24Hour Recovery Connections Part 364
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Originally Posted by abcowboy 
"Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead, that is where your future lies." - Ann Launders
6:00am in Alberta, today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
I'll have another 24 please, and thanks...
Thanks for being on top of things Dee!
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Originally Posted by abcowboy
"Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead, that is where your future lies." - Ann Launders
6:00am in Alberta, today is going to be a darn good day not to drink!
I'll have another 24 please, and thanks...
Thanks for being on top of things Dee!
, cowboyAnd another darn good day, indeed! ❤️
,,gatorman
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Originally Posted by WeaverBird
Phoenix, yeah, I'm sure that grande cappuccino tasted sooo good just because it is no longer a mindless habit and I will have to give up something else in order to have it.
I wouldn't like to try that idea with alcohol because I might be tempted with moderation. Sounds like a swear word to me! I suspect that if I were to give up caffeine I'd have to make that 'zero tolerance' too. It's just the way my mind works.
Luv ya
I wouldn't like to try that idea with alcohol because I might be tempted with moderation. Sounds like a swear word to me! I suspect that if I were to give up caffeine I'd have to make that 'zero tolerance' too. It's just the way my mind works.
Luv ya
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This has been a really, really hard day. I went to the shop and ended up buying non-alcoholic beer. It was the best I could do.
I know something important is happening to me but it's incredibly painful. I'm really started to understand how low my self-esteem/worth is. I knew before but now I KNOW. It's interwoven into the fabric of my thinking.
I thought I was alright as I don't call myself names, I know I'm good at my job and a good wife. But these are concious thoughts. It's the unconcious beliefs, the terror at making mistakes and being rejected. I had two amazing days then was flooded with it. It's taken my breath away and I feel devasted for myself. But I know I need to feel it. Not numb it.
I'm sorry for all this and not even being able to respond to anyone just now. I needed to get it out. I came really close to losing it today. Gabe xx
I know something important is happening to me but it's incredibly painful. I'm really started to understand how low my self-esteem/worth is. I knew before but now I KNOW. It's interwoven into the fabric of my thinking.
I thought I was alright as I don't call myself names, I know I'm good at my job and a good wife. But these are concious thoughts. It's the unconcious beliefs, the terror at making mistakes and being rejected. I had two amazing days then was flooded with it. It's taken my breath away and I feel devasted for myself. But I know I need to feel it. Not numb it.
I'm sorry for all this and not even being able to respond to anyone just now. I needed to get it out. I came really close to losing it today. Gabe xx
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Originally Posted by goodbyeevan
Go sayanything!!! 3 weeks!!! Congrats to all the milestoners!!!! Y'all inspire me!
Start my new job tomorrow. During the last year of my drinking I developed a panic disorder due to performance anxiety at work that occasionally has crept up when sober. This job will be much more laid back and I won't have my hands in people's abdomens. I hope the panic stays away.
24 more please 10:49am EST
Start my new job tomorrow. During the last year of my drinking I developed a panic disorder due to performance anxiety at work that occasionally has crept up when sober. This job will be much more laid back and I won't have my hands in people's abdomens. I hope the panic stays away.
24 more please 10:49am EST
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Love, no need to be sorry....at all. 
And oh sweetheart.....if only I could make you believe that this is so so so so normal....that as thinking caring sensitive FEELING people who numbed the pain, yes, it floods out....it comes rushing at us so fast and so hard that it is too much.
When I was first sober, for months I mean.....I cried at the perfection of the sun on the road....a bloody mirage would set me off. It was so so beautiful.
And I couldn't watch sad ads, sad TV AT ALL for like a year....I was always flooded with emotions that were way too big for me.
It settled. Some.
Now I am just overjoyed like a child most of the time.
Sometimes overwhelmed with sadness at events in the world....but better. Much better.
It gets better. It gets easier honey. ♥
And oh sweetheart.....if only I could make you believe that this is so so so so normal....that as thinking caring sensitive FEELING people who numbed the pain, yes, it floods out....it comes rushing at us so fast and so hard that it is too much.
When I was first sober, for months I mean.....I cried at the perfection of the sun on the road....a bloody mirage would set me off. It was so so beautiful.
And I couldn't watch sad ads, sad TV AT ALL for like a year....I was always flooded with emotions that were way too big for me.
It settled. Some.
Now I am just overjoyed like a child most of the time.
Sometimes overwhelmed with sadness at events in the world....but better. Much better.
It gets better. It gets easier honey.
♥
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Originally Posted by goodbyeevan
Go sayanything!!! 3 weeks!!! Congrats to all the milestoners!!!! Y'all inspire me!
Start my new job tomorrow. During the last year of my drinking I developed a panic disorder due to performance anxiety at work that occasionally has crept up when sober. This job will be much more laid back and I won't have my hands in people's abdomens. I hope the panic stays away.
24 more please 10:49am EST
Start my new job tomorrow. During the last year of my drinking I developed a panic disorder due to performance anxiety at work that occasionally has crept up when sober. This job will be much more laid back and I won't have my hands in people's abdomens. I hope the panic stays away.
24 more please 10:49am EST
So so excited for you girl!!!!
This is going to be so good for you.
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