Class of August 2018 Part 8
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Originally Posted by Bekindalways 
Ayers, you paint a vivid picture. Perhaps because of your avatar, I'm imagining lots of green. Enjoy!
David, thanks for checking in. I hope your new job is going well.
I kinda fell into a slump this afternoon. Got myself out to pickup something at the store and that helped. I can crave wine at moments like that as it would take the edge off but of course, not good in the long run. It was knowing I was medicating these down moments that always made me question my drinking and eventually brought me here to you all. Depression and drinking = bad bad habit.
I did manage to do some family friend communication which I had been putting off. Also redecorated my bedroom by picking up some piles that had become semi-permanent . . . . so that is all the news from me closing up Thursday here in the Rocky Mountains . . . . may you all on the leading edge of the planet's time zones, do well as you head into Friday.
David, thanks for checking in. I hope your new job is going well.
I kinda fell into a slump this afternoon. Got myself out to pickup something at the store and that helped. I can crave wine at moments like that as it would take the edge off but of course, not good in the long run. It was knowing I was medicating these down moments that always made me question my drinking and eventually brought me here to you all. Depression and drinking = bad bad habit.
I did manage to do some family friend communication which I had been putting off. Also redecorated my bedroom by picking up some piles that had become semi-permanent . . . . so that is all the news from me closing up Thursday here in the Rocky Mountains . . . . may you all on the leading edge of the planet's time zones, do well as you head into Friday.
thanks for asking but the new job was absolutely terrible and is now my old job. I was there for 3 weeks and it was not a good experience. I don’t think I’m cut out for working for other people any more. I need to do something for myself.
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Evening all,
Just had the news from my parents and finally my Mum is opening up and talking to me but unfortunately it's bad news...
Cancer, squamous cell carcinoma in his throat. I had a real gut feeling it was cancer but my Mum and Dad were in denial and adamant it wasn't so they're in such shock. He has to wait to hear next week about pretty much immediate surgery to try to remove it.
I have no temptation what so ever to drink, if anything this is keeping me even stronger in that area. I know I can't drink, I'll kill myself and it would destroy my parents. Time to be strong and supportive. I don't think I'll sleep much tonight, just feel a bit numb really but holding it together so I can be as much support to them as I can.
Also the Doctors called me today, I have a raised blood platelet or something, don't really understand it but hoping it's normal after the pancreatitis, bloods to be re done in Jan so fingers crossed they're back to normal. Want to be healthy now so I can be on the ball and helping my parents out.
Katy
Just had the news from my parents and finally my Mum is opening up and talking to me but unfortunately it's bad news...
Cancer, squamous cell carcinoma in his throat. I had a real gut feeling it was cancer but my Mum and Dad were in denial and adamant it wasn't so they're in such shock. He has to wait to hear next week about pretty much immediate surgery to try to remove it.
I have no temptation what so ever to drink, if anything this is keeping me even stronger in that area. I know I can't drink, I'll kill myself and it would destroy my parents. Time to be strong and supportive. I don't think I'll sleep much tonight, just feel a bit numb really but holding it together so I can be as much support to them as I can.
Also the Doctors called me today, I have a raised blood platelet or something, don't really understand it but hoping it's normal after the pancreatitis, bloods to be re done in Jan so fingers crossed they're back to normal. Want to be healthy now so I can be on the ball and helping my parents out.
Katy
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Sorry to hear about your Dad Kit. A family friend of mine had throat cancer......twenty years ago. She is absolutely fine now. Many, many people recover completely with treatment.
Please make sure to look after yourself. You have had a terrible few weeks and my heart goes out to you. You can get through this....and be so much stronger for it.
Please make sure to look after yourself. You have had a terrible few weeks and my heart goes out to you. You can get through this....and be so much stronger for it.
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Darkling - Thank you! Very reassuring to know that.
Off to bed for an early night, herbal tea, candles on and try to relax and get some sleep. Hoping to se my parents tomorrow so want to be as on form as possible.
Thanks again.
I'll be checking in again with my morning coffee.
Katy
Off to bed for an early night, herbal tea, candles on and try to relax and get some sleep. Hoping to se my parents tomorrow so want to be as on form as possible.
Thanks again.
I'll be checking in again with my morning coffee.
Katy
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Checking in.
Went to Employee Health about my shoulder. They are the ones who administered the vaccine improperly. They told me that since I wasn’t injured performing my duties, they would have to write a letter to their insurance company to see if they could treat me!!!!! What??????? A flu shot is mandatory in healthcare! I was given a number to call the CDC and file a claim for damages......apparently, there’s a program for SIRVA (shoulder injury related to vaccine administration). I got no treatment, no NSAID, no MRI. The doctor said it could last months to years or become chronic!!! So, I guess I’ll have to find my own doctor and sue the hospital if I need disability or ongoing treatment. How will that affect my employment? Good thing I have lawyers in the family....I might need one.
Kit so sorry about your troubles. I’m having family issues too. It’s painful and aggravating as hell, but I always manage it better sober.
Glad you’re enjoying your vacation Ayers
Bob, hope you’re plumbing problems get fixed soon...sounds awful.
Best wishes to Zoey, Bekind, Quit, David, Barbs
Went to Employee Health about my shoulder. They are the ones who administered the vaccine improperly. They told me that since I wasn’t injured performing my duties, they would have to write a letter to their insurance company to see if they could treat me!!!!! What??????? A flu shot is mandatory in healthcare! I was given a number to call the CDC and file a claim for damages......apparently, there’s a program for SIRVA (shoulder injury related to vaccine administration). I got no treatment, no NSAID, no MRI. The doctor said it could last months to years or become chronic!!! So, I guess I’ll have to find my own doctor and sue the hospital if I need disability or ongoing treatment. How will that affect my employment? Good thing I have lawyers in the family....I might need one.
Kit so sorry about your troubles. I’m having family issues too. It’s painful and aggravating as hell, but I always manage it better sober.
Glad you’re enjoying your vacation Ayers
Bob, hope you’re plumbing problems get fixed soon...sounds awful.
Best wishes to Zoey, Bekind, Quit, David, Barbs
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Good grief Matrac. That is just horridly ridiculous. It makes me head spin. Ugh.
Man oh man, we seem to have a string of yuck realities going on today. Kit, Barb, Matrac and Bob, you all just hang tough and keep making it through the days. Staying sober might be the absolutely the best thing you can do in the situation.
David, kinda glad to hear you got out of that job. It sounds wretched.
I had a better day. Had more to do today which helps. Cleaner came today. I did a supply run for the house and took the kids to a pizza party at church.
Man oh man, we seem to have a string of yuck realities going on today. Kit, Barb, Matrac and Bob, you all just hang tough and keep making it through the days. Staying sober might be the absolutely the best thing you can do in the situation.
David, kinda glad to hear you got out of that job. It sounds wretched.
I had a better day. Had more to do today which helps. Cleaner came today. I did a supply run for the house and took the kids to a pizza party at church.
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Morning,
6:28am as I'm typing this, went to bed around 11pm and been up since 2:40am.
I always have a bad sleeping pattern for a month or so after going sober but with my Dads results last night it's alot worse. I had boiled eggs, tea and orange juice at 4am. My boyfriends up with me now so not sat alone, pottering around with the TV in the background and laptop infront of me...
The weathers bad today, lot's of freezing rain so we won't get out walking too far, a short walk this morning will do with my dog.
I'm hoping my parents come over today but I'm not too sure, speaking with them in a few hours to see how they are and plans etc. Hoping to include a nap or two at some point, feeling exhausted but just can't settle.
Just want my Dad well enough for them to come to me Xmas day, want to have that quality time with them and make it special for my Dad.
Hope your shoulder heals soon and you get the answers / support you rightly deserve Matrac
Ayres Hope you enjoy your last day and look forward to reading more of your posts.
I'm the same as you David with regards to working for someone else. I've been self employed for some time now and although it's made things real tough with all my hospital visits and missed work days / weeks / months with the alcoholism, I still stick to my guns and remain working for myself.
Day 22 for me today and no matter what I'm staying sober this time, I've said this time and time again but I do genuinely feel different this time around, also it's like it was meant to be, me getting the pancreatitis and liver and kidney results being abnormal to frighten me so much to stop and right before my Dad gets these results. If I was still drinking as I was I'd be a complete mess and no use to them at all and end up regretting it for the rest of my life, being sober I can support them and be part of it all.
Much Love and Strength!
Katy
6:28am as I'm typing this, went to bed around 11pm and been up since 2:40am.
I always have a bad sleeping pattern for a month or so after going sober but with my Dads results last night it's alot worse. I had boiled eggs, tea and orange juice at 4am. My boyfriends up with me now so not sat alone, pottering around with the TV in the background and laptop infront of me...
The weathers bad today, lot's of freezing rain so we won't get out walking too far, a short walk this morning will do with my dog.
I'm hoping my parents come over today but I'm not too sure, speaking with them in a few hours to see how they are and plans etc. Hoping to include a nap or two at some point, feeling exhausted but just can't settle.
Just want my Dad well enough for them to come to me Xmas day, want to have that quality time with them and make it special for my Dad.
Hope your shoulder heals soon and you get the answers / support you rightly deserve Matrac
Ayres Hope you enjoy your last day and look forward to reading more of your posts.
I'm the same as you David with regards to working for someone else. I've been self employed for some time now and although it's made things real tough with all my hospital visits and missed work days / weeks / months with the alcoholism, I still stick to my guns and remain working for myself.
Day 22 for me today and no matter what I'm staying sober this time, I've said this time and time again but I do genuinely feel different this time around, also it's like it was meant to be, me getting the pancreatitis and liver and kidney results being abnormal to frighten me so much to stop and right before my Dad gets these results. If I was still drinking as I was I'd be a complete mess and no use to them at all and end up regretting it for the rest of my life, being sober I can support them and be part of it all.
Much Love and Strength!
Katy
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Alice, I know that dream was very serious for you, but it made me smile. I love that you were the sober one, and fretting over role models! I'm told that drinking dreams are very common during recovery, although I've never had one.
David, I hope you find the right job that feeds your soul (and your wallet).
Oh Ayers, your vacation sounds like heaven. Sorry it has to end!
I have a string of parties coming up, so I'm making my plan and getting focused on not drinking. Parties usually aren't my problem … it's being home alone, no one around for accountability, no plan, usually tired. That's when I need a better plan. Something I need to think more about.
I'm also thinking about everyone who is struggling today, with family and health issues. Tough time for Augustonians. But we're all happy to listen and I hope YOU know we're here for you!
Alice, I know that dream was very serious for you, but it made me smile. I love that you were the sober one, and fretting over role models! I'm told that drinking dreams are very common during recovery, although I've never had one.
David, I hope you find the right job that feeds your soul (and your wallet).
Oh Ayers, your vacation sounds like heaven. Sorry it has to end!
I have a string of parties coming up, so I'm making my plan and getting focused on not drinking. Parties usually aren't my problem … it's being home alone, no one around for accountability, no plan, usually tired. That's when I need a better plan. Something I need to think more about.
I'm also thinking about everyone who is struggling today, with family and health issues. Tough time for Augustonians. But we're all happy to listen and I hope YOU know we're here for you!
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Kit, sounds like you’re really on the right track....I’m glad and I hope you will have that special holiday with your dad.
David. I used to supervise all of the clinical areas in the 500 bed hospital where I work. There was no one in the building at a higher level. My backup was vie phone. Needless to say, I have strong ideas about the way I think things should be. The job I have now is very different and I often am upset about the way my dept is mismanaged. However, I am responsible for a caseload and no one else interferes so I guess that’s how I tolerate it. As I age I find I have less patience for stupidity and carelessness.
Zoey, I too worried about alone time. To remedy that, I would quickly do my chores at home and then get out of the house to run errands or visit. Nowadays it’s easier. I hope it will be for you too.
Shoulder is getting a little better with prescription strength Motrin....looking for a shoulder specialist.
Check in tomorrow after lunch with mom
David. I used to supervise all of the clinical areas in the 500 bed hospital where I work. There was no one in the building at a higher level. My backup was vie phone. Needless to say, I have strong ideas about the way I think things should be. The job I have now is very different and I often am upset about the way my dept is mismanaged. However, I am responsible for a caseload and no one else interferes so I guess that’s how I tolerate it. As I age I find I have less patience for stupidity and carelessness.
Zoey, I too worried about alone time. To remedy that, I would quickly do my chores at home and then get out of the house to run errands or visit. Nowadays it’s easier. I hope it will be for you too.
Shoulder is getting a little better with prescription strength Motrin....looking for a shoulder specialist.
Check in tomorrow after lunch with mom
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Hope everyone made it through the day okay.
I dragged the family living in the house up into the mountains to get a Christmas tree. For some strange reason, it is one of my favorite things to do. They all seemed to enjoy it too. We did find a small pretty tree. It was up a steep slope and the kids hiked, crawled, swam through the snow to get to it. We have had a good amount of snow so all the trees held lovely soft lumps of snow.
Tomorrow renters come so I will have a mad scramble to get the house all spiffed up for them.
Hey ho, may you all be well.
I dragged the family living in the house up into the mountains to get a Christmas tree. For some strange reason, it is one of my favorite things to do. They all seemed to enjoy it too. We did find a small pretty tree. It was up a steep slope and the kids hiked, crawled, swam through the snow to get to it. We have had a good amount of snow so all the trees held lovely soft lumps of snow.
Tomorrow renters come so I will have a mad scramble to get the house all spiffed up for them.
Hey ho, may you all be well.
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Kit, I'm so sorry about your dad. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Bonnie, how awful about your shoulder. I hope it will heal up soon.
David, sorry the job didn't work out but better to get out early on before things got worse. Hope the right one comes along soon.
Well, I think this is going to be a pajama day for me. Have no motivation to do a thing. Been binging out on sugar too, ugh. At least I'm sober
Bonnie, how awful about your shoulder. I hope it will heal up soon.
David, sorry the job didn't work out but better to get out early on before things got worse. Hope the right one comes along soon.
Well, I think this is going to be a pajama day for me. Have no motivation to do a thing. Been binging out on sugar too, ugh. At least I'm sober
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Afternoon all,
ZoeyDog I'm with you on the whole needing a plan for when you're sat around, at home or tired but doing nothing. I'm the same! Keep trying to make lists each day with a few chores to get done to keep me busy.
Matrac Hope you had a nice lunch with your Mum.
BeKind Love the post about the family heading up the mountains for a Xmas Tree Sounds lovely!
Barbs Thank you for putting us in your prayers! Means a lot. I'm the same today, I was up and out early this morning but now it's 4:25pm and I'm in my PJ's too, my Boyfriend is out watching the football so I'm enjoying some chill time warm and cosy at home with my dog. Sat drinking herbal teas and just pottering around.
Well I was up around 6am this morning, went to a car boot sale at 9am. I got a lovely scarf for my Mum to include with her xmas prezzies, it was brand new unopened and only £1.50. Love a good bargain!
After this I walked my dog then headed over to my boyfriends Mums house in a town not far from where we are. She has a brain tumour so we're getting over as much as we can, things aren't so good, she's been given around 18months to live. So scary how many people are affected with things like this. His Mum has this and my Dad just got the cancer diagnosis too. Very scary indeed and makes you put things into perspective! Everyday counts so why waste it poisoning ourselves with drink.
I'm also binging on far too much sugar, eaten tons of sweets then came up with the bright idea of pie, chips, peas and gravy when we came back, think I over did it, feel a serious food coma coming on haha.
I keep craving certain foods and can't stop eating them, going mad for watermelon and goats cheese, eating tons of it in the evening. Having a lot of healthy things and herbal teas but mixed up with far too much sugar too. I might get some chromium from the health food shop, tried it before and it worked wonders, it stops the sugar cravings!
Not much else to ramble on about really, still sober so I'm happy!
Just playing the waiting game now to hear of my Dads op date. We want it ASAP so he can hopefully be back home and ok to enjoy a nice Xmas.
Hope I'm not babbling on rubbish, very heavy eyes typing this after my over indulgent dinner
Much Love group
Katy
ZoeyDog I'm with you on the whole needing a plan for when you're sat around, at home or tired but doing nothing. I'm the same! Keep trying to make lists each day with a few chores to get done to keep me busy.
Matrac Hope you had a nice lunch with your Mum.
BeKind Love the post about the family heading up the mountains for a Xmas Tree
Sounds lovely! Barbs Thank you for putting us in your prayers! Means a lot. I'm the same today, I was up and out early this morning but now it's 4:25pm and I'm in my PJ's too, my Boyfriend is out watching the football so I'm enjoying some chill time warm and cosy at home with my dog. Sat drinking herbal teas and just pottering around.
Well I was up around 6am this morning, went to a car boot sale at 9am. I got a lovely scarf for my Mum to include with her xmas prezzies, it was brand new unopened and only £1.50. Love a good bargain!
After this I walked my dog then headed over to my boyfriends Mums house in a town not far from where we are. She has a brain tumour so we're getting over as much as we can, things aren't so good, she's been given around 18months to live. So scary how many people are affected with things like this. His Mum has this and my Dad just got the cancer diagnosis too. Very scary indeed and makes you put things into perspective! Everyday counts so why waste it poisoning ourselves with drink.
I'm also binging on far too much sugar, eaten tons of sweets then came up with the bright idea of pie, chips, peas and gravy when we came back, think I over did it, feel a serious food coma coming on haha.
I keep craving certain foods and can't stop eating them, going mad for watermelon and goats cheese, eating tons of it in the evening. Having a lot of healthy things and herbal teas but mixed up with far too much sugar too. I might get some chromium from the health food shop, tried it before and it worked wonders, it stops the sugar cravings!
Not much else to ramble on about really, still sober so I'm happy!
Just playing the waiting game now to hear of my Dads op date. We want it ASAP so he can hopefully be back home and ok to enjoy a nice Xmas.
Hope I'm not babbling on rubbish, very heavy eyes typing this after my over indulgent dinner
Much Love group
Katy
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So happy to see all your posts today. This (SR) is the one place I don't feel so lonely.
So many here have worries and stressors but are marching on in recovery....it feels heroic in its own way.
I have had a tough few days with my mind again. I don't have any real things to worry about at the moment so it seems my mind likes to make them up...just in case I might have some peace!
I remember last time I was at this stage in a quit, I was an absolute mess. Fear leading to physical symptoms leading to more fear. I know this, yet a small part of me still thinks I have a terminal illness. It is so hard to shake. I have resolved to go to the doctor after Christmas to get a health check if this doesn't ease up. It is wearing me down.
I am so glad to be sober though. I am beginning to believe I can stay sober over Christmas. This time I really want to.
So many here have worries and stressors but are marching on in recovery....it feels heroic in its own way.
I have had a tough few days with my mind again. I don't have any real things to worry about at the moment so it seems my mind likes to make them up...just in case I might have some peace!
I remember last time I was at this stage in a quit, I was an absolute mess. Fear leading to physical symptoms leading to more fear. I know this, yet a small part of me still thinks I have a terminal illness. It is so hard to shake. I have resolved to go to the doctor after Christmas to get a health check if this doesn't ease up. It is wearing me down.
I am so glad to be sober though. I am beginning to believe I can stay sober over Christmas. This time I really want to.
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Hi all
Last evening of holiday . Packed , ready to leave at 7 am tomorrow for airport . Very sad that it has come to and end . Had some really great moments with my family . We had the best veggie curry tonight at an authentic Indian restaurant on the beach . We leave our little villa gate , on to the beach and walk a couple of meters - probably 200 or 300 to the restaurant. Sigh ... Will miss it , but time for home now , I miss my doggies and anxious to see what's happened in my garden and veggie patch.
Kit, I am sorry about your Dad's results . Not a good time to be dealing with such upsetting things , so all the more proud of you for hanging in there and staying strong. And your boyfriend's mom too ! So sad. Thinking of you . I get the feeling when reading your posts that you are resolute and strong about it this time - that is comforting - I am rooting for you, go for it!
Matrac , can't believe the story about your shoulder . I would take it further or sue their pants off . Anyhow , hope you aren't suffering too much pain.
Be kind , lovely image in my mind , imagining you and the kids cutting down an Xmas tree .Sound like a scene from a movie. Such a contrast to the verdant green where I am now . I love how I have contact with all of you from all around the globe , all in different seasons ....
Bob , glad your plumbing problem was sorted out pronto - shame , you sound a little low on energy . Hope you are up and at it soon with a good fighting spirit )Nothing wears me down more than those types of problems . We have a saying in Afrikaans , which when translated says: It is the small /baby jackals that destroy the vineyard. Doesn't sound so great in English ...
Was thinking of Red and Karen today. I know Karen said she was joining another class , but Red .... Where are you? Missing you
Barbs - mmm - also having probs with the sugar! But I know lots of people experience the craving for sugar when quitting . I'll deal with that in the very near future , but not right now . Not even going to feel guilty about it.
Zoey , I can relate to what you said about when being on your own . Me too , same problem . I also try and get out of the house if I can when the urge strikes because my best was drinking alone ! Sounds so pathetic now while I'm writing this.
Dave , hope you are happier now in your new job . Are you working for yourself now ? Self employed people have the best bosses !
Hugs to you all , will write again from home xxxxxxx
Last evening of holiday . Packed , ready to leave at 7 am tomorrow for airport . Very sad that it has come to and end . Had some really great moments with my family . We had the best veggie curry tonight at an authentic Indian restaurant on the beach . We leave our little villa gate , on to the beach and walk a couple of meters - probably 200 or 300 to the restaurant. Sigh ... Will miss it , but time for home now , I miss my doggies and anxious to see what's happened in my garden and veggie patch.
Kit, I am sorry about your Dad's results . Not a good time to be dealing with such upsetting things , so all the more proud of you for hanging in there and staying strong. And your boyfriend's mom too ! So sad. Thinking of you . I get the feeling when reading your posts that you are resolute and strong about it this time - that is comforting - I am rooting for you, go for it!
Matrac , can't believe the story about your shoulder . I would take it further or sue their pants off . Anyhow , hope you aren't suffering too much pain.
Be kind , lovely image in my mind , imagining you and the kids cutting down an Xmas tree .Sound like a scene from a movie. Such a contrast to the verdant green where I am now . I love how I have contact with all of you from all around the globe , all in different seasons ....
Bob , glad your plumbing problem was sorted out pronto - shame , you sound a little low on energy . Hope you are up and at it soon with a good fighting spirit )Nothing wears me down more than those types of problems . We have a saying in Afrikaans , which when translated says: It is the small /baby jackals that destroy the vineyard. Doesn't sound so great in English ...
Was thinking of Red and Karen today. I know Karen said she was joining another class , but Red .... Where are you? Missing you
Barbs - mmm - also having probs with the sugar! But I know lots of people experience the craving for sugar when quitting . I'll deal with that in the very near future , but not right now . Not even going to feel guilty about it.
Zoey , I can relate to what you said about when being on your own . Me too , same problem . I also try and get out of the house if I can when the urge strikes because my best was drinking alone ! Sounds so pathetic now while I'm writing this.
Dave , hope you are happier now in your new job . Are you working for yourself now ? Self employed people have the best bosses !
Hugs to you all , will write again from home xxxxxxx
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Great post again Ayers and glad you pick up me feeling strong with this right now as I really am.
Although I do struggle with the anxiety like you Darkling. One minute I'm fine then I can be frantic or in floods of tears. Mine also is usually health related anxiety, I feel convinced I'm fading away and have no choice but to sit down still but very tense and try to breath... I detest these episodes and end up really drained and frustrated. I'm convincing myself they will pass in time if I remain sober and build up my level of exercise.
Meditating is a good shout Ayers There's a buddhist temple here where I live, it's right on the bay and woodlands, very nice and calming place so I might try and get there this week, thanks for reminding me of that. Meditating and exercising sound good. Desperate to start Yoga still but not quite confident enough yet to face a class. It will be in the New Year when I'm more together again.
Right early night for me again, it's 9:25pm, chamomile tea and lemon and then hopefully I'll drift off.
Night all.
Much Love.
Katy
Although I do struggle with the anxiety like you Darkling. One minute I'm fine then I can be frantic or in floods of tears. Mine also is usually health related anxiety, I feel convinced I'm fading away and have no choice but to sit down still but very tense and try to breath... I detest these episodes and end up really drained and frustrated. I'm convincing myself they will pass in time if I remain sober and build up my level of exercise.
Meditating is a good shout Ayers There's a buddhist temple here where I live, it's right on the bay and woodlands, very nice and calming place so I might try and get there this week, thanks for reminding me of that. Meditating and exercising sound good. Desperate to start Yoga still but not quite confident enough yet to face a class. It will be in the New Year when I'm more together again.
Right early night for me again, it's 9:25pm, chamomile tea and lemon and then hopefully I'll drift off.
Night all.
Much Love.
Katy
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Morning all from a chilly England,
I've just been sorting through the dreaded bills and paperwork at my dining table, been up since 5:30am, it's 9:45am as I'm typing this. Made a few calls etc. Had a couple of coffees and some eggs for breakfast, now drinking a herbal tea then a little housework then a walk out with my dog.
One of my closest friends is pregnant and having some troubles so I'm going to her midwife appointment with her this afternoon then a coffee at her parents house.
Feeling bored really, I'm out of work signed off for now so everyday is a bit boring, trying to keep busy but still struggling with tiredness. I'm taking Thiamine I left the hospital with along with a strong B Complex but I'm still so drained all the time. I'm assuming this will pass soon, looking back when Ive stopped before I remember tiredness being a huge factor in it.
Anyway thinking of each of you and send strength and peace!
Much Love.
Katy x
I've just been sorting through the dreaded bills and paperwork at my dining table, been up since 5:30am, it's 9:45am as I'm typing this. Made a few calls etc. Had a couple of coffees and some eggs for breakfast, now drinking a herbal tea then a little housework then a walk out with my dog.
One of my closest friends is pregnant and having some troubles so I'm going to her midwife appointment with her this afternoon then a coffee at her parents house.
Feeling bored really, I'm out of work signed off for now so everyday is a bit boring, trying to keep busy but still struggling with tiredness. I'm taking Thiamine I left the hospital with along with a strong B Complex but I'm still so drained all the time. I'm assuming this will pass soon, looking back when Ive stopped before I remember tiredness being a huge factor in it.
Anyway thinking of each of you and send strength and peace!
Much Love.
Katy x
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Good morning all.
Kit, the tiredness was huge for me too the first time quit. I found adding a little yoga actually helped a bit. Hope it passes soon and then maybe you can enjoy the time off a bit more
Bob, how's it going? Hope you had a restful weekend once the plumbing problems were fixed.
Ayers, hope you made it home safely.
Bekind, it also made me smile picturing you and the family hiking up the mountain and cutting down a Christmas tree. Sounds like a lot of fun
Darkling, so sorry you are struggling with the anxiety. I suffer from it as well. More general anxiety than worry over health. I can't seem to focus enough to actually know what it's over, just a million thoughts/tasks go through my mind and I can't focus long enough to address any one of them. The meds I'm on have help a lot. Hope you feel better soon, thinking of you.
I went to spin class this morning and heading to work soon. I think I'm feeling a bit better this morning. Can't wallow in self-pity forever...
Thinking of you all and hope everyone has a great day/evening
Kit, the tiredness was huge for me too the first time quit. I found adding a little yoga actually helped a bit. Hope it passes soon and then maybe you can enjoy the time off a bit more
Bob, how's it going? Hope you had a restful weekend once the plumbing problems were fixed.
Ayers, hope you made it home safely.
Bekind, it also made me smile picturing you and the family hiking up the mountain and cutting down a Christmas tree. Sounds like a lot of fun
Darkling, so sorry you are struggling with the anxiety. I suffer from it as well. More general anxiety than worry over health. I can't seem to focus enough to actually know what it's over, just a million thoughts/tasks go through my mind and I can't focus long enough to address any one of them. The meds I'm on have help a lot. Hope you feel better soon, thinking of you.
I went to spin class this morning and heading to work soon. I think I'm feeling a bit better this morning. Can't wallow in self-pity forever...
Thinking of you all and hope everyone has a great day/evening
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