I think it is important to be authentic to yourself and where you are now Kathy.

You have worked so hard to make your family and friends feel "safe" in the current situation,
maybe your spirit is telling you now it's time, and past time, to more deeply prepare your own safe space for you.

That internal safe space is, in my mind, the place we make ourselves more permeable to God / Universe / All That Is.

But initially, it seems it would be very lonely to take those steps back.
Maybe this is perfectly normal but the next step in building the peace you have found?

Your journey becomes deeper up and down and less wide in the world, if that makes sense.

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very very nicely said Hawkeye

Good morning Kathy have a most blessed day.

Lori

That is true, Hawkeye.

I just got back from my psychiatrist, and she thinks that my confusion, distress, and casting about are just part of being in uncharted territory and trying to find my new normal.

She likes the idea of the Bible study (she is familiar with this particular one) to keep my mind fruitful, as well as seeking out a hospital-sponsored peer group called "Life with Cancer." Perhaps I will find a paisana who knows how I feel in the "casting about" phase.

The social worker still hasn't gotten back to me yet, so I will also call hospice's main number to inquire if she still works with them.

Usually my psychiatric sessions are half an hour: 15 minutes of medication management and fifteen minutes of giving status updates. Today, though, the session was a full hour: 15 minutes of med management and 45 minutes of counseling.

She said to go ahead and try the light therapy lamp, but to beware. She said they work best for people with unipolar depression; with bipolar people there is a chance of agitation.

That's all my household needs: instead of my merely being depressed and moody, I would advance to being a depressed and moody aggressive bitch! :lmao

Nevertheless, I'm going to try it.

we can do it all together Gilly.

Welcome, Undefined! :wavey:

Sure enough—my original social worker is no longer on staff at my hospice, so they have alerted a new one to contact me.

Undefined says Hi, Gilmer :roflmao

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I've always liked that guy! :c014:

I'm glad you got your 'money's worth' with the Psych, Kathy. And pleased you have some more tools in your arsenal.

With you in spirit. Have a restful sleep. xx

Thanks, CW!

Hi Kathy, I’m undefined. Don’t know why :dunno, some strange things happening

I sent you a PM mags - look under UserCP :)

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Thanks Dee, I’m not very technical when it comes to technical lol.

Kathy, glad you called about the social worker :c011:
:hug:

Morning Kathy,

Hope it’s a good day today xx

new thread here:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-8-a.html

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