for me to do that. And I do not want to drink. For me, to drink is to die.
Anyway today we are going to the park for an Easter egg hunt and then a bbq with sobriety friends. So there will be no alcohol at all! Really looking forward to it.
Have a fab day everyone. Catch you later .x x
Awww Daisy, sounds like you had a great tgreat the theme park. Am smiling now just imagining it. They are such fun, how great we can be there for our little ones and really enjoy ourselves without a chemical substance! Can you come do my garden please lol! I am thinking of getting fake grass. I only have a small area of grass and it looked lovely when it was laid but it has gone horrible now. I will give it a good weed and feed aee how it gets on . I prefer real grass but not if it looks patchy and weedy. I am just useless at gardening. I do try but everything wilts under my touch lol.
Hi Erratic, how did your appointment go?
Nichole, I am sorry to read you ended up in the hospital. How are you doing now?
Blusey, we sing have a WhatsApp group. It is a Facebook messenger group. But I would be happy to set a WhatsApp group up? I will definitely let you know when I am next in San Fran. Ot would be amazing to meet up!
Hey Vipe my main man!
Hi Dee 😀😀
Wow how nice is tbe weather here Daisy? Yesterday was lovely! I picked my daughter up from her dads. We are contacting each other via email . It is sad ot has come to this but it has. That's just how it is. I dont need to be constantly put down, you are right Daisy. I mean, I beat myself up enough without getting it from someone else! I do feel relief though so that's good . Anyway , I picked her up and I went to my meeting. It is the first one I have been to in about 2 weeks and it felt good to be there. Then we went to the park. Seren made some little friends and was happily playing whilst I sat in the sunshine.
So then it all got a bit weird.... an AA friend of mine joined me. I was "warned'about her as she has been in AA for 5 years and is a serial relapser. Her boyfriend is an active heroin addict. She came to meet me for coffee but kept saying how much she wanted to drink! We ended up going for food with my mum friend who I introduced her to and they both drank. My mum friend had 2 white wine spritzer and AA friend 2 Rose's. I had tea and diet coke . We left about 7pm but my AA friend wanted to continue. She also let slip that she had been on drink and coke binges with her boyfriend in the last couple of weeks. I dont believe she has any intention of stopping drinking. She admitted to me she loves it too much . That's her business . Nut I have to protect my sobriety. I like her but I think I need to distance myself . I cant talk to my sponsor about it as I dont want to "out" this girl. I know what she would say anyway. It's dangerous for me to be friends with someone in the rooms who is seen to be "working" a programme but still drinking because my mind will start telling me maybe it's ok for me to do that. And I do not want to drink. For me, to drink is to die.
Anyway today we are going to the park for an Easter egg hunt and then a bbq with sobriety friends. So there will be no alcohol at all! Really looking forward to it.
Have a fab day everyone. Catch you later .x x
Good evening all, just doing my bedtime check in. It's been the most gorgeous day, the weather has been amazing, I've been very productive and got loads done in the garden, I'm beginning to see light at the end of the tunnel now.
My daughter and her little family have gone away for the weekend so I'm on cat duty. I went to feed her earlier on and driving home the moon was absolutely amazing, it was so low and full in the sky, like a huge, golden orb.
Good to see you posting Suze and I did have a good day at the theme park, it was a good laugh. We've done loads of things this holiday, made loads of happy memories.
I would love fake grass too, my back garden is mostly paved but I am desperate to have a fake lawn, it's just so expensive for a decent quality one. I can't afford it at this moment in time.
I'd be happy to join a Wattsapp group if you set it up Suze, I'd probably use it more than I do Messenger.
I think you've done the right thing re your ex, you really don't need the negativity. If you can just be civil to each other for Seren's sake all well and good. That's all you need.
Oooh I don't like the sound of your A.A 'friend', she is definitely one you need to keep your distance from, but you know that. Your sobriety has to come first.
Is it your one year sober birthday on Easter Sunday?
Right well I'm off to bed now, so goodnight to you all and good day Dee.xx
My daughter and her little family have gone away for the weekend so I'm on cat duty. I went to feed her earlier on and driving home the moon was absolutely amazing, it was so low and full in the sky, like a huge, golden orb.
Good to see you posting Suze and I did have a good day at the theme park, it was a good laugh. We've done loads of things this holiday, made loads of happy memories.
I would love fake grass too, my back garden is mostly paved but I am desperate to have a fake lawn, it's just so expensive for a decent quality one. I can't afford it at this moment in time.
I'd be happy to join a Wattsapp group if you set it up Suze, I'd probably use it more than I do Messenger.
I think you've done the right thing re your ex, you really don't need the negativity. If you can just be civil to each other for Seren's sake all well and good. That's all you need.
Oooh I don't like the sound of your A.A 'friend', she is definitely one you need to keep your distance from, but you know that. Your sobriety has to come first.
Is it your one year sober birthday on Easter Sunday?
Right well I'm off to bed now, so goodnight to you all and good day Dee.xx
Hi kids
I wish I could report good stuff but things continued to decline. No drinking though.
Ive got dagger like pains in my stomach when I eat, exhaustion, more weight loss. I’m spending a lot of time in bed.
This week I’ve got a CT SCAN, Blood work to get, a colonoscopy and endoscopy on Thursday. Plus I’m learning a lot about SIBO, a nasty infection in the small intestine that causes a lot of the symptoms I have now, and have had for years to varying degrees at various times. So they are trying to get me in for a SIBO Test too. If I have SIBO I’ll be happy. They just treat it. Also Celiacs is high on their list and that will be found with biopsy of the gut during the colonoscopy.
Im a disaster. I was ok and Brazil started all this. Then the motorcycle is just sitting there.
My car needs more repairs. It’s burning oil off the exhaust or something. It’s one thing after another.
I may may be in a lovely homewood suites in town for 2 days during the prep for my procedures. I hate paying for it, but I need to be out of this house.
Anyway I’ll keep you posted. I am happy they are listening to what I say and taking real action. I’m so glad they believe me.
Laters, is much for 9 months. 😣
v
I wish I could report good stuff but things continued to decline. No drinking though.
Ive got dagger like pains in my stomach when I eat, exhaustion, more weight loss. I’m spending a lot of time in bed.
This week I’ve got a CT SCAN, Blood work to get, a colonoscopy and endoscopy on Thursday. Plus I’m learning a lot about SIBO, a nasty infection in the small intestine that causes a lot of the symptoms I have now, and have had for years to varying degrees at various times. So they are trying to get me in for a SIBO Test too. If I have SIBO I’ll be happy. They just treat it. Also Celiacs is high on their list and that will be found with biopsy of the gut during the colonoscopy.
Im a disaster. I was ok and Brazil started all this. Then the motorcycle is just sitting there.
My car needs more repairs. It’s burning oil off the exhaust or something. It’s one thing after another.
I may may be in a lovely homewood suites in town for 2 days during the prep for my procedures. I hate paying for it, but I need to be out of this house.
Anyway I’ll keep you posted. I am happy they are listening to what I say and taking real action. I’m so glad they believe me.
Laters, is much for 9 months. 😣
v
I hope you'll have some answers soon Vipe. Really glad you're sober for all this.
Snitch I had to treat my recovery like a precious jewel - she doesn't seem like the kind of playmate that would be conducive to that.
Hi Daisy, Bluesy, Erratic, Nichole, Matthew kgirl Donny Strawberry and anyone I've missed.
Have a happy safe and sober Easter Break
Snitch I had to treat my recovery like a precious jewel - she doesn't seem like the kind of playmate that would be conducive to that.
Hi Daisy, Bluesy, Erratic, Nichole, Matthew kgirl Donny Strawberry and anyone I've missed.
Have a happy safe and sober Easter Break
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Morning all.... really quick post as have to get up and get ready for work boo!
Thanks Dee and Daisy I did speak to my sponsor yesterday and feel better for it. I am going to detach with love. I will let her know that when she is ready to get the help I will be there for her but I cannot be around that. I have to protect my sobriety . It's my one year on Monday Daisy gulp!
Am off to Baltimore today. Will check in when I land.
X x x
Thanks Dee and Daisy I did speak to my sponsor yesterday and feel better for it. I am going to detach with love. I will let her know that when she is ready to get the help I will be there for her but I cannot be around that. I have to protect my sobriety . It's my one year on Monday Daisy gulp!
Am off to Baltimore today. Will check in when I land.
X x x
Good afternoon Aprils on yet another gorgeous sunny day. I hope you're all well, happy and sober.
I'm sorry you have to deal with all that Viper and I hope they get it sorted at last. I have to have annual endoscopies and colonoscopies, they are not the most present of procedures but they don't take long and to be honest I think the pre is the worst part of the whole thing. At least you should have some answers after it. Till then, look after yourself and rest if you need to.
Hi Dee, I hope you're having a good night.
Hi Suze, I'm glad you spoke to your sponsor about your 'friend,' I think you did the right thing. Have a safe journey to Baltimore, speak soon.
I'm off in the garden now to do a bit more. Have a great Saturday Aprils, back later. xxxx
I'm sorry you have to deal with all that Viper and I hope they get it sorted at last. I have to have annual endoscopies and colonoscopies, they are not the most present of procedures but they don't take long and to be honest I think the pre is the worst part of the whole thing. At least you should have some answers after it. Till then, look after yourself and rest if you need to.
Hi Dee, I hope you're having a good night.
Hi Suze, I'm glad you spoke to your sponsor about your 'friend,' I think you did the right thing. Have a safe journey to Baltimore, speak soon.
I'm off in the garden now to do a bit more. Have a great Saturday Aprils, back later. xxxx
Thanks all. Yesterday I ate nothing but loads of well cooked chicken soup with plenty of celery, carrots, etc. I woke up a different man. So it’s food reactions causing me to be so sick, it’s just ‘why’ all the reactions.
I went out last night to the electronics store. My sick friend just says in her apartment without much to do all of the time. She’s getting a new place under Section 8 Housing (free apartment) and if she has Section 8 she can get cable internet for $10 a month, I found out. So instead of her staring at her phone all the time I bought her a good 9.7 inch iPad, an Apple Pencil, and a case. iPad is so amazing now for art and video and a ton of other stuff. It would be her computer. Plus she’ll have WIFI and she can stop paying an outrageous phone bill for unlimited Data. It will cost her half I’m sure. iPad has been on Sale and that sale is ending. I want a nice iPad Pro for me now!!!😬
Anyway I'm going to get one of those gift bags with the tissue paper and all that. I’m sure she’ll start crying. I’m not sure if I did it for her, or for me. In all this misery I can help someone else. It helps me.
Anyway talk soon
laters
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I went out last night to the electronics store. My sick friend just says in her apartment without much to do all of the time. She’s getting a new place under Section 8 Housing (free apartment) and if she has Section 8 she can get cable internet for $10 a month, I found out. So instead of her staring at her phone all the time I bought her a good 9.7 inch iPad, an Apple Pencil, and a case. iPad is so amazing now for art and video and a ton of other stuff. It would be her computer. Plus she’ll have WIFI and she can stop paying an outrageous phone bill for unlimited Data. It will cost her half I’m sure. iPad has been on Sale and that sale is ending. I want a nice iPad Pro for me now!!!😬
Anyway I'm going to get one of those gift bags with the tissue paper and all that. I’m sure she’ll start crying. I’m not sure if I did it for her, or for me. In all this misery I can help someone else. It helps me.
Anyway talk soon
laters
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