Class of December 2018 Part 1
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Join Date: Oct 2017
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Sober this night
Trying to figure out a way forward. Been here before. Why is it so hard?? I need to change my life. Can’t think beyond tonight. Glad to see some familiar names from last December. I plan to stick around here. I have a doctors appointment friday- I might see if the doc has any recommendations for treatment. Maybe that’s overkill. I dunno. I had almost 3 months earlier this year. I know I can do it.
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Join Date: Nov 2018
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I joined clss of Novenber on the 29tth so feel a bit of a fraud there. So I'd like to join the class of December, be more a part of things. December will be a hard month for me, especially as I am just starting out so the support here will be invaluable. Thanks for having me.
Phil.
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Welcome Phil
People say December is a hard month to quit but really any month is when you drink like we do/did....it's all about making different choices for different outcomes.
You're in the drivers seat, and you have the power - not your addiction
support helps a lot, and you'll find that here
D
People say December is a hard month to quit but really any month is when you drink like we do/did....it's all about making different choices for different outcomes.
You're in the drivers seat, and you have the power - not your addiction
support helps a lot, and you'll find that here
D
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I've cancelled going to see Def Leppard tonight with friends as I know it will be more about the beer than the music. I cancelled going to my work Christmas party as that is dinner followed by a free bar for several hours. I am way too early in this to try to get through something like that so avoidance is my only option for now.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
welcome Cando Otterisland, SpringIsSprung, Orderfororder and Tinkerbeau
have you got a sobriety plan for tonight orderfororder?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...val-guide.html (Social Occasion Survival Guide)
great to see you ChloeRose and RAL
D
have you got a sobriety plan for tonight orderfororder?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...val-guide.html (Social Occasion Survival Guide)
great to see you ChloeRose and RAL
D
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Originally Posted by Phil71els
I've cancelled going to see Def Leppard tonight with friends as I know it will be more about the beer than the music. I cancelled going to my work Christmas party as that is dinner followed by a free bar for several hours. I am way too early in this to try to get through something like that so avoidance is my only option for now.
Sitting a few rounds out is nothing in the grand scheme. And you are likely better off using that time to reconnect with yourself and figure out what a sober you really likes to do.
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Checking in on day 2
Hi guys,
Todays is day 2. I don’t really think yesterday should count though, since I made myself so sick the night before that I barely got off the couch. We had a big earthquake here Friday that was terrifying. I was at work at the time, and everyone evacuated. Roads were clogged, damage to some roads trying to get home. My apartment was a disaster- broken glass and dishes, plant pots broken, debris everywhere, and all the furniture shoved around. My husband is out of state. I cleaned up- luckily no major damage. My neighbors decided to celebrate surviving the great earthquake of 2018. I got it done. There’s still vomit on the bathroom floor. Still having aftershocks. I’m hoping the earthquake shook me up enough to change my life?
I need help. I end up here too often. I feel like I’m hopeless. I look back at who I used to be and what I used to value and I’m ashamed of myself. I have too many good things in my life to feel like I don’t want to continue. I’m going to find a counselor. I know what will make me feel better but I don’t want to do it. Exercise, meditation, healthy eating, taking care of everyday chores that need to be done. Why don’t I have the motivation?? I do the bare minimum and go to work everyday. But that’s it. Since the earthquake Friday, I haven’t left my house. I’ve been laying on my couch by myself avoiding everything. I plan on going for a walk today. Maybe I will? I won’t drink today. I will clean the vomit off the bathroom floor.
Todays is day 2. I don’t really think yesterday should count though, since I made myself so sick the night before that I barely got off the couch. We had a big earthquake here Friday that was terrifying. I was at work at the time, and everyone evacuated. Roads were clogged, damage to some roads trying to get home. My apartment was a disaster- broken glass and dishes, plant pots broken, debris everywhere, and all the furniture shoved around. My husband is out of state. I cleaned up- luckily no major damage. My neighbors decided to celebrate surviving the great earthquake of 2018. I got it done. There’s still vomit on the bathroom floor. Still having aftershocks. I’m hoping the earthquake shook me up enough to change my life?
I need help. I end up here too often. I feel like I’m hopeless. I look back at who I used to be and what I used to value and I’m ashamed of myself. I have too many good things in my life to feel like I don’t want to continue. I’m going to find a counselor. I know what will make me feel better but I don’t want to do it. Exercise, meditation, healthy eating, taking care of everyday chores that need to be done. Why don’t I have the motivation?? I do the bare minimum and go to work everyday. But that’s it. Since the earthquake Friday, I haven’t left my house. I’ve been laying on my couch by myself avoiding everything. I plan on going for a walk today. Maybe I will? I won’t drink today. I will clean the vomit off the bathroom floor.
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Originally Posted by Magpie82
Hi guys,
Todays is day 2. I don’t really think yesterday should count though, since I made myself so sick the night before that I barely got off the couch. We had a big earthquake here Friday that was terrifying. I was at work at the time, and everyone evacuated. Roads were clogged, damage to some roads trying to get home. My apartment was a disaster- broken glass and dishes, plant pots broken, debris everywhere, and all the furniture shoved around. My husband is out of state. I cleaned up- luckily no major damage. My neighbors decided to celebrate surviving the great earthquake of 2018. I got it done. There’s still vomit on the bathroom floor. Still having aftershocks. I’m hoping the earthquake shook me up enough to change my life?
I need help. I end up here too often. I feel like I’m hopeless. I look back at who I used to be and what I used to value and I’m ashamed of myself. I have too many good things in my life to feel like I don’t want to continue. I’m going to find a counselor. I know what will make me feel better but I don’t want to do it. Exercise, meditation, healthy eating, taking care of everyday chores that need to be done. Why don’t I have the motivation?? I do the bare minimum and go to work everyday. But that’s it. Since the earthquake Friday, I haven’t left my house. I’ve been laying on my couch by myself avoiding everything. I plan on going for a walk today. Maybe I will? I won’t drink today. I will clean the vomit off the bathroom floor.
Todays is day 2. I don’t really think yesterday should count though, since I made myself so sick the night before that I barely got off the couch. We had a big earthquake here Friday that was terrifying. I was at work at the time, and everyone evacuated. Roads were clogged, damage to some roads trying to get home. My apartment was a disaster- broken glass and dishes, plant pots broken, debris everywhere, and all the furniture shoved around. My husband is out of state. I cleaned up- luckily no major damage. My neighbors decided to celebrate surviving the great earthquake of 2018. I got it done. There’s still vomit on the bathroom floor. Still having aftershocks. I’m hoping the earthquake shook me up enough to change my life?
I need help. I end up here too often. I feel like I’m hopeless. I look back at who I used to be and what I used to value and I’m ashamed of myself. I have too many good things in my life to feel like I don’t want to continue. I’m going to find a counselor. I know what will make me feel better but I don’t want to do it. Exercise, meditation, healthy eating, taking care of everyday chores that need to be done. Why don’t I have the motivation?? I do the bare minimum and go to work everyday. But that’s it. Since the earthquake Friday, I haven’t left my house. I’ve been laying on my couch by myself avoiding everything. I plan on going for a walk today. Maybe I will? I won’t drink today. I will clean the vomit off the bathroom floor.
You'll get there! And soon enough you will be thanking yourself for treating yourself so well.
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Hi Dee, I’m glad to see you are here still. I spent the day laying on the couch thinking about that very thing. What will I do differently? I have a lot of literature I ordered last time I quit that I plan on reading. I’m starting with Adyashanti’s Falling into Grace. I started listening to an Annie Grace podcast, and then found a Dr. Amy Johnson pocast. I plan on attending my first AA meeting tomorrow, but I’m not sure how I’ll get along with that. I owe it to myself to give it a shot. I’m calling a counselor in the morning. I think there’s a lot more to my addiction than just drinking, like everyone else. I also have a doctors appointment Friday, so I’m flirting with the notion of asking about treatment ideas. I don’t know that I really need a treatment program just yet, and definitely not an inpatient situation. I think meditation and mindfulness is really helpful for me, but I fell back into the pit and I haven’t been doing any of that. I guess it’s hard to meditate when your drunk or hungover. I have never journaled, I might give that a shot. My office is shut down tomorrow due to the earthquake, so I’m dedicating another day to self care. Maybe I’ll form a more concrete plan by tomorrow. I feel slightly better now than I did this morning. I still feel paralyzed though- not motivated, and I know that doesn’t go away for me. It’s not a direct correlation with drinking. I’ll have to either figure that out or just be okay with being a lazy pice of doodoo. Thanks everyone for being here.
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Originally Posted by orderfororder
Having been through many day 1s and day 2s myself, I will suggest that you not be so hard on yourself in the early days. Those days are meant for rest and self-care. Once you are back in somewhat working order, you can start to slowly integrate those hobbies into your day. You don't need to do everything at once. Try just getting to the gym (if you go to a gym), and after that you can make little goals of how often you want to go per week. Try 5-10 minutes of meditation and gradually increase it, etc.
You'll get there! And soon enough you will be thanking yourself for treating yourself so well.
You'll get there! And soon enough you will be thanking yourself for treating yourself so well.
Thanks Order,
I’m going to keep that in mind. I will try to wait a couple days to be hard on myself 😉. Really though, your encouragement means the world to me right now. Thank you.
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I am not feeling sorry for myself, but my life is just so utterly empty compared to all my friends I have known through the years. Alcoholism and ADHD are the main issues since I haven't been able to effectively deal with them yet. I have decided to focus on one thing only. My alcoholism. The ADHD, unemployment, othet mental health issues can wait. Alcohol is the priority. First things first
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