Class of February 2018 Support Thread Pt 5
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OOTT that's part of it. This month has been insane emotionally and physically. I've been hinting that I'd like more intimacy and felt porn was chosen over pursuing sex with me. Would have been nice if he'd said hey babe let's watch some porn and have fun. I just had a mental breakdown and major anxiety attack! I think we have other issues and this kind of broke me. One thing is certain, I love him and he loves me. I �� cant believe I didn't drink. I feel stronger because of that fact. I haven't been in my pool in over a month what a great idea OOTT. Thank you so much for helping to calm my nerves.
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I really think I had a nervous breakdown and I think OOTT hit the nail on the head. I was overtired, overwhelmed and extremely emotional over so many things. My son growing apart, my purpose will change, of course intimacy issues, all the travels lately, family issues with mom, sister, etc... business issues, house issues, co-parenting issues, health issues "a big one", just everything all at once and the porn thing was the tipping point. We have had a good day and communicated about it all. Like I said, I'm so proud of myself for not drinking. It's the closest I've come in six months. I have "WE" have to learn how to deal with life without alcohol. I'm so glad I have you all. It gave me a place where I could get it out. I think if I didn't have SR I would have drank. Thank you all...! xoxox
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I am so proud of you Sunshine.
I know for myself, I get run down from working long hours and my thinking changes and I get distorted, irrational emotions. I always have to take a break and relax and then I realize things aren't as bad as I think they are. Getting enough sleep definitely plays a role in that.
I know for myself, I get run down from working long hours and my thinking changes and I get distorted, irrational emotions. I always have to take a break and relax and then I realize things aren't as bad as I think they are. Getting enough sleep definitely plays a role in that.
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Yay Sunshine. I'm glad things are working out for you and you didn't pick up. I was worried, but I'm so glad that you didn't and you are communicating with your husband. You still may want to explore therapy. Of course, your call, as always, just a suggestion.
Proud of you too! Hugs and love. Aly ♥♥♥
Proud of you too! Hugs and love. Aly ♥♥♥
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Thanks guys and gals. Aly I think therapy is an awesome tool for so many. I have really worked through my child hood issues, divorce from 1st, addiction and all things that you could go over with a therapist. She was an awesome woman and she really helped me tremendously. I feel that I have gotten all I can get out of therapy. And now I have the tools and coping skills I learned from her. Except, I'm human and will def have these breakdowns from time to time. I pulled through and I'm back on track. Things aren't nor will they ever be perfect, but at least I'm not an emotional basket case ready to pop the top of the bottle. It was just a breakdown. I just couldn't see going over all my history and all the pain again with a new therapist. I just don't have it in me. It's like I know what to do, but doing it is what I must do! I highly recommend therapy for everyone who hasn't tried it yet. Advice, be sure you pick someone you have chemistry with you don't have to pick just anyone. I think I'm going to get out of the house some this week-end on my own. My husband and I have a lot of togetherness, and I think I need some 'me' time. :-)
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Happy hump days Febs!
I'm glad you made it through the worst of it Sunshine, hang in there!
I really want to take some more time off from work, even just to leave early and enjoy the summer but I have so much to do. Damn it's stressful and always has been for 17 years, Jimi's ready to retire lol.
I'm glad you made it through the worst of it Sunshine, hang in there!
I really want to take some more time off from work, even just to leave early and enjoy the summer but I have so much to do. Damn it's stressful and always has been for 17 years, Jimi's ready to retire lol.
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Hey all looks like today is six months here! #180days.
Maybe I've been so stressed lately because my feelings are completely raw and not in the slightest tainted or covered up by alcohol.
Latest episode is my sister has been kicked out of her sober home on suspicions that she was high so are we are back to square one. I pushed it in the family and friends form so I'm getting some good advice there. I think l need to get out of this situation with her. It's pretty bad. It's just that I'll lose the $3, 000 I've invested in her. I really don't need this on my shoulders I feel like I'm cracking up. Lol
However I do feel happy today and my husband is putting ribs in the smoker I'm going to make a big crock pot of green beans and potatoes my son is home and all is well in my safe little bubble.
Maybe I've been so stressed lately because my feelings are completely raw and not in the slightest tainted or covered up by alcohol.
Latest episode is my sister has been kicked out of her sober home on suspicions that she was high so are we are back to square one. I pushed it in the family and friends form so I'm getting some good advice there. I think l need to get out of this situation with her. It's pretty bad. It's just that I'll lose the $3, 000 I've invested in her. I really don't need this on my shoulders I feel like I'm cracking up. Lol
However I do feel happy today and my husband is putting ribs in the smoker I'm going to make a big crock pot of green beans and potatoes my son is home and all is well in my safe little bubble.
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Congrats on six months, and for making through a rough patch sober! Well done.
Jimi: I’m right there with ya, ready to retire, although I always used to say that I was going to spend retirement tending bar anywhere in the Caribbean. I’m going to have to come up with something else... but in the Caribbean!
Jimi: I’m right there with ya, ready to retire, although I always used to say that I was going to spend retirement tending bar anywhere in the Caribbean. I’m going to have to come up with something else... but in the Caribbean!
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Wut up? Six months for me today too. March to September last year I didn't drink for over six months, I plan on shattering that record this time! I mean there's not one legit reason to go back.
Congrats to everybody for kicking the beast's A$$! IWTA, how are you?
Congrats to everybody for kicking the beast's A$$! IWTA, how are you?
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