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Old 03-21-2019, 08:48 AM
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Anybody else finding their old insecurities coming back like a freight train? Like, I no longer can think "I acted weird in that conversation last night because I was tipsy" or "I talked too much because I had too much wine" or whatever. Nope, I talk a lot and say things that sometimes make people tilt their heads at me like "Are you ok?" Suddenly remembering all the times I felt like I talked too much as a kid as I was the last person to share in today's morning meeting and had to be reminded of the time and to wrap it up. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm a talker. Can I become less of a talker? I dunno. Should I? I dunno. Just feeling a bit foolish and marveling at how much I blamed on the drink when, nope, that's me.

If you need me I'll be hiding under my desk today.
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Old 03-21-2019, 11:11 AM
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Hahaha! pupper, that's funny!
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Old 03-21-2019, 06:51 PM
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I’m a talker too, pupper. Embrace it!

I went to a get together with a bunch of women from my son’s High school hockey team. We get together about once a year - sons are all 24-25 now. Anyway, wine has always been a part of the group. I drank water tonight. Nobody had more than two - I remember having three and wanting more in the past. Lot easier the way I did it tonight.
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Old 03-22-2019, 10:44 AM
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Apparently I talk people's ears off. Good times.
I can even see it in my posts here. I must bore people to death.
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Old 03-22-2019, 11:10 AM
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Lipstuck, I enjoy your posts. It's OK that we're talkers! FoieGras is in the talker club too, I love it.
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:26 PM
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Checking in on day 46! It's been a super busy few days. Whew. It looks like it's been slowww in our class this week. I hope that just means everyone is busy......not drinking. I often wonder where all the people that joined our class went?

Gonna catch up on the posts now!
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:31 PM
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Originally Posted by 360shoes View Post
Interesting to think about how alcohol made us feel when we first started drinking. That was a really long time ago. Uber interesting that I don't remember much except that.

I always could drink liquids fast. Still do. I can down a bottle of water like it's nothing. That didn't help. I always felt different. I'm not so sure that most people don't feel different from everyone else when they are young. Someone probably just forgot to tell me that. I still feel different. I just chalk that up to being introverted, semi-artistic, and sensitive. I can pretend to be outgoing and social but I am really not. I could live on Walden's pond and be perfectly happy if I could get away with it. As long as I have the internet.

Just plugging along here. Happy to not be drinking for sure.

Have a great day or night!
xoxo

I always felt different too and could live on a deserted as long as I have my kids and pets!
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:34 PM
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Originally Posted by Lipstuck View Post
I hope everyone is doing well this evening (or whatever time it is where you are!) Just checking in at... My app says 45 days! That's exciting!
I realized today that I feel good about my evenings now. I used to dread them because I knew I was going to drink, and then I dreaded them because I knew I couldn't drink. But lately, I haven't been thinking about the drinking at all, and it's lifted the doomy feelings. Sometimes I find myself realizing that I can be happy, and that I can process and deal with how I'm feeling when I'm not. I'm very grateful!
That's so great! I don't want to drink either. What a relief!!!
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:43 PM
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I hope so!

I wonder why being sick makes me want to drink. I mean I feel like crap with a bad sinus infection, and the CVS has all this stuff out on displays on the way to the pharmacy and yeah. The thoughts start. The stuff isn’t comfort food - geez. Of course ( 😊 ) I walked right by. Yay.

I’ve been invited out to a girls night Thursday with my old hockey-mom friends. Haven’t seen them since last summer. I think I’ll be ok (I was always good in public) and I wouldn’t be able to drink on the antibiotics and steroid anyway. But I will hone my sober skills between now and then because I really want to see them. They aren’t the types to urge wine on me if I stick to water.
How are you feeling now Fois? I woke up today with a sore throat and cough. Ugh.
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:45 PM
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Originally Posted by Lipstuck View Post
The struggle is real. I drop stuff CONSTANTLY and I found out this morning that I left my car keys on my trunk (they were frozen in place). The good news, the car was still there, which was shocking and unlikely.
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:48 PM
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Ha! A fellow AA'er walked into morning meeting today saying, "Did someone drop their subway pass on their way in this morning?" I checked my pocket. Yep. Me.
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:53 PM
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Originally Posted by trudgingagain View Post
I swear....these are NOT the "Golden Years"! If so, they are quite tarnished...lol...
Hahahahahahaha you guys are killing me!
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Old 03-22-2019, 02:59 PM
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Originally Posted by 360shoes View Post
33 days for me!! I made a month!! Alert the press!!!

I'm trying to think of all the things that have improved. I am not coming up with anything out of the ordinary. I still get depressed. I still have stress. I still feel a little lost BUT...I feel like just a normal person now. All of the above are just life and I do feel like I can handle life better without drinking so big plus on that one. No pink cloud for me. I think because this is round 3 on quitting for good I used up all my clouds. I just get the feeling of this is what I am supposed to do. Be a grown-up and handle life.

It just feels realistic to me now. This is how I have to live. Without alcohol. So suck it up and do it. I want to do it. I see it's better. I just am not feeling too giddy about it. Probably part of the depression so I just take what I can get. It's still better than it was.

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Congrats on a month 360! Don't worry no pink clouds for me either! I'm waiting though....

Do you go to AA? I can't remember...
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:01 PM
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But Addy, it's all TRUE...guess that's the sad part...lol. Just came back from getting my nails done (FINALLY) and I have a super busy week ahead. So, HAD to get them done today. Hubby thinks it's a "relaxing time"...I think it's a pain in the a**...lol....perception is an interesting thing!
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:04 PM
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AND Addy, as for being sick, making you want to drink, I drank through all of my colds, flu, et. so I WOULDN'T FEEL IT...and I didn't! It wasn't until I got sober (previously) that I felt the real symptoms...hang in there...they will pass....
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:08 PM
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Originally Posted by pupper View Post
Anybody else finding their old insecurities coming back like a freight train? Like, I no longer can think "I acted weird in that conversation last night because I was tipsy" or "I talked too much because I had too much wine" or whatever. Nope, I talk a lot and say things that sometimes make people tilt their heads at me like "Are you ok?" Suddenly remembering all the times I felt like I talked too much as a kid as I was the last person to share in today's morning meeting and had to be reminded of the time and to wrap it up. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'm a talker. Can I become less of a talker? I dunno. Should I? I dunno. Just feeling a bit foolish and marveling at how much I blamed on the drink when, nope, that's me.

If you need me I'll be hiding under my desk today.
I totally relate! I don't talk in meetings for.that very reason. I'd never stop. Lol. Just be yourself though. My sponsor always says things like:
"What other people think of you is none of your business".
"people aren't thinking about you as much as you think they are."

Those things help too. I think anxiety in early sobriety is very common. Mine has been BAD! I've been told it will get better the longer I'm sober.
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:10 PM
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Originally Posted by Lipstuck View Post
Apparently I talk people's ears off. Good times.
I can even see it in my posts here. I must bore people to death.


I love your posts!
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:12 PM
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Originally Posted by trudgingagain View Post
But Addy, it's all TRUE...guess that's the sad part...lol. Just came back from getting my nails done (FINALLY) and I have a super busy week ahead. So, HAD to get them done today. Hubby thinks it's a "relaxing time"...I think it's a pain in the a**...lol....perception is an interesting thing!
Lol I haven't had my nails done since my wedding!!! In 1997!
I just do my own nails now.
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Old 03-22-2019, 03:15 PM
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Originally Posted by trudgingagain View Post
AND Addy, as for being sick, making you want to drink, I drank through all of my colds, flu, et. so I WOULDN'T FEEL IT...and I didn't! It wasn't until I got sober (previously) that I felt the real symptoms...hang in there...they will pass....
It wasn't ME that said being sick makes me want to drink. Actually being sick makes me NOT want to.drink. Thank goodness!
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Old 03-22-2019, 05:25 PM
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Hi all. Checking in on day 54 for me. It seems so long yet so short at the same time. Still riding the waves of emotions & taking note of how they make me feel and why. One thing I’ve noticed lately is that I will randomly have at least one memory from childhood to 10 years ago that I had completely forgotten about. Good and bad. Just pop in my head. Out of nowhere. It’s like my brain has a flickering switch that’s just trying to work again! I know this is a good thing, but have to remind myself of that when the bad things pop in.
Good to hear most everyone is still doing well. I check here daily. I just don’t feel like I have much to offer most of the time. I am not a talker! Lol
Usually get the feeling that no one wants to hear what I have to say. That’s deep rooted & probably why I was a blabber mouth when drunk. Oye!
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