stargazer016

Merry Christmas everyone!

Dee74

Hope you all had a great day

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Angie247

Hope everyone had a nice holiday. . I’m currently in the parking lot at a grocery store trying to get nerve to go get something for the end of month potluck at AA today. I’m feeling a good bit of anxiety but I know I’ll be okay. Really tried to talk myself out of going but I decided on opposite action today. I just have to go in and get a couple things but I’d much rather be home with Bella. I don’t have Alex this weekend and it’s gotten me down. My therapist really wants me to work on not getting so depressed when he’s with his dad. I’ll try.

Angie247

Okay, so I got the potluck stuff and I’m at the AA parking lot. I just have to go in. Also, 19 month sober tomorrow! Yay! Feeling better. Just have to interact with people. This is doable,

Angie247

So, my old sponsor got at me at this meeting. Pretty much said I was a bad parent because I didn’t want to bring Alex to AA meetings. Said Alex needed to see me at meetings. That’s my decision and she can . . . well, it’s not nice. So, I’ll get up and go to early 6:30 meetings on days that I don’t have Alex until I get out of group therapy and don’t have to go to AA anymore. I need to calm down so I’ll go for a walk.

Dee74

I agree thats crossing a line, Angie.
I'm glad you're changing your meeting.

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Angie247

Thanks Dee. I’m calming down. She doesn’t go to 6:30 meetings and I can be safe there. I’m a mild mannered person (usually) and she was saying that in front of people and I finally told her that it was my decision but she kept on. She’s a very blunt person who loves to talk over people and I can’t handle that in my life if I can help it. There’s got to be a sponsor who will guide me without me wanting to avoid them because I can’t talk to them.

venuscat

Oh gosh Angie.....I know I don't usually say things like this....but please message me.....please let me help. I don't like how these women are constantly letting you down by being judgemental or by telling you what to do.....I just want to be a friend for you who can support you through the every-day stuff: this is what a sponsor is supposed to do honey....care and support.....

You are doing a great job with Alex. And yourself. I am all sorts of impressed. Bet your mom is as well. So let's just be all for you here....not letting these negative people in anymore. ♥♥

Daisybelle

Hi Angie
I hope you had a good holiday too. It sort of came and went for me, I took my tree and decorations down today and it strangely feels like Christmas was ages ago.
You did really well going into the store and you also did really well going into your meeting. It's hard to walk in these places alone, you're stronger than you know. 19 months sober is awesome, congratulations, I can't wait until I've been sober that long.
I have to say that I don't like your ex sponsor, she comes over as an opinionated bully. She is very rude, don't lose any sleep over her or over what she said, she just isn't worth it. You come over to me as being a good, loving mum, you wouldn't be so concerned about your Alex if you weren't.
Don't lose heart, you will find the right sponsor for you eventually and please, please message Venuscat, what have you got to lose, she is caring, understands how it is and has bags of empathy. Go on, do it, message her.
Lots of love to you. xxxxx

venuscat

Just need to say that Daisy has all the common sense....saying it clearly.
You are really wonderful Daisy girl..... xx ♥♥

venuscat

LOLOLOL....now I read the rest of Daisy's message and it sounds like I am saying she has common sense for thinking that I have common sense....hmmm.....well, on second thought, maybe that's not such a bad thing....

Daisybelle

Ha ha Venus cat and thank you. We must both have common sense. xxx

stargazer016

That lady is so over the top, Angie. I bet a lot of your group wishes she would just go away. She probably has driven more people away from AA than she ever helped. I am glad you found another meeting time where she won't be around.

Congrats on 19 months!

Have a safe New Year's all!

venuscat

I do believe it's someone's soberversary today???



Angie love. ♥

Angie247

Thank you all so much and venuscat, I will message you. Thank you! I have been a bit stressed out from the old sponsor so I had to ask someone for help so she’d leave me alone. I asked a long time member to ask her to please give me space and she has. Dealing with Alex’s dad hasn’t been a picnic but I’m trying to take it one day at a time and not get overwhelmed. That’s pretty much where I’m at now. Hanging in there and still sober.

venuscat

So much love honey....yes, please message.
Been a stressful time for me too....but always thinking of you. ❤️

Daisybelle

Good afternoon Angie, lovely to see you back posting and I hope you do send a message to the lovely Venuscat.
I'm sorry you've been stressed over your old sponsor but I'm glad you've done something about it, no one has the right to stress you out.
One day at a time is the way to go, the only way. Take care. xx

stargazer016

Glad to see you posting again Angie and working through the problems facing you in a sober manner.

You have come such a long way!

Angie247

Thank you guys. I’m sitting here in my car, two hours ago, I had an interaction with Alex’s dad and I thought he’d be mad and he wasn’t. My body has gone into some kind of shut down mode, I feel afraid and confused and the tears have started. I’m going to group therapy today and I’ll talk to my therapist one on one or in group because I adore the women in the group and feel safe with them like I feel safe here. Thank you all so much for being here.

Dee74

It took me a long time not to feel sick whenever I had a confrontation or thought I might.

I'm glad you have a group and a therapist to talk to,. Angie

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