Artists in Recovery Part 2
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Thank you Snufkin. I drew that years ago when I was feeling pretty helpless.
I guess I’m kind of feeling helpless today too. I rallied and did a little work on a painting. I’m about to continue. It’s helping a bit. I still feel like I’m white-knuckling it through today though. I’ve been quite depressed.
I’m hoping getting some art accomplished will make me feel “worthy” again. Sometimes it has that affect
I guess I’m kind of feeling helpless today too. I rallied and did a little work on a painting. I’m about to continue. It’s helping a bit. I still feel like I’m white-knuckling it through today though. I’ve been quite depressed.
I’m hoping getting some art accomplished will make me feel “worthy” again. Sometimes it has that affect
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I'm having to let go of some resentment....in high school I was on the dance team and my bf at the time came to our recital....all seniors were announced one by one about where we planned on going to college, and I had planned to major in art. After the performance he ridiculed me and made fun of me like "Art??? Really???" and thought it was the funniest thing ever....I didn't realize I let that deflate my self esteem & from then on I never decided on a major 'cause I took his word for it.....not trying to point fingers, it's just a flashback I've had recently & I feel I've let too much time go by in order to pursue it.
Sorry to be a downer, just thought I'd vent a little
Sorry to be a downer, just thought I'd vent a little
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I think it's really important to pinpoint the events that make us hesitate to love ourselves and invest in ourselves.
I had a softball coach who screamed at me over and over again that I was stupid because I was always making my teammates laugh. I was a ham. He froze me in my tracks. My parents didn't stick up for me when I told them how he had lashed out at me. I was 9 years old, and that was one of many small events that made me doubt myself and repeat "stupid" in my head. So destructive.
It's good to voice these incidents, because you deserve validation and giving them air takes a lot of their power away. I believe that holding these things inside and keeping them quiet gives them power. Let it out it can't survive in the open air!
People that don't believe the arts are worth investing in, as the maker or the consumer, are lacking understanding of the universe in my opinion
I had a softball coach who screamed at me over and over again that I was stupid because I was always making my teammates laugh. I was a ham. He froze me in my tracks. My parents didn't stick up for me when I told them how he had lashed out at me. I was 9 years old, and that was one of many small events that made me doubt myself and repeat "stupid" in my head. So destructive.
It's good to voice these incidents, because you deserve validation and giving them air takes a lot of their power away. I believe that holding these things inside and keeping them quiet gives them power. Let it out it can't survive in the open air!
People that don't believe the arts are worth investing in, as the maker or the consumer, are lacking understanding of the universe in my opinion
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I can't stand how people will downgrade others because of their own insecurities....I remember a story of how unpopular Christina Aguilera was in school & no one wanted to acknowledge her talent. I'm not even a fan but I love how she overcame that!
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I finished another painting!!!!! I can't believe it. I sat down and pushed through the first hour of doubt and insecurity and actually did it. I can't remember the last time I finished more than one painting in a year. This is a real big deal. I've been trying to do this one for six months, and I was so intimidated by it, that I couldn't budge sometimes.
I feel pretty proud of myself
I feel pretty proud of myself
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Snufkin, I really enjoy your work too, it is reallllly visceral and textural. I love that it feels channeled straight from you.
I am trying to do a "Halloween-y" illustration for another friend, and you inspired me to focus on that (I think it was the house with all the cats that put me back in that mindset)
I am trying to do a "Halloween-y" illustration for another friend, and you inspired me to focus on that (I think it was the house with all the cats that put me back in that mindset)
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Can't see the file you uploaded Plenny 
If you're worried about your identity here, you can PM me some links, I'd love that! But I understand if you don't want to. 
Thank you so much for feedback on my work! I can't believe my doodles could inspire anyone. I'm a bit overwhelmed with people here liking it so much, I feel like art school killed my spirit...
If you're worried about your identity here, you can PM me some links, I'd love that! But I understand if you don't want to. Thank you so much for feedback on my work! I can't believe my doodles could inspire anyone. I'm a bit overwhelmed with people here liking it so much, I feel like art school killed my spirit...
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Originally Posted by Plenny 
I finished another painting!!!!! I can't believe it. I sat down and pushed through the first hour of doubt and insecurity and actually did it. I can't remember the last time I finished more than one painting in a year. This is a real big deal. I've been trying to do this one for six months, and I was so intimidated by it, that I couldn't budge sometimes.
I feel pretty proud of myself
I feel pretty proud of myself
A happy client is great applause.
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