venuscat

No dearest lyddie, I know I haven't....another one to contact today.....I will do it right now....jsm and weev. s


EDIT: messaged both of them.... ♥♥

badgerden

and the day begins!

24 looks good to me

Badge-28

venuscat

Indeed Minion, together we are strong. ♥♥♥

ODAATCAT

24 for me, please!

erfra7

Insomnia hhhhhhhmmmmm

Please 24 more of freedom from alcohol freedom from drugs and freedom from self.

kevlarsjal2

I’m currently on the train to that little village where I’ll be spending the next two days and I feel a weird mix of emotions. This morning I had another session with my therapist and she asked me if I had ever considered the possibility of aspergers (which I had actually planned to bring up myself) and handed me a sheet with questions which I will have to answer until next week.
Also with this new perspective in mind she suddenly understood me much better and her questions seemed much more on point in relation to my problems. This was a really good change and I felt so relieved. Being understood is so important.

We also discussed briefly the finding new friends issue and I told her about my list of possible places and options.
She also saw some topics we discussed ages ago in a new light and what she said now made so much more sense to me and it was easier to relate to.

Besides those feelings of relief and a little excitement about therapy maybe developing in a better way now I still process the break up. Or actually not so much the break up, which I don’t take personally, if we wanted different things out of a relationship then that’s how it is, but the way he ended it and how he treated me afterwards. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this hurt and disappointed before. It’s still something I try to understand but I don’t think I can. Someone being so caring and loving in one moment (or seeming that way) going to the other extreme just like that. And then staying like that. I’m sorry I keep repeating myself...

In the whole it feels like that chapter of my life has closed and a new one is beginning. It sounds a bit cheesy but I do think that I do for the first time have successfully identified what I struggle with, why it’s difficult for me and now also have support and a plan how to improve things. I guess that’s a good thing but it makes me nervous cause I have no idea where my current path is gonna lead me.

And I’m checking in for today of course and sending much love to everyone <3

Sunflowerlife

I messaged Weev a couple weeks ago and did not hear back. Do you have her number?

venuscat

I think so....I need to check with jojo that I have it right....actually thinking that we might ask jojo to text her again....if that is alright with jojo. ♥♥♥

venuscat

I love this kev. ♥

And I am so very glad that you had a breakthrough with your therapist....I am with you: it is SO important to feel understood.

You know....people do mysterious things....I had a boyfriend/ex bf a few years ago who desperately wanted to marry me and wouldn't give up even when I told him about Nick....he was mad about me, and then one day, he literally ghosted me. Blocked my number and unfriended me on FB and refused to ever speak to me again. Totally different situation to yours, because I wasn't' that keen on him so I didn't care, but it was weird. And hard not to dwell on. I guess I just have no clue how people can do cruel stuff, and it has happened to me more than once....my dad always always told me I was too nice and too trusting.....and even though he was right, I don't want to be any other way.

I hope you have a wonderful few days love. ♥♥♥

Babs1234

24 more please
Babs

stargazer016

24 more for me please at 9:54 am.

Have a good day all!

tomls

Sure doesn't seem like 17 years! I hope you all have a great day! 24 more clean and sober hours please.

StartAnew68

3.31pm in the UK and apologies for the late check in - 24 hours for me please.

venuscat

You are allowed to check in at whatever time you like lovely one. ♥♥♥

'allowed' said tongue-in-cheek....

I have a mission for all of you: stop apologising.

You are all incredible, all of the time. We don't have to be sorry anymore.....sorry I am alive, sorry I am in your way, sorry I am a waste of space, sorry I can't stop drinking, sorry I am so hopeless.....

We are so far from those things now....every single one of us....even those of us who are struggling right now.....we are all trying so hard, every single day.

StartAnew68

Many of us own our sobriety to you. Just so supportive of all of us despite failures xx

whopper

11:26 am. Here again.

venuscat

That is lovely dear StartAnew....but it is all of us together. Always.
I know we can heal...I am healing....and I came here so broken.
And I truly believe that the only failure is giving up. ♥

SoberLeigh

Time to celebrate each and every marvelous one of us!



We rock!

Sunflowerlife

venuscat

Oh my gosh....I could FEEL you just now Sunny. ♥♥♥