Class of August 2017 Part 6
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Class of August 2017 Part 6
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A new thread! Hey y’all !!
I’m back, still making meetings about once a week ( not enough), life’s ok. I’m learning that “to those much is given, a lot is asked.” I have to focus on one day at a time, or I’m in a bad way. Lol.
So very good to see you all.
((((( BIG hugs)))))
I’m back, still making meetings about once a week ( not enough), life’s ok. I’m learning that “to those much is given, a lot is asked.” I have to focus on one day at a time, or I’m in a bad way. Lol.
So very good to see you all.
((((( BIG hugs)))))
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Originally Posted by stargazer016 
Hey Dee, we need a new link for the new POST thread. You tacked this link onto that thread, lol! Thanks!
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New thread for the new season, thanks Dee! I have a 10 day break after work today, hopefully the weather will be decent. Longest winter ever, or it feels like it anyway! Good for you with the couch to 10 Dec, I’ll hopefully get more excercise in in springtime. Have a great day everyone
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Enjoy the hols Lily.
I have a 10k this weekend too Dec.
I started jogging a couple of weeks ago and it really is great. It is absolutely horrible when you think and ponder putting on the gear and going out but once your out and you just plod along it is really fantastic.
The hardest part is thinking about it
I have a 10k this weekend too Dec.
I started jogging a couple of weeks ago and it really is great. It is absolutely horrible when you think and ponder putting on the gear and going out but once your out and you just plod along it is really fantastic.
The hardest part is thinking about it
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Hello everyone,
It’s difficult for me to be posting here again after yet another failure.... and as always I considered not to log in on here ever again, but I really want to get better. I was doing so well and I was proud of my sober time, going to meetings and how I’m trying to cope with my anxiety but last Friday something very, very upsetting happened to me... and instead of reaching for help I decided to drink. Well, you know the rest. ‘One drink’ turned into a 7-day bender. Yesterday I felt so disgusted and exhausted with all this I threw away my remaining bottles, but today I literally digged through my rubbish bins to find them - now how f***** up is this? I had another GP appointment today. I was too anxious to say anything but my doc seemed concerned because of some of my answers on that online CBT thing (tbh I thought it’s confidential and was kinda shocked to find out it’s not heh) and she doubled dose on my antidepressants. It’s not gonna help if I keep drinking, I know as much... I’m so tired and I hate myself for making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
It’s difficult for me to be posting here again after yet another failure.... and as always I considered not to log in on here ever again, but I really want to get better. I was doing so well and I was proud of my sober time, going to meetings and how I’m trying to cope with my anxiety but last Friday something very, very upsetting happened to me... and instead of reaching for help I decided to drink. Well, you know the rest. ‘One drink’ turned into a 7-day bender. Yesterday I felt so disgusted and exhausted with all this I threw away my remaining bottles, but today I literally digged through my rubbish bins to find them - now how f***** up is this? I had another GP appointment today. I was too anxious to say anything but my doc seemed concerned because of some of my answers on that online CBT thing (tbh I thought it’s confidential and was kinda shocked to find out it’s not heh) and she doubled dose on my antidepressants. It’s not gonna help if I keep drinking, I know as much... I’m so tired and I hate myself for making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
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Originally Posted by Snufkin
Hello everyone,
It’s difficult for me to be posting here again after yet another failure.... and as always I considered not to log in on here ever again, but I really want to get better. I was doing so well and I was proud of my sober time, going to meetings and how I’m trying to cope with my anxiety but last Friday something very, very upsetting happened to me... and instead of reaching for help I decided to drink. Well, you know the rest. ‘One drink’ turned into a 7-day bender. Yesterday I felt so disgusted and exhausted with all this I threw away my remaining bottles, but today I literally digged through my rubbish bins to find them - now how f***** up is this? I had another GP appointment today. I was too anxious to say anything but my doc seemed concerned because of some of my answers on that online CBT thing (tbh I thought it’s confidential and was kinda shocked to find out it’s not heh) and she doubled dose on my antidepressants. It’s not gonna help if I keep drinking, I know as much... I’m so tired and I hate myself for making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
It’s difficult for me to be posting here again after yet another failure.... and as always I considered not to log in on here ever again, but I really want to get better. I was doing so well and I was proud of my sober time, going to meetings and how I’m trying to cope with my anxiety but last Friday something very, very upsetting happened to me... and instead of reaching for help I decided to drink. Well, you know the rest. ‘One drink’ turned into a 7-day bender. Yesterday I felt so disgusted and exhausted with all this I threw away my remaining bottles, but today I literally digged through my rubbish bins to find them - now how f***** up is this? I had another GP appointment today. I was too anxious to say anything but my doc seemed concerned because of some of my answers on that online CBT thing (tbh I thought it’s confidential and was kinda shocked to find out it’s not heh) and she doubled dose on my antidepressants. It’s not gonna help if I keep drinking, I know as much... I’m so tired and I hate myself for making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
I had a bad relapse in summer, but the lessons i learned from it helped me a lot staying sober afterwards...
You said you were going to meetings? Did you get a sponsor and start working the steps too? If not, i highly recommend it, that was what really made a change for me... I used to just go to meetings too and think I did well, but all of a sudden i found myself on a 2 week binge, and lost everything... When i finally got back into an aa meeting, I asked a guy right away to sponsor me and help me through the steps... really did wonders to how i feel and how i manage my life
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Originally Posted by Snufkin
Thanks Tyger. Yeah I guess you’re right - I’m usually so anxious at the meetings I’m just proud of myself for ‘being there’, but I don’t really work the steps. Eh.
Or in his car heading to meetings in other towns.and i never felt doing the steps was hard, actually i found it quite enjoyable and most of all relieving. I pretty much just did exactly what my sponsor told me or what the book said without thinking because I know if i started to overthink it I would go off in the wrong direction - and frankly I was so fed up with the debating inside my own head I was tired of listening to myself
I bet most my friends were fed up listening to my drunken babble when I was drinking, but most of all I was fed up debating everything with myself - so I just did what I was told, and it surely worked wonders for me
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Snufs, the fact that you really want to get better is really important. To me it's like step 1...where you admitted you were powerless over alcohol and your life had become unmanageable. Whether or not you ascribe to the 12-steps it's a pretty significant place to be, as you know what you're dealing with and want to heal. Also your continuing to see your GP and going to meetings are really huge. Keep fighting and trying to reach out to those folks that are at the meetings...they were right where you are now for sure. Be careful with the antideps and alcohol...they don't mix too well...trust me, I know 
Dec...couch-to-5k would be my goto if I were jogging again (the knees are complaining when I do though) ...I might've said it before but that's a solid choice to get motivated. Always hated the jump from week 3-4
Lily-hope you're able to take advantage of some better weather there on your break. It'll do wonders for the soul I'm certain
Tyger--that's a really cool piece of artwork man! I agree quite peaceful indeed.
Vinny--good on you as well with the running. Fitness is a major factor in my sobriety now...can say enough of how staying active helps my mood and spirit.
Purps, Dee and all....take good care
Todd.
Dec...couch-to-5k would be my goto if I were jogging again (the knees are complaining when I do though) ...I might've said it before but that's a solid choice to get motivated. Always hated the jump from week 3-4
Lily-hope you're able to take advantage of some better weather there on your break. It'll do wonders for the soul I'm certain
Tyger--that's a really cool piece of artwork man! I agree quite peaceful indeed.
Vinny--good on you as well with the running. Fitness is a major factor in my sobriety now...can say enough of how staying active helps my mood and spirit.
Purps, Dee and all....take good care
Todd.
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