Class of February 2019 Support Thread Pt 1
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It’s very funny how when I drink I suddenly want to talk to Cousin Lou thrice removed and Susie who I went to second grade with.... but absolutely have no desire to when I’m sober! It’s crazy how hijacked our brains become. It is interesting though about how some are saying alcoholism is a social disease. Don’t know if you saw the Ted Talk about the opposite of addiction being connection. I think deep down I am very lonely and it took me awhile to accept I could not do this alone. I’m so glad we all can check in with each other here!
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Originally Posted by G00SEM00SE 
Joining the February class. Day 1 here. Feeling miserable. I want to drink but I also don’t at all. So conflicting 
just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
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[QUOTE. In some ways, we are all always on day 1. [/QUOTE]
Listae.......very true.
Canuck, good to read you posts......you really have come out the other side of it.
Read every morning here, just not posting much, apologies.
Day 18 starting.
Later....
Listae.......very true.
Canuck, good to read you posts......you really have come out the other side of it.
Read every morning here, just not posting much, apologies.
Day 18 starting.
Later....
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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Originally Posted by G00SEM00SE
Joining the February class. Day 1 here. Feeling miserable. I want to drink but I also don’t at all. So conflicting just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
Originally Posted by Hopeful528
I don't feel as bad as Day 1, but because of the amount I drank, and the stupid things I did I still feel absolutely terrible.
The anxiety is no longer constant but still there.
The anxiety is no longer constant but still there.
I like your name GOOSEMOOSE. Us geese have to stick together!
Off to bowling....
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Originally Posted by G00SEM00SE
Joining the February class. Day 1 here. Feeling miserable. I want to drink but I also don’t at all. So conflicting just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
just feeling really down that I can’t beat this. I’m going to stay close by here. Could use a hug.
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Originally Posted by Liveher
It’s very funny how when I drink I suddenly want to talk to Cousin Lou thrice removed and Susie who I went to second grade with.... but absolutely have no desire to when I’m sober! It’s crazy how hijacked our brains become. It is interesting though about how some are saying alcoholism is a social disease. Don’t know if you saw the Ted Talk about the opposite of addiction being connection. I think deep down I am very lonely and it took me awhile to accept I could not do this alone. I’m so glad we all can check in with each other here!
I agree with ALL of this Liveher! I swear you read my mind sometimes!
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Originally Posted by Hopeful528
I don't feel as bad as Day 1, but because of the amount I drank, and the stupid things I did I still feel absolutely terrible.
The anxiety is no longer constant but still there.
The anxiety is no longer constant but still there.
Ditto!!! It will get better. Let’s just keep the plug in the jug.
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Hey Listae & Canguy!
Goose...I totally know what you mean! Omg. When I was drinking YEARS went by like minutes! Now that I’m sober MINUTES seem like years. How annoying. I’m gonna keep trudging forward though! Not climbing this part of the mountain again! No way! These 9 days have been hard.
Goose...I totally know what you mean! Omg. When I was drinking YEARS went by like minutes! Now that I’m sober MINUTES seem like years. How annoying. I’m gonna keep trudging forward though! Not climbing this part of the mountain again! No way! These 9 days have been hard.
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Originally Posted by G00SEM00SE
Minutes drag on to what seems like foreverrrrrr on day 1.
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Originally Posted by Addy47
Morning everyone. Checking in on day 9. If I make it one more day I will be in double digits! I am promising myself I won’t drink today. I’m going to a meeting tonight so that should help.
Like my new Avatar? I’ve been trying to find one that seems to describe where I am in life & I think I’ve found it. It reminds me that sobriety is a journey. I’m walkimg towards the sunlight & happiness and away from darkness & pain. God is in that sunlight. Hope is in that sunlight. My sobriety tools are in the back pack. Also reminds me that although I don’t have to do this alone...it’s ultimately between me & God. I can only save “myself”. I’ve been waiting my entire life for someone to “save” me & no one did & no one is going to. Time to save myself. Pretty deep, huh? Lol
Have a good day everyone!
Yep LiveHer! I can’t control it either! I’m done too!
Like my new Avatar? I’ve been trying to find one that seems to describe where I am in life & I think I’ve found it. It reminds me that sobriety is a journey. I’m walkimg towards the sunlight & happiness and away from darkness & pain. God is in that sunlight. Hope is in that sunlight. My sobriety tools are in the back pack. Also reminds me that although I don’t have to do this alone...it’s ultimately between me & God. I can only save “myself”. I’ve been waiting my entire life for someone to “save” me & no one did & no one is going to. Time to save myself. Pretty deep, huh? Lol
Have a good day everyone!
Yep LiveHer! I can’t control it either! I’m done too!
I can TOTALLY relate to the thoughts about saving yourself and to stop waiting/expecting for everyone else to. I’m so there too. I had this big realization recently that I may never have learned how to self soothe in a healthy way or deal with healing myself within all my life and it occurred to me that I’m always looking for something (alcohol) or someone externally to heal me. I think many of us are not taught that because neither were our parents. Also, I think a lot of old unresolved child feelings in our subconscious come bubbling to the surface when we are struggling to stop and also when we’re in recovery. If we remember maybe that we’re learning to heal our own selves on this journey, we can maybe be more compassionate and patient when “it rears its ugly head”. I sure hope so.
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Originally Posted by Liveher
It is interesting though about how some are saying alcoholism is a social disease. Don’t know if you saw the Ted Talk about the opposite of addiction being connection. I think deep down I am very lonely and it took me awhile to accept I could not do this alone. I’m so glad we all can check in with each other here!
But, ultimately, I am only beginning to realize that drinking was the cause rather than the remedy for my loneliness. I haven't been to a meeting in years, although I want to go in some area different than where I live. I don't follow a particular program but try to learn from various approaches. However, just being connected on SR where you can be raw and honest but also anonymous, has lifted much of my desire to drink. So, yes, to "connection" rather than "addiction."
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