24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 434
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Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: UK
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Had the most vivid drinking dream last night. It was more than my usual drinking dreams, it was a dream relapse. I looked at bottles of wine in my dream and tried to fight my AV and then thought, '**** it' and drank. A lot naturally. And then I had a dream hangover and dream shame and self -hatred. Felt exhausted when I woke up. And so relieved that it was only a dream. And what's interesting is that I know exactly why my dream relapse happened. Last night I was confronted with my number 1 trigger and whilst I didn't drink and didn't even contemplate drinking, interesting that my subconscious reverted to my old ways of dealing with pain. Not going to go into details about the trigger.... Seems petty given everything that everyone else is going through... I just found the link between the trigger and my subconscious interesting. Today is day 850 for me and I am so happy to be continuing on this journey hangover free this morning.
More prayers for you and your family today Rainman. It's 2 years now since my dad died and I remember those enormous waves of grief. The waves are much smaller now but I know they will never leave me and in a strange way, I don't want them to leave me. In every cathedral and church we visited in Bruges, I lit a candle for my dad and I felt so strongly that he was seeing everything with me. Through my eyes. Our loved ones never really leave us.... They're always there, guiding us along our path.
Congrats to everyone celebrating a milestone today. 24 more for me please xxxx
More prayers for you and your family today Rainman. It's 2 years now since my dad died and I remember those enormous waves of grief. The waves are much smaller now but I know they will never leave me and in a strange way, I don't want them to leave me. In every cathedral and church we visited in Bruges, I lit a candle for my dad and I felt so strongly that he was seeing everything with me. Through my eyes. Our loved ones never really leave us.... They're always there, guiding us along our path.
Congrats to everyone celebrating a milestone today. 24 more for me please xxxx
Good morning all. Again I'm so sorry I'm struggling to post regularly. I'm stuck in a cage of anxiety and depression and it's really tough. I won't go on I just wanted you all to know I am safe and sober and think about you all every single day.
24 more please with lots of love ❤❤❤
24 more please with lots of love ❤❤❤
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Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: UK
Posts: 2,256
Oh Jo, I wish I knew the magic words to free you from that cage and cast that cage off into outer space where it can never harm anyone ever again. Just keep remembering that this will pass. ..... It might not seem like it right now but it will pass. And whilst you're remembering that, also remember how much you are loved. We love you very very much. Stay strong Jo Jo and lean on us xxxx
“Today is life – the only life you are sure of. Make the most of today.” – Dale Carnegie
5:55am in Alberta, I'll have another 24 please, and thanks...
Today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
5:55am in Alberta, I'll have another 24 please, and thanks...
Today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
Another 24 please.
Very sorry about your father Rainman.
And quite a drinking dream there Kenton. I hate being stuck in those but always feel relief to wake up and know it didn't happen.
Hope it's a peaceful weekend for all.
Very sorry about your father Rainman.
And quite a drinking dream there Kenton. I hate being stuck in those but always feel relief to wake up and know it didn't happen.
Hope it's a peaceful weekend for all.
Good morning all. Again I'm so sorry I'm struggling to post regularly. I'm stuck in a cage of anxiety and depression and it's really tough. I won't go on I just wanted you all to know I am safe and sober and think about you all every single day.
24 more please with lots of love ❤❤❤
24 more please with lots of love ❤❤❤
How can we help honey?
Please know we care and we are all here for you love. ❤❤
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