Class of May 2018 Part 4
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Hi everyone 
I’ve been a bit busy this week. I just caught up on all your posts! Congratulations on 11 months Guener It’s aMAYzing that we’re approaching a year soon... Wow. You guys are my rocks and I just want to say a big thankyou to you all 
It sounds like you had a pretty awful March Bumblebee. I’m glad things are better at home now. It’s really unsettling when things aren’t going well, and the AV uses it as an opportunity to sneak in. Well done for staying strong!
Free and Guener you are both so insightful. I really enjoy reading your posts and learning about ways to approach different situations. I think we’re all learning so much from being sober and being more self reflective. I’ve learnt a lot about myself in the last11 months. Being sober, and having to say goodbye to my parents has really changed me. I’m still figuring things out, but I feel like I’m finding a sense of purpose finally.
It’s great to see you John, and thanks for the congrats
Dee I hope your back isn’t too painful. Back pain can be so debilitating. I’ve been getting a lot of flare ups of my back pain recently and just started Bowen therapy. I’ve not tried it before. I’ll see how it goes. But I’m grateful that I can still do the things I want to do, so mine is only very mild compared with many others. I’m lucky and very grateful it’s not worse.
Hi to any other MAYers lurking out there
I’ve been a bit busy this week. I just caught up on all your posts! Congratulations on 11 months Guener It’s aMAYzing that we’re approaching a year soon... Wow. You guys are my rocks and I just want to say a big thankyou to you all It sounds like you had a pretty awful March Bumblebee. I’m glad things are better at home now. It’s really unsettling when things aren’t going well, and the AV uses it as an opportunity to sneak in. Well done for staying strong!
Free and Guener you are both so insightful. I really enjoy reading your posts and learning about ways to approach different situations. I think we’re all learning so much from being sober and being more self reflective. I’ve learnt a lot about myself in the last11 months. Being sober, and having to say goodbye to my parents has really changed me. I’m still figuring things out, but I feel like I’m finding a sense of purpose finally.
It’s great to see you John, and thanks for the congrats
Dee I hope your back isn’t too painful. Back pain can be so debilitating. I’ve been getting a lot of flare ups of my back pain recently and just started Bowen therapy. I’ve not tried it before. I’ll see how it goes. But I’m grateful that I can still do the things I want to do, so mine is only very mild compared with many others. I’m lucky and very grateful it’s not worse.
Hi to any other MAYers lurking out there
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I'm up tonight, the usual thing, but I'm eyeing one of my cats who I took in yesterday to be "fixed". She's obviously not very happy with me and looks uncomfortable, so I'm feeling for her. I'm sure that things will go back to being more social when she feels better, but it's rough to see her moving around so slowly. The little creatures really get to you.
I had a nice chat with one of my best friends online last night, and he was asking me if I was getting out to do anything these days. I answered that I was not socializing at all, and he encouraged me to at least try to do some things out of the apartment, not to be a recluse. He's right, that I'm being somewhat isolated, and that used to be a problem for me, but I'm feeling so cautious after new sobriety and losing my fiance. No dating for me for now is where I feel more comfortable, but I could at least do a few things.
When I woke up tonight I realized that I was having a drinking type of dream where I was traveling and in huge hotel suites filled with booze. I wasn't actually drinking in the dream but was viewing the alcohol like a kid looking in at candy in a store front. It was part of my old life, and I'm happy that I don't do those things now.
So, it's the middle of the week now, some things to get done before I have Friday off will keep me busy but not overtly stressed. I need to vacuum and dust, LOL, some mundane chores coming up will be fine, too. Just keeping it on, moving along.
I had a nice chat with one of my best friends online last night, and he was asking me if I was getting out to do anything these days. I answered that I was not socializing at all, and he encouraged me to at least try to do some things out of the apartment, not to be a recluse. He's right, that I'm being somewhat isolated, and that used to be a problem for me, but I'm feeling so cautious after new sobriety and losing my fiance. No dating for me for now is where I feel more comfortable, but I could at least do a few things.
When I woke up tonight I realized that I was having a drinking type of dream where I was traveling and in huge hotel suites filled with booze. I wasn't actually drinking in the dream but was viewing the alcohol like a kid looking in at candy in a store front. It was part of my old life, and I'm happy that I don't do those things now.
So, it's the middle of the week now, some things to get done before I have Friday off will keep me busy but not overtly stressed. I need to vacuum and dust, LOL, some mundane chores coming up will be fine, too. Just keeping it on, moving along.
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My patient is out and eating her first bits of food since she got back, so I'm happy with this development.
I left work early today, as I was tired and bored. Now boredom is something I should be enjoying! Maybe I just need a little extra down time to reset. Anyway, I have had some pleasure in being home early.
How to say how I am feeling is difficult. I'm not unsettled nor am I particularly calm. It may take some time to set back into old routines and to start some new activities.
It is supposed to be nice weather for the coming few days, so that will perhaps put me in a somewhat brighter perspective.
Be well tonight, today, tomorrow.
I left work early today, as I was tired and bored. Now boredom is something I should be enjoying! Maybe I just need a little extra down time to reset. Anyway, I have had some pleasure in being home early.
How to say how I am feeling is difficult. I'm not unsettled nor am I particularly calm. It may take some time to set back into old routines and to start some new activities.
It is supposed to be nice weather for the coming few days, so that will perhaps put me in a somewhat brighter perspective.
Be well tonight, today, tomorrow.
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Zoe is absolutely on the mend, more active each day and back to her affectionate self-demeanor. She's not up to chasing Jem around the apartment yet again or doing big jumps, but she thinks about those things, I can see. We'll see how number two goes next month.
Me, I'm just trying to figure out how I will be spending my day off today. Zoe just came up to visit by the computer with the look of, "You will stay here and nap with me ..." A quiet day of going to a coffee shop for some time-out, me-time might be a nice thing to do, too.
Me, I'm just trying to figure out how I will be spending my day off today. Zoe just came up to visit by the computer with the look of, "You will stay here and nap with me ..."
A quiet day of going to a coffee shop for some time-out, me-time might be a nice thing to do, too.
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Napping with a kitty and a wander out for a quiet coffee both sound lovely Guener
I have family staying. And drinking. I decided to drink some non-alcoholic wine as the temptation to drink was there but I wasn’t going to drink. Cups of tea just weren’t cutting it though. Now I’m off to bed leaving my partner to drink with my family while I go to sleep. Not my favourite scenario but I don’t see any alternative right now. I just didn’t feel up to staying up with them... I feel a bit unsettled and anxious, and a bit down. But I’ll be ok. Tomorrow is a new day
I have family staying. And drinking. I decided to drink some non-alcoholic wine as the temptation to drink was there but I wasn’t going to drink. Cups of tea just weren’t cutting it though. Now I’m off to bed leaving my partner to drink with my family while I go to sleep. Not my favourite scenario but I don’t see any alternative right now. I just didn’t feel up to staying up with them... I feel a bit unsettled and anxious, and a bit down. But I’ll be ok. Tomorrow is a new day
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Sorry to hear that Willow, I couldn't cope with family drinking in my home. I can't even cope with them drinking in their own homes when I'm present!
I hope the anxiety clears a bit and that you feel better soon.
Take care
I hope the anxiety clears a bit and that you feel better soon.
Take care
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Thanks John and Guener. Yes it’s not my favourite scenario.... but I don’t want to restrict what other people do just because I am choosing not to drink. I would much rather not be around drinking, especially in my home, but it’s the people closest to me. I don’t feel I can really enforce a no alcohol rule on others. I survived. I did get to sleep thankfully, and my partner came to bed an hour after me, so at least they weren’t up all night drinking I don’t have a hangover today, but I suspect a couple of others do... and today is another day
I don’t have a hangover today, but I suspect a couple of others do... and today is another day
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I understand you not wanting to impose your sobriety on others Willow.
I do tho - noone drinks at my place. Means less socialising but less to clean up too - I just go to other peoples places
Not having a go, but I feel more comfortable doing that than drinking NA stuff trying to fit in or shut the AV up.
I broke my back trying to fit in as a younger person. I realise I don't need to do that now. My real friends and family love me as I am
There's no comeback the AV can give to that
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I do tho - noone drinks at my place. Means less socialising but less to clean up too - I just go to other peoples places
Not having a go, but I feel more comfortable doing that than drinking NA stuff trying to fit in or shut the AV up.
I broke my back trying to fit in as a younger person. I realise I don't need to do that now. My real friends and family love me as I am
There's no comeback the AV can give to that
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we continue here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-5-a.html (Class of May 2018 Part 5)
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https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-5-a.html (Class of May 2018 Part 5)
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