Class of March 2016 part 65
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Well back to day 1 tomorrow. I can not believe the crap my sister is trying to pull with my mothers estate......in fact I don’t even know what all she is trying to pull because we can’t get any answers out of her. Stupid reason to drink but I did. 😡
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Originally Posted by 1stepup 
Hi all!, its been a while.....its been that long that I'm still getting used to the new layout- when did that change!? Anyway lots has happened. Mostly bad, and haven't managed more than 10 dry days in the past year. On a positive note I've Finally,after 10 months been granted the funds for rehab- I go next Monday. I've posted on newcomers page more details but just hoping to stay close to this site until I go, need to be sober to go and really want this long term sobriety that I haven't given up on yet. X
Lillian
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Hey 13th
I didn't want to quit. My life was crap but it was familiar vrap. I knew the parameters.
I could just about cover my butt with regards the consequences of my drinking... so to me there was no real urgency for me to quit.
Alcoholism's progressive tho - things , quite suddenly, got worse.
I think that happens to everyone sooner or later.
If you're lucky like me you come out the other side.
I have known some of the unlucky ones no longer here to tell their tale.
I certainty don't want you to be one of the unlucky ones.
In the end, there's no real complexity to getting sober - you gotta put more into bailing out your boat than you let water in....
I still hope that something will prod you to start making active decisions about becoming sober and staying that way.
I believe you have a lot to offer, man
D
I didn't want to quit. My life was crap but it was familiar vrap. I knew the parameters.
I could just about cover my butt with regards the consequences of my drinking... so to me there was no real urgency for me to quit.
Alcoholism's progressive tho - things , quite suddenly, got worse.
I think that happens to everyone sooner or later.
If you're lucky like me you come out the other side.
I have known some of the unlucky ones no longer here to tell their tale.
I certainty don't want you to be one of the unlucky ones.
In the end, there's no real complexity to getting sober - you gotta put more into bailing out your boat than you let water in....
I still hope that something will prod you to start making active decisions about becoming sober and staying that way.
I believe you have a lot to offer, man
D
Day 7 for me. I stumbled very badly last week at a company retreat. Dangerous combo for me: nice hotel, wanting to fit in, fine wine. Ugh. I drank for 12 hours straight. What the heck?
No more out of town business events on the schedule for awhile.
I really want to bail outta of this boat.
Onward. Not going to give up because one bad day.
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(((PeacefulRain))) Thanks for posting.....we get back on the horse, right? We've got this! 
(((Lillian))) (((Sam)))
Let's all stay close......I need to especially with the weekend approaching....AV has been whispering, but I have to keep playing the tape through to how I felt the next day and how unproductive it is.
(((March Class 2016)))
(((Lillian)))
(((Sam))) Let's all stay close......I need to especially with the weekend approaching....AV has been whispering, but I have to keep playing the tape through to how I felt the next day and how unproductive it is.
(((March Class 2016)))
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Welcome back PeacefulRain, Sam and Lillian.
I'm glad if my words help - I think it really is about working harder to stay sober than we do to stay drinking.
The other thing to remember of course is that drinking might seem like the answer - sometimes it may even seem like the only answer - but thats the biggest lie of all.
Get well soon Casey
D
I'm glad if my words help - I think it really is about working harder to stay sober than we do to stay drinking.
The other thing to remember of course is that drinking might seem like the answer - sometimes it may even seem like the only answer - but thats the biggest lie of all.
Get well soon Casey
D
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Morning all
Tired. That’s my word for today. Tired physically. Tired emotionally. Tired spiritually. I have exhausted every tool in my toolbelt and it stil didn’t work in the end. Unsure what to do with that.
For the past two weeks I have struggled daily. The “will she” or “won’t she” battle. And 13 out of 14 times I won. Ugh. Doesn’t really matter in the end.
Therapy today - which is good. Time to mess with my meds I’m sure. Which scares the life out of me. Always darkest before the dawn I guess.
Okay sorry for the downer post. Guess it reflects my current headspace.
Love you guys.
Tired. That’s my word for today. Tired physically. Tired emotionally. Tired spiritually. I have exhausted every tool in my toolbelt and it stil didn’t work in the end. Unsure what to do with that.
For the past two weeks I have struggled daily. The “will she” or “won’t she” battle. And 13 out of 14 times I won. Ugh. Doesn’t really matter in the end.
Therapy today - which is good. Time to mess with my meds I’m sure. Which scares the life out of me. Always darkest before the dawn I guess.
Okay sorry for the downer post. Guess it reflects my current headspace.
Love you guys.
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Originally Posted by CaseyW
To everyone struggling, keep checking in. Fall down 99 times, get up 100, right?
Lillian, PR - glad you're here. Here is the best place to be.
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Good freaking morning.
Sorry about what you're going through with your sister, PR. Hugs
Lillian - tough stuff that's for sure. Pretty sure I couldn't have come out on the other side unscathed. Glad you don't have any work stuff coming up and you can focus on you.
Sam - it hurts to see you hurting. Hope your dr. can figure stuff out for you.
Casey - glad you're getting better.
BBG - have an awesome day!
Purple - hope life is good in your neck of the woods. Stay close.
PHX - your art room is the most important. The best for last.
Hey Dee.
Wishing peace to all my March people. Have the best day ever! Love you guys.
Sorry about what you're going through with your sister, PR. Hugs
Lillian - tough stuff that's for sure. Pretty sure I couldn't have come out on the other side unscathed. Glad you don't have any work stuff coming up and you can focus on you.
Sam - it hurts to see you hurting. Hope your dr. can figure stuff out for you.
Casey - glad you're getting better.
BBG - have an awesome day!
Purple - hope life is good in your neck of the woods. Stay close.
PHX - your art room is the most important. The best for last.
Hey Dee.
Wishing peace to all my March people. Have the best day ever! Love you guys.
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Hi gang, and welcome back 1stepup!! Nice to see LillianGish around more, too!!
Sam and PR - nice job coming back. We all know where you are coming from. Sometimes, no matter how many tools we have in that tool belt, we seem to be missing the one tool we need for the job - sometimes, we don't even know what the tool is - and sometimes, we just get tired of putting that tool belt on. I supposed that doesn't make anything better, but that's how I feel sometimes.
At the moment, I've been very busy with work which is keeping on the good path. It's not a long-term solution though, as I've learned in the past. It does allow me to more-or-less ignore my problem, an easy and dangerous behavior. I need to get back to work on my sobriety and build some more sober muscles.
PJ, hope the move is going okay in the heat - so very glad for you my friend.
Casey, good to hear you are on the mend.
BBG, Bobbie, V and everyone else - thanks for being here!
Sam and PR - nice job coming back. We all know where you are coming from. Sometimes, no matter how many tools we have in that tool belt, we seem to be missing the one tool we need for the job - sometimes, we don't even know what the tool is - and sometimes, we just get tired of putting that tool belt on. I supposed that doesn't make anything better, but that's how I feel sometimes.
At the moment, I've been very busy with work which is keeping on the good path. It's not a long-term solution though, as I've learned in the past. It does allow me to more-or-less ignore my problem, an easy and dangerous behavior. I need to get back to work on my sobriety and build some more sober muscles.
PJ, hope the move is going okay in the heat - so very glad for you my friend.
Casey, good to hear you are on the mend.
BBG, Bobbie, V and everyone else - thanks for being here!
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Originally Posted by LillianGish
Thank you for this post Dee. As usual, it touches me.
Day 7 for me. I stumbled very badly last week at a company retreat. Dangerous combo for me: nice hotel, wanting to fit in, fine wine. Ugh. I drank for 12 hours straight. What the heck?
No more out of town business events on the schedule for awhile.
I really want to bail outta of this boat.
Onward. Not going to give up because one bad day.
Day 7 for me. I stumbled very badly last week at a company retreat. Dangerous combo for me: nice hotel, wanting to fit in, fine wine. Ugh. I drank for 12 hours straight. What the heck?
No more out of town business events on the schedule for awhile.
I really want to bail outta of this boat.
Onward. Not going to give up because one bad day.
I'm sorry last week got tough. Just really really glad to have you back with us.
And PR honey ~ errr......all of the reasons to drink are kind of stupid when you're an alcoholic, and we have all done that....this stuff, a parent's estate is VERY VERY stressful....advice from a friend who cares is get a mediator. Either a professional or a family friend that you all trust....
So this Thursday is an extra-special one: we have a few of us getting back on track and we are all here for each other. And I feel another miracle headed this way....unlike my little sojourn into fantasy in the Weekenders Dee, this is not ego....this is a feeling that something is coming.....something really good.
Need more coffee. Lots to do. Love to all of the wonderful people in this class.
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Hey guys! I’m doing ok. My little one got in bed with me early this morning and went back to sleep until 9....Woo hoo I got to sleep in.
Yeah a mediator might be a good idea. I can not believe I’m even dealing with this. I would have expected this from my older sister but not my younger one.
Well dealing with that crap last night I didn’t get to make my Fettuccine Alfredo so National Fettuccine Alfredo day has been rescheduled to today 😁 👍🏻 That actually works it better so hubby can be here for it.
Yeah a mediator might be a good idea. I can not believe I’m even dealing with this. I would have expected this from my older sister but not my younger one.
Well dealing with that crap last night I didn’t get to make my Fettuccine Alfredo so National Fettuccine Alfredo day has been rescheduled to today 😁 👍🏻 That actually works it better so hubby can be here for it.
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Originally Posted by venuscat
I have been calling you in my mind....willing your gorgeous avatar to show up. I am so glad you did honey.
I'm sorry last week got tough. Just really really glad to have you back with us.
And PR honey ~ errr......all of the reasons to drink are kind of stupid when you're an alcoholic, and we have all done that....this stuff, a parent's estate is VERY VERY stressful....advice from a friend who cares is get a mediator. Either a professional or a family friend that you all trust....
So this Thursday is an extra-special one: we have a few of us getting back on track and we are all here for each other. And I feel another miracle headed this way....unlike my little sojourn into fantasy in the Weekenders Dee, this is not ego....this is a feeling that something is coming.....something really good.
Need more coffee. Lots to do. Love to all of the wonderful people in this class.
I'm sorry last week got tough. Just really really glad to have you back with us.
And PR honey ~ errr......all of the reasons to drink are kind of stupid when you're an alcoholic, and we have all done that....this stuff, a parent's estate is VERY VERY stressful....advice from a friend who cares is get a mediator. Either a professional or a family friend that you all trust....
So this Thursday is an extra-special one: we have a few of us getting back on track and we are all here for each other. And I feel another miracle headed this way....unlike my little sojourn into fantasy in the Weekenders Dee, this is not ego....this is a feeling that something is coming.....something really good.
Need more coffee. Lots to do. Love to all of the wonderful people in this class.
Coffee, yes! Tipping a cuppa joe to you right now.
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