Class of April 2018 Part 5
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Viper how you feeling today?
You too Sunshine ?
I have tried to quit drinking so many times over the last 5 years . What is different this time for me?
I had to totally surrender to the fact that I can never, ever drink moderately or safely. That I am an alcoholic.
I realised that I was quite literally powerless over alcohol, I had no defence over that first drink. The craving came and I acted on it. Every time.
No matter which way you get sober I believe the key is acceptance, surrender and to find a defence to keep you for picking up that FIRST drink. After all is is the first drink that does the damage and it is the first drink we have to stay away from no matter what.
My defence is my HP. When my cravings come I pray to God to give me the strength to not pick up a drink. Other times I will repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (I am an alcoholic and I can never change that ) , the courage to change the things I can (I can change by not picking up that first drink).
I have been sober nearly 3 months so something is keeping me from drinking and it sure isn't my willpower.
It takes time for us to heal and to start seeing real positive changes in our lives after putting down the drink. Alcoholics are impatient. We want to see results immediately. Well, I know I did. But by staying sober one day at a time, the days start adding up and changes start to happen. I am coming up to 3 months sober and apart from the obvious of feeling better in the early days just by not taking a drink, it is only really now that I am starting to reap the benefits of quitting. I am also now ready to tackle a few other issues in my life like my weight and fitness and my spending.
Everyone I have met in my programme or from threads on SR have told me that life keeps getting better and better and I am actually starting to see that now.
Someone also posted about the effects of kindling which showhow stopping and starting drinking again and again is even more detrimental to the brain than daily drinking.
So please hold on.... things really do get better , I know this myself now.
I was a daily drinker and a binge drinker. I drank when I was happy , sad, scared, angry, resentful, tired. I never did anything without a drink and I mean anything. I was so sick at Xmas one year I could barely make it out of bed and yet I couldn't contemplate Christmas without a drink so as sick as I was I drank my way through Christmas and Boxing day. When I was hungover to hell I would wait till midday and then start drinking again. I never took that (early) morning drink...until I did.
I can assure you if I a can do this anyone can.
1. Accept and surrender.
2. Find a defence to stop you taking that first drink.
3. Repeat on a daily basis. One day at a time.
You too Sunshine ?
I have tried to quit drinking so many times over the last 5 years . What is different this time for me?
I had to totally surrender to the fact that I can never, ever drink moderately or safely. That I am an alcoholic.
I realised that I was quite literally powerless over alcohol, I had no defence over that first drink. The craving came and I acted on it. Every time.
No matter which way you get sober I believe the key is acceptance, surrender and to find a defence to keep you for picking up that FIRST drink. After all is is the first drink that does the damage and it is the first drink we have to stay away from no matter what.
My defence is my HP. When my cravings come I pray to God to give me the strength to not pick up a drink. Other times I will repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (I am an alcoholic and I can never change that ) , the courage to change the things I can (I can change by not picking up that first drink).
I have been sober nearly 3 months so something is keeping me from drinking and it sure isn't my willpower.
It takes time for us to heal and to start seeing real positive changes in our lives after putting down the drink. Alcoholics are impatient. We want to see results immediately. Well, I know I did. But by staying sober one day at a time, the days start adding up and changes start to happen. I am coming up to 3 months sober and apart from the obvious of feeling better in the early days just by not taking a drink, it is only really now that I am starting to reap the benefits of quitting. I am also now ready to tackle a few other issues in my life like my weight and fitness and my spending.
Everyone I have met in my programme or from threads on SR have told me that life keeps getting better and better and I am actually starting to see that now.
Someone also posted about the effects of kindling which showhow stopping and starting drinking again and again is even more detrimental to the brain than daily drinking.
So please hold on.... things really do get better , I know this myself now.
I was a daily drinker and a binge drinker. I drank when I was happy , sad, scared, angry, resentful, tired. I never did anything without a drink and I mean anything. I was so sick at Xmas one year I could barely make it out of bed and yet I couldn't contemplate Christmas without a drink so as sick as I was I drank my way through Christmas and Boxing day. When I was hungover to hell I would wait till midday and then start drinking again. I never took that (early) morning drink...until I did.
I can assure you if I a can do this anyone can.
1. Accept and surrender.
2. Find a defence to stop you taking that first drink.
3. Repeat on a daily basis. One day at a time.
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Same here Suzy, this time around I completely accepted that I have no control over my drinking. I highly recommend working the steps, also. You don't have to go to AA to work the steps, there are many books that help walk you through it.
In moments where I have an inkling to drink I play the tape all the way through to the next morning where crippling anxiety settles in and hangs out for days. It was paralyzing the anxiety was so bad. All I have to do is think about that and how I could barely function with a hangover but would try so hard to prove I was fine. Or how I would wake up in the morning and try to figure out what I needed to do to get through the day. Headache? Take some advil. Nausea? Peppermint oil. Tired? Try to sleep. The whole day of a hangover spent trying to feel better so I didn't have to admit I had a problem. But nothing actually really helped. Especially the anxiety. Omg, so bad.
So here I am almost 3 months sober and it gets easier and easier everyday. It really does. Yes, it has been hard and a lot of work. But it's better. And I'm learning to love not drinking. My hubby was so surprised that I didn't negotiate a drink for 4th of July. Holidays have always been hard for me. This year I told him...Nope, I have no desire to drink whatsoever. I didn't drink and I had a wonderful day and night. Got a good night sleep and was up early the next day and off to an amusement park. I have many memories of being there hungover. Being there hungover free was so much nicer.
Long story short....drinking is not the answer and never will be. It's like playing with fire. At anytime that one more drink will turn into some life changing event that you won't be able to undo. Get ahead of the game now and show your liver some love
In moments where I have an inkling to drink I play the tape all the way through to the next morning where crippling anxiety settles in and hangs out for days. It was paralyzing the anxiety was so bad. All I have to do is think about that and how I could barely function with a hangover but would try so hard to prove I was fine. Or how I would wake up in the morning and try to figure out what I needed to do to get through the day. Headache? Take some advil. Nausea? Peppermint oil. Tired? Try to sleep. The whole day of a hangover spent trying to feel better so I didn't have to admit I had a problem. But nothing actually really helped. Especially the anxiety. Omg, so bad.
So here I am almost 3 months sober and it gets easier and easier everyday. It really does. Yes, it has been hard and a lot of work. But it's better. And I'm learning to love not drinking. My hubby was so surprised that I didn't negotiate a drink for 4th of July. Holidays have always been hard for me. This year I told him...Nope, I have no desire to drink whatsoever. I didn't drink and I had a wonderful day and night. Got a good night sleep and was up early the next day and off to an amusement park. I have many memories of being there hungover. Being there hungover free was so much nicer.
Long story short....drinking is not the answer and never will be. It's like playing with fire. At anytime that one more drink will turn into some life changing event that you won't be able to undo. Get ahead of the game now and show your liver some love
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Hi rowlands
don;t forget many of us faltered a time or two before we got it right, me included.
What about committing to coming here before you decide to drink next time.
That small change could yield big dividends?
D
don;t forget many of us faltered a time or two before we got it right, me included.
What about committing to coming here before you decide to drink next time.
That small change could yield big dividends?
D
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Hi Aprils
I hope everyone is well and sober and enjoying the weekend. It's stupid o clock in the morning again and I just can't sleep, it's unbearably hot even with my feet resting on an ice pack! To think if this was happening 3 months ago I would be sneaking a bottle of wine from my secret stash and drinking the whole bottle rapidly to knock me out, I'd sneak back to bed and crash out waking the next morning with my mouth feeling like the bottom of a parrot cage, dehydrated and headachy and as guilty as hell. Tonight we've got 4 g.children sleeping over, 2 of mine aged 8 & 9 and my husband's 2 great grandchildren, aged 2 & 3. Ha ha, he was a great grandad at the ripe old age of 55. They are all fasts asleep and I'm sat downstairs with a bottle of water and my ice pack. Happy days.
Hi Quitnow, I hope you got to the pool and had a good day.No, we haven't had any relief from the heat as yet and it's forecast to be the same for the next week at least.
So glad you're feeling better now Suze and good on you for working on healthy eating now, I started that last week and up to now I've lost 6lb which is a good start, I need to start working on doing a bit of exercise too.
How was Philly and did you find any meetings? Thank you for sharing that post about drinking, I can relate to so much of it especially your tales about Christmas time.
Kgirl, you sound so focused and happy to be sober, not drinking makes such a difference to our lives, a complete change for the better. Your husband must have been secretly delighted that you didn't drink on the 4th, he must see how hard you are working on turning your life round.
Aww the baby sounds delightful, I love them at that age. x
Hi Rowlands, I'm sorry you drank but I'm glad you came straight back. Please don't be so hard on yourself, What's done is done. What happens next is the important thing and I know you want to be sober so dust yourself down, draw a line under it and move on. You can do this and we are all here to help.
Well done Strawberry for not taking a shot, I'm so proud of you, you must have one of the hardest jobs in the world for an alcoholic.
Hi, my dearest Donny boy, I'm glad the temperature has cooled down a little for you, we've had pretty much the same temperatures as you over the last couple of weeks, it's lovely if you can sit round all day chilling, but not much fun if you go out to work in it. Did you enjoy the music recital? I would have liked to see that, I bet they were amazing. Your daughter must be very proud. xx
I'm really sorry you went off the rails Viper but I applaud you for being honest about it and coming straight back. Would you not consider going back to A.A or is that not a possibility? Take good care of yourself, eat well and drink as much water as you can fit in.
I hope your son is feeling much better now Lovehoops, I believe Lymes is horrible. Thank goodness you were sober and able to help him. x
Sorry about your little slip Sunshine but a massive well done for coming back here and being honest about it. How was the concert? I hope you enjoyed it. xx
Right I need to go back to bed now and sleep. Lets see what tomorrow brings.
Love to all
G. xxxx
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Hi Aprils
I hope everyone is well and sober and enjoying the weekend. It's stupid o clock in the morning again and I just can't sleep, it's unbearably hot even with my feet resting on an ice pack! To think if this was happening 3 months ago I would be sneaking a bottle of wine from my secret stash and drinking the whole bottle rapidly to knock me out, I'd sneak back to bed and crash out waking the next morning with my mouth feeling like the bottom of a parrot cage, dehydrated and headachy and as guilty as hell. Tonight we've got 4 g.children sleeping over, 2 of mine aged 8 & 9 and my husband's 2 great grandchildren, aged 2 & 3. Ha ha, he was a great grandad at the ripe old age of 55. They are all fasts asleep and I'm sat downstairs with a bottle of water and my ice pack. Happy days.
Hi Quitnow, I hope you got to the pool and had a good day.No, we haven't had any relief from the heat as yet and it's forecast to be the same for the next week at least.
So glad you're feeling better now Suze and good on you for working on healthy eating now, I started that last week and up to now I've lost 6lb which is a good start, I need to start working on doing a bit of exercise too.
How was Philly and did you find any meetings? Thank you for sharing that post about drinking, I can relate to so much of it especially your tales about Christmas time.
Kgirl, you sound so focused and happy to be sober, not drinking makes such a difference to our lives, a complete change for the better. Your husband must have been secretly delighted that you didn't drink on the 4th, he must see how hard you are working on turning your life round.
Aww the baby sounds delightful, I love them at that age. x
Hi Rowlands, I'm sorry you drank but I'm glad you came straight back. Please don't be so hard on yourself, What's done is done. What happens next is the important thing and I know you want to be sober so dust yourself down, draw a line under it and move on. You can do this and we are all here to help.
Well done Strawberry for not taking a shot, I'm so proud of you, you must have one of the hardest jobs in the world for an alcoholic.
Hi, my dearest Donny boy, I'm glad the temperature has cooled down a little for you, we've had pretty much the same temperatures as you over the last couple of weeks, it's lovely if you can sit round all day chilling, but not much fun if you go out to work in it. Did you enjoy the music recital? I would have liked to see that, I bet they were amazing. Your daughter must be very proud. xx
I'm really sorry you went off the rails Viper but I applaud you for being honest about it and coming straight back. Would you not consider going back to A.A or is that not a possibility? Take good care of yourself, eat well and drink as much water as you can fit in.
I hope your son is feeling much better now Lovehoops, I believe Lymes is horrible. Thank goodness you were sober and able to help him. x
Sorry about your little slip Sunshine but a massive well done for coming back here and being honest about it. How was the concert? I hope you enjoyed it. xx
Right I need to go back to bed now and sleep. Lets see what tomorrow brings.
Love to all
G. xxxx
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Evening all from Philadelphia!
Vipe, yes you realise you cannot continue like this. You can recommitt from right now. No drinking no matter what. I want this for you as much as I want it for myself buddy.
Sorry you drank Rowlands and are feeling bad. Again recommit starting right now. Find your defence against that 1st drink and use it!!
Hey Daisy, awww sorry you are not sleeping well but thank God it is just because of the heat and not alcohol!! They have had a bit of a break in the weather here and whilst still warm it wasn't that oppressive heat today which was lovely. I hope you manage some sleep soon.
I woke up this morning and did a workout then went to get breakfast and found a meeting across the road from me! It was errrmmm interesting. I have heard that there are sometimes disputes even fights in meetings sometimes but I have never experienced it. Until today!! Not a fight but a disruptive person came into the meeting and apparently she has been banned (I later overheard it was due to her being so disruptive and stealing) but there were a lot of F you's being thrown around. I am ashamed to admit it but I quite enjoyed the drama! After all I thrived on drama when I was drinking!! Anyway she was evicted and no one seemed to really bat an eyelid and the meeting carried on 😂😂
I decided to treat myself to a pedicure so I had that done then went and got a salad for lunch and went back to my room and had a lovely afternoon nap. I kept thinking last time maybe I should do something, a city tour or some exploring but actually I realised what I needed was some self care and me time and that is ok.
So I woke at about 5.30pm and had the rest of my salad and went round the corner to another meeting! I can't tell you how much I get from these meetings and how much identification I get when these strangers start talking. One thing I am getting and this may not be true of you guys but it is for me is that alcohol was just a sympton of my illness. Take away the alcohol and I am left with me. And I drank to get away from me. Hearing these people sharing how they felt the same way and what they have done and what they are doing to treat their alcoholism is so inspirational and gives me hope for my future. Removing the alcohol is just the tip of the iceberg for me. Then the real work needs to start .
I am back in my room now, gonna have a shower and watch a movie. If I had been drinking still I know I would have been out on an all day bender today, God knows where I might have ended up and who with (yuck!) but that is not the case today and for that I am so so grateful 😇
Sweet dreams everyone x x
Vipe, yes you realise you cannot continue like this. You can recommitt from right now. No drinking no matter what. I want this for you as much as I want it for myself buddy.
Sorry you drank Rowlands and are feeling bad. Again recommit starting right now. Find your defence against that 1st drink and use it!!
Hey Daisy, awww sorry you are not sleeping well but thank God it is just because of the heat and not alcohol!! They have had a bit of a break in the weather here and whilst still warm it wasn't that oppressive heat today which was lovely. I hope you manage some sleep soon.
I woke up this morning and did a workout then went to get breakfast and found a meeting across the road from me! It was errrmmm interesting. I have heard that there are sometimes disputes even fights in meetings sometimes but I have never experienced it. Until today!! Not a fight but a disruptive person came into the meeting and apparently she has been banned (I later overheard it was due to her being so disruptive and stealing) but there were a lot of F you's being thrown around. I am ashamed to admit it but I quite enjoyed the drama! After all I thrived on drama when I was drinking!! Anyway she was evicted and no one seemed to really bat an eyelid and the meeting carried on 😂😂
I decided to treat myself to a pedicure so I had that done then went and got a salad for lunch and went back to my room and had a lovely afternoon nap. I kept thinking last time maybe I should do something, a city tour or some exploring but actually I realised what I needed was some self care and me time and that is ok.
So I woke at about 5.30pm and had the rest of my salad and went round the corner to another meeting! I can't tell you how much I get from these meetings and how much identification I get when these strangers start talking. One thing I am getting and this may not be true of you guys but it is for me is that alcohol was just a sympton of my illness. Take away the alcohol and I am left with me. And I drank to get away from me. Hearing these people sharing how they felt the same way and what they have done and what they are doing to treat their alcoholism is so inspirational and gives me hope for my future. Removing the alcohol is just the tip of the iceberg for me. Then the real work needs to start .
I am back in my room now, gonna have a shower and watch a movie. If I had been drinking still I know I would have been out on an all day bender today, God knows where I might have ended up and who with (yuck!) but that is not the case today and for that I am so so grateful 😇
Sweet dreams everyone x x
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Ok here. Doing much better.
Yes of course this makes no sense. It cannot continue. Dunno. One thing I do know is that I am not busy. I’m not productive. A person needs to have things to do, which for me can only be something really meaningful. It’s not too hard to find that. I’m not talking about becoming a jet fighter pilot. Walking dogs at the shelter is meaningful. Working out, pushing the envelope to see what kind of shape I can get in. Etc.
I went to what turned out to be a party with 200 people that my sister had at her business. Booze and all that, but a lot of what looked like responsible drinking, or people just not drinking at all. It’s a holiday weekend, many choosing no booze. That’s good for me. I wanted no booze at all. I had a good time without it.
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Yes of course this makes no sense. It cannot continue. Dunno. One thing I do know is that I am not busy. I’m not productive. A person needs to have things to do, which for me can only be something really meaningful. It’s not too hard to find that. I’m not talking about becoming a jet fighter pilot. Walking dogs at the shelter is meaningful. Working out, pushing the envelope to see what kind of shape I can get in. Etc.
I went to what turned out to be a party with 200 people that my sister had at her business. Booze and all that, but a lot of what looked like responsible drinking, or people just not drinking at all. It’s a holiday weekend, many choosing no booze. That’s good for me. I wanted no booze at all. I had a good time without it.
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Hi Aprils!
Just checking in. All good but spent the entire day dealing with a honey bee infestation! It was insane!! They kept trying to get into my windows and little crevices and anywhere they could squeeze through. Landlady thinks they just started building a nest in my kitchen vent. Awesome right?? Not!! Haha!
I was soooo paranoid (running around trying to tape of every spot that an insect could possibly crawl through) and upset about this situation today - but I stayed sober even in the crazy heat with windows and patio doors closed and no AC and cold wine in my fridge ! Arghhh ! I made myself a huge pitcher of Hibiscus pineapple iced tea - yummmm. That quenched any thoughts of drinking...
Need to catch up with everyone’s posts and will post more tomorrow !
Bee well everyone !! 🐝
Just checking in. All good but spent the entire day dealing with a honey bee infestation! It was insane!! They kept trying to get into my windows and little crevices and anywhere they could squeeze through. Landlady thinks they just started building a nest in my kitchen vent. Awesome right?? Not!! Haha!
I was soooo paranoid (running around trying to tape of every spot that an insect could possibly crawl through) and upset about this situation today - but I stayed sober even in the crazy heat with windows and patio doors closed and no AC and cold wine in my fridge ! Arghhh ! I made myself a huge pitcher of Hibiscus pineapple iced tea - yummmm. That quenched any thoughts of drinking...
Need to catch up with everyone’s posts and will post more tomorrow !
Bee well everyone !! 🐝
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Hi again Aprils
Just a quick check in before I go to bed, it's just gone midnight and it's still very hot and I'm tired. I'm sat here again with my ice packs.
Hey Suze, I smiled when I read about the dispute at your meeting, who'd have thought it and to be honest I think we all secretly like a bit of drama, especially when it's someone else's lol I've had enough drama to last me a lifetime.
Glad you're feeling much better today Vipe and maybe it's time to find something that keeps you busy, if you feel that helps to keep you sober. I don't know what you're into, you mention dog walking at the shelter, that sounds rewarding, or maybe some voluntary work, anything that keeps your mind occupied. It's just a thought anyway.
You did well not drinking at that party with all those people there, just goes to show that you can do it when you put your mind to it. Your stronger than you think.
Oh no Bluesey, I'd have been paranoid too with all those bees, I'd have been hearing them buzzing in my sleep. What will you have to do to get rid of the nest? Bees are good but you don't want them in your kitchen vent. You did well to stay sane lol.
I'll have to go to bed now, hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight.
Goodnight all and lots of love from me. Sleep well. xxx
Just a quick check in before I go to bed, it's just gone midnight and it's still very hot and I'm tired. I'm sat here again with my ice packs.
Hey Suze, I smiled when I read about the dispute at your meeting, who'd have thought it and to be honest I think we all secretly like a bit of drama, especially when it's someone else's lol I've had enough drama to last me a lifetime.
Glad you're feeling much better today Vipe and maybe it's time to find something that keeps you busy, if you feel that helps to keep you sober. I don't know what you're into, you mention dog walking at the shelter, that sounds rewarding, or maybe some voluntary work, anything that keeps your mind occupied. It's just a thought anyway.
You did well not drinking at that party with all those people there, just goes to show that you can do it when you put your mind to it. Your stronger than you think.
Oh no Bluesey, I'd have been paranoid too with all those bees, I'd have been hearing them buzzing in my sleep. What will you have to do to get rid of the nest? Bees are good but you don't want them in your kitchen vent. You did well to stay sane lol.
I'll have to go to bed now, hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight.
Goodnight all and lots of love from me. Sleep well. xxx
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Happy Sunday all!
Bees were not around as much today but my exhaust fan has been on constantly since it prevents the bees from getting past my Fort Knox shield of construction paper and various kinds of tape - ha! Bee keeper coming in AM tomorrow - I will be happy to open my patio doors again!
Daisy, sorry it's still so hot there!! Wow, this heatwave is insane all over this globe it seems! I remember sleeping on wet towels in Costa Rica once and it barely helped since the humidity was like 1000%!
. Hope you're sleeping better tonight and look forward to catching up more this week!
Wishing everyone a wonderful night wherever you are...
Bees were not around as much today but my exhaust fan has been on constantly since it prevents the bees from getting past my Fort Knox shield of construction paper and various kinds of tape - ha! Bee keeper coming in AM tomorrow - I will be happy to open my patio doors again!
Daisy, sorry it's still so hot there!! Wow, this heatwave is insane all over this globe it seems! I remember sleeping on wet towels in Costa Rica once and it barely helped since the humidity was like 1000%!
. Hope you're sleeping better tonight and look forward to catching up more this week!Wishing everyone a wonderful night wherever you are...
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Good Morning All
Woke fresh & bright this morning...what a wonderful feeling it is.
Ready to recommit...get my ar@e in gear !
Thanks D DB Suze...it's always good to know someone got ur back...
I'm taking my terrified 16 year old son to the dentist this morning for a filling.
It's a specialist dental practice at a school for children with special needs...they cater for adults & kids who are petrified of dentists !
Gas & Air ..& are very sympathetic... wish me luck !
Have a good day all
I will not drink today..xx
Woke fresh & bright this morning...what a wonderful feeling it is.
Ready to recommit...get my ar@e in gear !
Thanks D DB Suze...it's always good to know someone got ur back...
I'm taking my terrified 16 year old son to the dentist this morning for a filling.
It's a specialist dental practice at a school for children with special needs...they cater for adults & kids who are petrified of dentists !
Gas & Air ..& are very sympathetic... wish me luck !
Have a good day all
I will not drink today..xx
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11.10
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Good morning Aprils
It's been very quiet here over the weekend and I hope it's because you've all been super busy having a good and busy sober weekend.
I'm mega, super stressed this morning, I was involved in an incident with a cyclist while doing the school run, I'm still shaking. I had my mum in the passenger seat and the 2 g.children in the back, I was driving down a busy road when we spotted a young cyclist aged about 13 sort of zigzagging in the road in front of us, no helmet on and it looked like the bike was too big for him to handle. I moved out into the road to get past him but the next thing he crashed into the side of my car and sort of went backwards landing on the grassy verge with a bang. I stopped the car as soon as it was safe to do so and jumped out, as did the chap in the car behind me. As the lad saw us running towards him, he got up and started pushing his bike quickly onto a nearby housing estate. I ran to him and asked if he was okay etc, he was a bit tearful but seemed okay until I asked him for his parents number, which he point blank refused to give me. I started to follow him as I wanted to see where he lived but he then got lippy and told me he'd have me arrested for speeding!! I told him that I have him on dash cam as does the man who was behind me and have witnesses. His reply was that they are all liars! As he was obviously not too injured I returned to my car and took my g.children to school, dropped my mum off in town and come home. I've phoned the nearest high school to where he was as it seems likely he was going there and reported the incident and I've also reported it to the police. I have been speaking to the chap who was behind me and hopefully he has it all on his dash cam and is going to check and send me the video and I should have him wobbling all over the road on mine. Thought it best to cover myself in case there are any comebacks. I literally can't stop shaking. I've made myself a cup of tea and I was just thinking to myself how a few short months ago this would have tipped me over the edge and into a bottle of wine. I won't drink over this, I don't need to, I don't want to. I will cope. I should add that I first of all phoned my husband and I was waiting for him to ask 'have you been drinking?' He didn't ask,
he didn't ask and if he had well I haven't. Sorry for rambling.
This morning I am thankful for not drinking, for being sober and present.
Morning Bluesey, I hope that buzzy bee problem is resolved this morning. I can just picture you with those rolls of tape, lol.
I did sleep better last night thank you, I do love the sun, all this vitamin D must be doing me some good, it's just the nights that get to me when there's no air and it's so hot, thank goodness for picnic ice packs lol.
Morning Rowlands, awww you're sounding so much better today, you'll be fine, you know what to do. Get right back into now, new day, new start.
I hope all goes well at the dentist, you have my deepest sympathy, my oldest g.son ( 11) is on the Asberger's spectrum, he's the apple of my eye, bless him, he's gorgeous, but he's terrified of the dentist, I dread to think what will happen when he ever needs a filling. I guess that bridge will have to be crossed when he comes to it.
Well I'm off now to make myself another cup of tea, I'm beginning to calm down now. I hope you all have a better day than yesterday. Love to all.
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Good morning Aprils
It's been very quiet here over the weekend and I hope it's because you've all been super busy having a good and busy sober weekend.
I'm mega, super stressed this morning, I was involved in an incident with a cyclist while doing the school run, I'm still shaking. I had my mum in the passenger seat and the 2 g.children in the back, I was driving down a busy road when we spotted a young cyclist aged about 13 sort of zigzagging in the road in front of us, no helmet on and it looked like the bike was too big for him to handle. I moved out into the road to get past him but the next thing he crashed into the side of my car and sort of went backwards landing on the grassy verge with a bang. I stopped the car as soon as it was safe to do so and jumped out, as did the chap in the car behind me. As the lad saw us running towards him, he got up and started pushing his bike quickly onto a nearby housing estate. I ran to him and asked if he was okay etc, he was a bit tearful but seemed okay until I asked him for his parents number, which he point blank refused to give me. I started to follow him as I wanted to see where he lived but he then got lippy and told me he'd have me arrested for speeding!! I told him that I have him on dash cam as does the man who was behind me and have witnesses. His reply was that they are all liars! As he was obviously not too injured I returned to my car and took my g.children to school, dropped my mum off in town and come home. I've phoned the nearest high school to where he was as it seems likely he was going there and reported the incident and I've also reported it to the police. I have been speaking to the chap who was behind me and hopefully he has it all on his dash cam and is going to check and send me the video and I should have him wobbling all over the road on mine. Thought it best to cover myself in case there are any comebacks. I literally can't stop shaking. I've made myself a cup of tea and I was just thinking to myself how a few short months ago this would have tipped me over the edge and into a bottle of wine. I won't drink over this, I don't need to, I don't want to. I will cope. I should add that I first of all phoned my husband and I was waiting for him to ask 'have you been drinking?' He didn't ask,
he didn't ask and if he had well I haven't. Sorry for rambling.This morning I am thankful for not drinking, for being sober and present.
Morning Bluesey, I hope that buzzy bee problem is resolved this morning. I can just picture you with those rolls of tape, lol.
I did sleep better last night thank you, I do love the sun, all this vitamin D must be doing me some good, it's just the nights that get to me when there's no air and it's so hot, thank goodness for picnic ice packs lol.
Morning Rowlands, awww you're sounding so much better today, you'll be fine, you know what to do. Get right back into now, new day, new start.
I hope all goes well at the dentist, you have my deepest sympathy, my oldest g.son ( 11) is on the Asberger's spectrum, he's the apple of my eye, bless him, he's gorgeous, but he's terrified of the dentist, I dread to think what will happen when he ever needs a filling. I guess that bridge will have to be crossed when he comes to it.
Well I'm off now to make myself another cup of tea, I'm beginning to calm down now. I hope you all have a better day than yesterday. Love to all.
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Just a quick check in! Day off from babysitting today.. But stuck on a double shift at work as someone is sick ... Midnight after work swim is on the cards .... Better than heading out for drinks with friends after we finish !
Love to all xxx
Love to all xxx
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Good morning on day 19! It is a lovely sunny morning here in the Midwest, USA.
Daisybelle, What a morning! I, too, am so glad you were sober minded and handled that situation with wisdom.
You, too, Bluesy! Can’t imagine a bee infestation. Never experienced that before! I hope it’s cleared up for you.
Rowlands, Welcome back and well done at getting right back to it. So glad you’re here.
Yesterday was an emotional day for me. But this happens every time I give up the wine (my coping mechanism.). I begin to feel again and as you all know, the difficulty is learning to deal with dissatisfaction or frustration in life. With me it is a few relationships in my family, but I’m ready this time. I had a talk with my husband last night and we worked a few things out.
There is so much to be thankful for and I am giving thanks for another sober Monday, summer projects to be done, and taking this journey with all of you wonderful class mates!
3 trees, How are you? Is your name from that classic story about the three trees? I used to read that to my kids when they were little.
Hi Viper, snitch, Donny, Strawberry, KGirl, Dee, and who am I missing here?
Daisybelle, What a morning! I, too, am so glad you were sober minded and handled that situation with wisdom.
You, too, Bluesy! Can’t imagine a bee infestation. Never experienced that before! I hope it’s cleared up for you.
Rowlands, Welcome back and well done at getting right back to it. So glad you’re here.
Yesterday was an emotional day for me. But this happens every time I give up the wine (my coping mechanism.). I begin to feel again and as you all know, the difficulty is learning to deal with dissatisfaction or frustration in life. With me it is a few relationships in my family, but I’m ready this time. I had a talk with my husband last night and we worked a few things out.
There is so much to be thankful for and I am giving thanks for another sober Monday, summer projects to be done, and taking this journey with all of you wonderful class mates!
3 trees, How are you? Is your name from that classic story about the three trees? I used to read that to my kids when they were little.
Hi Viper, snitch, Donny, Strawberry, KGirl, Dee, and who am I missing here?
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Hey all
A quick check in from me. Ahhhh you don't know (or maybe you do??) how good it is to log on here and see my familiar April peeps!
I am sooooo glad to be home. It has felt like the longest trip ever! I am just waiting for my daughter to get home and will be busy so will post properly later.
I have felt very triggered to drink lately and I am worried or maybe not worried but quietly concenred as I am sort of aware of it, that a relapse may be rearing its ugly head. So I am putting actions into place to stay safe. Will be home with my daughter and will make us dinner and do some washing and tidying, I'll be close to my April peeps and SR, I am speaking to my sponsor later and then we will get an early night and tomorrow will be a new day. Just sharing this now with you guys has already helped.
So catch up with you all later
X x x
A quick check in from me. Ahhhh you don't know (or maybe you do??) how good it is to log on here and see my familiar April peeps!
I am sooooo glad to be home. It has felt like the longest trip ever! I am just waiting for my daughter to get home and will be busy so will post properly later.
I have felt very triggered to drink lately and I am worried or maybe not worried but quietly concenred as I am sort of aware of it, that a relapse may be rearing its ugly head. So I am putting actions into place to stay safe. Will be home with my daughter and will make us dinner and do some washing and tidying, I'll be close to my April peeps and SR, I am speaking to my sponsor later and then we will get an early night and tomorrow will be a new day. Just sharing this now with you guys has already helped.
So catch up with you all later
X x x
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