24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 413
MonYAY! Yep I’m choosing that for today! 24 more please and thank you! God’s Grace! His will not mine today, no matter what! It’s kinda yucky weather wise with cloudy skies and humidity, but guess what we are sober folks!! Cloudy days are filled with blessings too! I shall be thankful that I’m not nursing the pangs of my past today and that I can embrace each moment that today brings forth with clarity. What shall I learn today? How can I make a difference?
Congrats to some amazing milestones! Prayers for all, victories or stumbles! Stand up, hold your head up and walk confidently into the day and week ahead! Much love everyone!💕
P. S. Thanks Dee for the new thread and thanks Venus for keeping us all informed on victories! 💕
Congrats to some amazing milestones! Prayers for all, victories or stumbles! Stand up, hold your head up and walk confidently into the day and week ahead! Much love everyone!💕
P. S. Thanks Dee for the new thread and thanks Venus for keeping us all informed on victories! 💕
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Lately, I've been wondering about my AV. It's been very quiet for a while now. And that makes me nervous. And I was right to be nervous because my AV is back.. In disguise. With new ammunition. This is the conversation I just had with it:
AV: Look at how much better your life is now.
ME: Yes, everything is so much better now.
AV: Imagine if you'd stopped drinking earlier.
ME: What do you mean?
AV: Well, you're doing much better at work now, aren't you?
ME: Yes
AV: Imagine how well you'd be doing if you'd stopped drinking years ago.
ME: Ok, but at least I stopped drinking when I did
AV: Yes, but think about how well you could be doing. If you'd been climbing up the career ladder instead of getting drunk, you could be the near the top now
ME: But I'm happy with my career. I'm happy where I am.
AV: I'm just saying. People younger than you are higher up the ladder... earning more money. They probably didn't spend so much time drunk.
ME: No, they probably didn't. Good luck to them. Anyway, my career isn't the most important thing to me. My family is what matters most.
AV: Yeah, and isn't your family life better now?
Me: So much better.
AV: Imagine how much better your family life would be if you'd stopped drinking earlier....
SHUT UP AV!!! I see you and I see what you're trying to do. You will not undermine me or my achievements. I'm proud of who I am and the lessons I've learned. So, go get another disguise. This one isn't working.
So glad you're feeling better today Suze and it's wonderful to see you again Plenny. Hope you're ok. 24 more for me please xxxx
AV: Look at how much better your life is now.
ME: Yes, everything is so much better now.
AV: Imagine if you'd stopped drinking earlier.
ME: What do you mean?
AV: Well, you're doing much better at work now, aren't you?
ME: Yes
AV: Imagine how well you'd be doing if you'd stopped drinking years ago.
ME: Ok, but at least I stopped drinking when I did
AV: Yes, but think about how well you could be doing. If you'd been climbing up the career ladder instead of getting drunk, you could be the near the top now
ME: But I'm happy with my career. I'm happy where I am.
AV: I'm just saying. People younger than you are higher up the ladder... earning more money. They probably didn't spend so much time drunk.
ME: No, they probably didn't. Good luck to them. Anyway, my career isn't the most important thing to me. My family is what matters most.
AV: Yeah, and isn't your family life better now?
Me: So much better.
AV: Imagine how much better your family life would be if you'd stopped drinking earlier....
SHUT UP AV!!! I see you and I see what you're trying to do. You will not undermine me or my achievements. I'm proud of who I am and the lessons I've learned. So, go get another disguise. This one isn't working.
So glad you're feeling better today Suze and it's wonderful to see you again Plenny. Hope you're ok. 24 more for me please xxxx
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Afternoon all. Its 1.05pm here in the UK. Please count me in for another 24 hours sober and clean. I am in the middle of moving house, stressful time but I am pleased with my new place. Congratulations to those celebrating a milestone, my thoughts and prayers go out to those suffering and struggling.
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Hi Kenton. I know exactly what you mean!! That is my worse enemy, thinking how different my life would have been if I stopped drinking earlier. I knew I was an alcoholic aged 30 but still kept relapsing after a few months sober. This time I am going to AA twice a week and am determined not relapse this time. It is hard to look at the wasted years. Years spent wasted. Excuse the pun. We should just be happy we finally did it. Onwards and upwards. Take care lovely lady. xxx
But guys......this is the inner critic that all people have.....the voice that wants to shake us, tell us this path is too hard, that we can't change or better ourselves.
The AV.....that's the one that says well seeing you are so useless....go have a drink....listeninging to the critic can MAKE the AV pop up for sure.....or make us go eat a pint of icecream or any destructive activity. s
Self-esteem.....as we build it in recovery we can tell these thoughts to go jump.
I do. Every day. I 'wasted' 30 years....I don't care......it is all working out exactly how it is supposed to. ♥♥
The AV.....that's the one that says well seeing you are so useless....go have a drink....listeninging to the critic can MAKE the AV pop up for sure.....or make us go eat a pint of icecream or any destructive activity. s
Self-esteem.....as we build it in recovery we can tell these thoughts to go jump.
I do. Every day. I 'wasted' 30 years....I don't care......it is all working out exactly how it is supposed to. ♥♥
Great post Kenton and interesting comments. I see my inner saboteur as an evil cousin of my AV. Possibly it's sidekick. That saboteur tries a very similar dialogue with me and many others besides. Oh I don't know but there is something inside me that I absolutely have to keep in check or I'll be miserable, unhealthy, unproductive and many other things and ultimately culminating in a huge eff-it moment. We know where that leads don't we? So we keep trying and looking forward and trying our best.
Sitting waiting to go back in the dentist for the corrective surgery on the aborted root canal work. Pooping myself to be honest but I'm here now and let's just hope this guy does a good job.
Lots of love guys and 24 more please ❤❤❤
Sitting waiting to go back in the dentist for the corrective surgery on the aborted root canal work. Pooping myself to be honest but I'm here now and let's just hope this guy does a good job.
Lots of love guys and 24 more please ❤❤❤
You are brave jojo and it is going to be OK.....cannot wait till this is over for you and your toofies are all fixed.
Sorry Mike.....I picked the wrong day to add your anniversary....onward love, with all of us. Huge hugs.
Have fun with the kiddos AtLast.
Sorry Mike.....I picked the wrong day to add your anniversary....onward love, with all of us. Huge hugs.
Have fun with the kiddos AtLast.
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