24Hour Recovery Connections Part 364
Ooooooo, nice......never tried that one.....do you mind if I have a coffee instead?
A nice chocolate latte. It's my favourite coffee....yes, going to do it. I have tons to do.....and we need something with chocolate sprinkles for Neoo....
A nice chocolate latte. It's my favourite coffee....yes, going to do it. I have tons to do.....and we need something with chocolate sprinkles for Neoo....
No school today. My friend came over with her 2 boys but these visits are becoming more tiresome each week and when she leaves I feel like I am going to break. I actually did- I had a screaming nervous breakdown full of tears and rage and then I sent both boys to their rooms.
I can't do this anymore. I have cabin fever, I am a burnt out, resentful mom because I don't want this to be my job. I don't enjoy this one bit. I wasn't meant for this- I'm not capable. All I want is to be left alone and instead I am forced to take care of 2 little boys that need everything from me, every minute of the day. I feel like I am going to break apart into a million pieces...
I can't do this anymore. I have cabin fever, I am a burnt out, resentful mom because I don't want this to be my job. I don't enjoy this one bit. I wasn't meant for this- I'm not capable. All I want is to be left alone and instead I am forced to take care of 2 little boys that need everything from me, every minute of the day. I feel like I am going to break apart into a million pieces...
Even though mine are now almost 16 and 11 they still take take take as I suspect they're supposed to. I don't think I ever considered what my parents did for me until I had children of my own.
This phase will pass sweetheart. I remember you were thinking about getting a job? If somehow you can arrange childcare I feel sure it would help you.
Lots of love to you SFL from a fellow mum xxxxx
I try and resist the old caffeine after about 2pm (my only remaining vice haha!).
Anxious. Isolated. Disconnected. Unnerved. Fearful.
Unfortunately all of these and more apply.
I seem to have become separated from my recovery. I'm powering through with the day-to-day but experiencing little of the joys. I'm not quite sure how this has happened but it has. I'm afraid of my own reactions which are way out of proportion and cause upset.
I will of course keep trying. That poison will never drag me back.
24 more please with lots of love xxx
Unfortunately all of these and more apply.
I seem to have become separated from my recovery. I'm powering through with the day-to-day but experiencing little of the joys. I'm not quite sure how this has happened but it has. I'm afraid of my own reactions which are way out of proportion and cause upset.
I will of course keep trying. That poison will never drag me back.
24 more please with lots of love xxx
I'm sorry Jo. What do you think is happening?
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Dear Jo and Sunflower. I am sorry you are both out of sorts. It will pass. I hope the schools are back open tomorrow Sunflower, then you can take time for yourself.
Jo, enjoy your coffee. Stay close to us. This will pass. I agree with Suzy, you are connected to your recovery, that's why you posted. Stay strong.
Love and hugs to you both.
Jo, enjoy your coffee. Stay close to us. This will pass. I agree with Suzy, you are connected to your recovery, that's why you posted. Stay strong.
Love and hugs to you both.
Oh Sunflower you're very brave to admit to us how you're feeling. I've been EXACTLY where you are honey. Small children are tough little creatures! It's a thankless job and very isolating too unless you are the get-up-and-go professional socialising type.
Even though mine are now almost 16 and 11 they still take take take as I suspect they're supposed to. I don't think I ever considered what my parents did for me until I had children of my own.
This phase will pass sweetheart. I remember you were thinking about getting a job? If somehow you can arrange childcare I feel sure it would help you.
Lots of love to you SFL from a fellow mum xxxxx
Even though mine are now almost 16 and 11 they still take take take as I suspect they're supposed to. I don't think I ever considered what my parents did for me until I had children of my own.
This phase will pass sweetheart. I remember you were thinking about getting a job? If somehow you can arrange childcare I feel sure it would help you.
Lots of love to you SFL from a fellow mum xxxxx
I keep looking for work but don't see anything that will make it worth paying $$ for daycare. I am just not taking care of myself- the snow has made me isolate and the isolating furthers my depression and eating disorder. I then get to pile shame and guilt on top of the already growing mound of shame and guilt.
My parents have been out of town for 3 weeks and have 2 more to go so I have zero help at the moment. It's strange but this happens every time they go away. It's like the lack of physical support and just knowing they are a few miles away really hits me hard.
I'm in a dark, dark place and I feel like I am just burying myself deeper by the day.
Having said that, I reached out for help from my Reiki master and will be meeting with him tomorrow evening for some energy work. I cannot wait to feel better. I'm sorry you are struggling too...
Hi everyone. Hi Leigh, Kris, Venus. And everyone. Its 5.05pm here in the UK. I reported feeling down today, yesterday was even worse. BUT I am here to say I feel loads better. Went to AA last night and a SMART meeting this afternoon. It really does help being with like minded people.
Thanks to everyone for posting support.
I am celebrating 11 weeks sober today! Didn't feel much like celebrating this morning but better now. Think it may be fish and chips tonight. mmmmmm
Thank you to everyone on this thread, and this site, I wouldn't be here without you all. I really mean that.
Thanks to everyone for posting support.
I am celebrating 11 weeks sober today! Didn't feel much like celebrating this morning but better now. Think it may be fish and chips tonight. mmmmmm
Thank you to everyone on this thread, and this site, I wouldn't be here without you all. I really mean that.
Dear Jo and Sunflower. I am sorry you are both out of sorts. It will pass. I hope the schools are back open tomorrow Sunflower, then you can take time for yourself.
Jo, enjoy your coffee. Stay close to us. This will pass. I agree with Suzy, you are connected to your recovery, that's why you posted. Stay strong.
Love and hugs to you both.
Jo, enjoy your coffee. Stay close to us. This will pass. I agree with Suzy, you are connected to your recovery, that's why you posted. Stay strong.
Love and hugs to you both.
Love......I am here....we are here....and this is damn hard. You did break today and it hurts....and it's understandable. Little kids are HARD WORK.....and four at once? While you are still stuck inside? No way would I be able to do that and I love kids....nephews...nanny work....but just no....so much coming at you all before you get to put your face in the sun for a bit.
The boys will be OK. Cuddles and snacks.
Right now we need YOU to be OK....a cup of herbal tea....some calming music.....and all of the love we can send. ♥♥
The boys will be OK. Cuddles and snacks.
Right now we need YOU to be OK....a cup of herbal tea....some calming music.....and all of the love we can send. ♥♥
The thing with my friend has become a tradition now- each time there is a snow day and schools are closed, we take turns going to each other's homes. It was fun the first 2 times but since then (It's probably been 6 times now total) I am finding it just exhausting. My youngest does not enjoy having people over, I have to make sure everyone is fed and lately all my friend does it talk about herself. It's just a bomb of energy that I can't seem to manage in my fragile state. I was trying to tell her how depressed I've been and she automatically turns it into how crappy she feels every month during her period. She just doesn't get it. Or maybe I am too needy? I don't even know.
Nope Sunflower my love, you are not too needy.....I am going to sound mean now, but I 86 friends like that....not sure if that means here what it means in Australia....but I have no room or time for people like that. Self-centred. You need friends in your life who care about how YOU are.... ♥
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Sunflower, You are having a bad day and your friend should have supported you. Maybe she just didn't pick up on it. I can see how that just added to your bad feelings. A friend just talking about herself is not a friend. I used to have one like that, she was lovely but always turned things back to her. Like you I could tolerate it MOST of the time. Today is not one of those days for you. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You can't help the blooming snow, or the demanding kids. I hope you get to that movie tonight. Big hugs. xxx
Nope Sunflower my love, you are not too needy.....I am going to sound mean now, but I 86 friends like that....not sure if that means here what it means in Australia....but I have no room or time for people like that. Self-centred. You need friends in your life who care about how YOU are.... ♥
The day I told her I was coming to terms with the fact that my marriage was over she sympathized for about 30 seconds and then turned it into a conversation about her and her husband (who she gets along really well with.) I was so hurt but I brushed it off. My best friend who truly listens and offers advice lives in Florida
Sunflower, You are having a bad day and your friend should have supported you. Maybe she just didn't pick up on it. I can see how that just added to your bad feelings. A friend just talking about herself is not a friend. I used to have one like that, she was lovely but always turned things back to her. Like you I could tolerate it MOST of the time. Today is not one of those days for you. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You can't help the blooming snow, or the demanding kids. I hope you get to that movie tonight. Big hugs. xxx
Well, perhaps you can tell her how you feel.....she may not even realise she is doing it (turning the conversation back to her), you never know. It could end up that she will be a really awesome support for you love.
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