The Power Of Sobriety Thread (POST!) #5
Quit 4/17/15
Join Date: Jul 2015
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Up at 1:20 am for a very early day at work. Ugh!
Thank goodness I was not drinking last night and don't have a hangover this morning. I would never be able to do this.
Gilmer, congrats on four years and four months!
Have a great day all!
Thank goodness I was not drinking last night and don't have a hangover this morning. I would never be able to do this.
Gilmer, congrats on four years and four months!
Have a great day all!
non-drinker
Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Milwaukee, Wisconsin, USA
Posts: 13,841
Gil, congrats on 4 & 4!
Am making solid progress on my next 2 book projects. It's nice when I'm not under a hard deadline. The Country Singles book is a personal favorite of mine to work on. Don't have to deal with any hardcore rap for this one!
Have a great Friday, gang!
Am making solid progress on my next 2 book projects. It's nice when I'm not under a hard deadline. The Country Singles book is a personal favorite of mine to work on. Don't have to deal with any hardcore rap for this one!
Have a great Friday, gang!
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: New England, USA
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Fbl - Do you listen to music while researching and preparing books about music?
Courage - We haven’t heard from you in a while. I hope all is well and you are enjoying the glimmer of sun today.
Gil - Congrats on the milestone. What you have shared here in sobriety has been a real benefit to me. I’m grateful to be on this journey with you.
Sg - I don’t know how you work those crazy shifts!!!!
Carlos - Have fun this weekend!!
It’s a long weekend of kids hockey this weekend. It can be a serenity zapper for me. Oh well sometimes you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do!
Courage - We haven’t heard from you in a while. I hope all is well and you are enjoying the glimmer of sun today.
Gil - Congrats on the milestone. What you have shared here in sobriety has been a real benefit to me. I’m grateful to be on this journey with you.
Sg - I don’t know how you work those crazy shifts!!!!
Carlos - Have fun this weekend!!
It’s a long weekend of kids hockey this weekend. It can be a serenity zapper for me. Oh well sometimes you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do!
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: NYC
Posts: 19,042
Hello POST -- it's very friendly & thank you all for looking out for me.
Life is pretty stressful. Meltdown-ways & days, with hand-holding tearfully sputtering colleagues, and smiling into snake-eyes knowing that my own eyes don't look as bright. Good insights into what (it turns out) I actually do care about and who are the "us" with common values. Though care has no authority and each of us will end up being for himself. I'm not losing my job but it does look like my job is going off into a corner to bang its head against the wall.
I wake up with my slug, my mind roils throughout the day, and I'm talked-out by nighttime. So when would I post?
Not drinking. I would if I could, and I wish that I could, but I can't so I don't & won't.
Will catch up on reading your good and I-hope-no-bad news right away. Have good nights or days, all.
Life is pretty stressful. Meltdown-ways & days, with hand-holding tearfully sputtering colleagues, and smiling into snake-eyes knowing that my own eyes don't look as bright. Good insights into what (it turns out) I actually do care about and who are the "us" with common values. Though care has no authority and each of us will end up being for himself. I'm not losing my job but it does look like my job is going off into a corner to bang its head against the wall.
I wake up with my slug, my mind roils throughout the day, and I'm talked-out by nighttime. So when would I post?
Not drinking. I would if I could, and I wish that I could, but I can't so I don't & won't.
Will catch up on reading your good and I-hope-no-bad news right away. Have good nights or days, all.
Quit 4/17/15
Join Date: Jul 2015
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Good luck at the tournaments Glee. I hope the parents don't use St. Pat's day as an excuse to over imbibe all weekend.
Courage, sorry life is throwing you nothing but curve balls. Good work staying on the straight and narrow.
FBL, I am glad that you are working in a somewhat less stressful environment currently.
Hi Gilmer!
Glad that I will be done work by 4:00 today. My store is next to a liquor store, and with St Pat's falling on a Saturday, it will be total amateur night today. Not quite as bad as NYE, but close.
Stay the course and stay safe everyone!
Courage, sorry life is throwing you nothing but curve balls. Good work staying on the straight and narrow.
FBL, I am glad that you are working in a somewhat less stressful environment currently.
Hi Gilmer!
Glad that I will be done work by 4:00 today. My store is next to a liquor store, and with St Pat's falling on a Saturday, it will be total amateur night today. Not quite as bad as NYE, but close.
Stay the course and stay safe everyone!
non-drinker
Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Milwaukee, Wisconsin, USA
Posts: 13,841
Originally Posted by gleefan 
Fbl - Do you listen to music while researching and preparing books about music?
Courage
I'm going to my third sports card show in as many weeks on Sunday. I'm really getting into it now. Reliving my childhood all over again!
Have a great weekend, all!
p***enger
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: NYC
Posts: 19,042
All those posts with joy in them helped! Thank you for being a great crew 
Del, I hope you get the job!
Carlos -- still a little confused by your identification quandary, but maybe it's this simple: don't tell a first date (or a 3rd) or a familiar client that you're an alcoholic. Do remind yourself.
Glee -- serene. Calgon, take thee away!
Gilmer, rock on!
Del, I hope you get the job!
Carlos -- still a little confused by your identification quandary, but maybe it's this simple: don't tell a first date (or a 3rd) or a familiar client that you're an alcoholic. Do remind yourself.
Glee -- serene. Calgon, take thee away!
Gilmer, rock on!
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Cour 
Thanks for all the positive vibes guys!
I started yesterday. Lots of kicking dirt right now waiting to start my training and get myself out on the sales floor. I loved it though! Great huge team, lots of support, I am really excited to see where this new path will take me and how much I can achieve. So it's good stuff. And they are so flexible with schedule, so I am still able to pick my kids up and drop them off from school and daycare.
So far, things are great, and I am SO grateful to be working!!
I love coming back to this corner. There is so much positive energy here.
Courage, You sound so worn out. Have you had a decent break recently?
I kind of feel like the air has been sucked out of the room tonight. I don't know, I think I am just tired, things are changing again. I look back on some things and I realize I handled them poorly. There's that stupid overlap when you're caught between sober and relapse that mistakes and poor judgment happen. Nothing really bad. It amounts to emotional regulation, which I have always struggled with. I can't take threats and harassment, even if they are pretty petty and benign. I am so sad about cutting the kids out of my life, but not their parents.
I don't know how I can rectify it, if ever, with the kids.
It doesn't matter on some level, what's done is done and it was for the best for me and my kids. I know we will run into the families around town.
I am getting my I-don't-give-a-F mental fingers out for the parents if they choose to pick fights. I won't be shy with the kids if I see them.
Anyhow. Drama level is fairly low, the excitement of new job followed by a day of babysitting has left me deflated.
Happy Saint Patrick's Day, luck o the Irish to you and all.
Ugggh. All that does is make me think of drinking.
Thanks for all the positive vibes guys!
I started yesterday. Lots of kicking dirt right now waiting to start my training and get myself out on the sales floor. I loved it though! Great huge team, lots of support, I am really excited to see where this new path will take me and how much I can achieve. So it's good stuff. And they are so flexible with schedule, so I am still able to pick my kids up and drop them off from school and daycare.
So far, things are great, and I am SO grateful to be working!!
I love coming back to this corner. There is so much positive energy here.
Courage, You sound so worn out. Have you had a decent break recently?
I kind of feel like the air has been sucked out of the room tonight. I don't know, I think I am just tired, things are changing again. I look back on some things and I realize I handled them poorly. There's that stupid overlap when you're caught between sober and relapse that mistakes and poor judgment happen. Nothing really bad. It amounts to emotional regulation, which I have always struggled with. I can't take threats and harassment, even if they are pretty petty and benign. I am so sad about cutting the kids out of my life, but not their parents.
I don't know how I can rectify it, if ever, with the kids.
It doesn't matter on some level, what's done is done and it was for the best for me and my kids. I know we will run into the families around town.
I am getting my I-don't-give-a-F mental fingers out for the parents if they choose to pick fights. I won't be shy with the kids if I see them.
Anyhow. Drama level is fairly low, the excitement of new job followed by a day of babysitting has left me deflated.
Happy Saint Patrick's Day, luck o the Irish to you and all.
Ugggh. All that does is make me think of drinking.
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Cour, I am sorry that your work environment has become so stressful. That sucks. My guess and hope are that you are working with some rather intelligent folks and their separation may be the start of something better for them, and you can press on to create some memorable headbanging music.
There is a level that is that simple for non-drinker vs alkie. I still need to find it. Simple doesn't always equate to easy. One of my race teammates yesterday is an amazing athlete. She rocks her way through the many quite difficult physical challenges we face the best of all of us. Yet, the one obstacle that she fears requires no physical capability. After scaling this wall all that's left is to jump like 25 ft into dark waters unknown. People tell her it's easy, over in a second, nothing will happen...all in one ear and out the other as she stands there feeling her heartbeat 100mph. I told her none of that as I stood next to her...only that I was there for support and wasn't ready until she was. Finally, after a few minutes, I suggested we take a couple running steps vs standing on the edge, A few seconds later we were flying through the air. What changed - I don't know? Simple task - not easy.
FBL, I wish I would add more music to my days. Haha, it's not like it doesn't work, like always. I did send for a set of wireless earbuds a couple days ago to use in the office. Hey, enjoy the card show.
DZ, congrats on that job. Good luck with the training program.
Star, yes, St Pat's is a drinking fest, yet, I had dinner with 7 others after our race and a few with some Irish in them...not one drink ordered. Hope that you are enjoying a day off.
Glee, haha, a real hockey serenity weekend zapper is one where you get drunk and bok in the hotel room during the night. You've come a long way, baby!
GG, congrats on the 52...good stuff.
Yesterday was a perfect day, like 80-no humidity. The Savage Race was grueling, as always. One of our new teammates said that it was tougher than anything she did in boot camp in the service. I have cuts and bruises all over and walked with a pronounced limp from a right knee ache after the race. So, was it my last as I said it would be?? - heck no - we all signed up for November right after the race. Epsom salt bath worked wonders last night and feeling kinda okay this morning.
Have a great Sunday, all.
Carlos
There is a level that is that simple for non-drinker vs alkie. I still need to find it. Simple doesn't always equate to easy. One of my race teammates yesterday is an amazing athlete. She rocks her way through the many quite difficult physical challenges we face the best of all of us. Yet, the one obstacle that she fears requires no physical capability. After scaling this wall all that's left is to jump like 25 ft into dark waters unknown. People tell her it's easy, over in a second, nothing will happen...all in one ear and out the other as she stands there feeling her heartbeat 100mph. I told her none of that as I stood next to her...only that I was there for support and wasn't ready until she was. Finally, after a few minutes, I suggested we take a couple running steps vs standing on the edge, A few seconds later we were flying through the air. What changed - I don't know? Simple task - not easy.
FBL, I wish I would add more music to my days. Haha, it's not like it doesn't work, like always. I did send for a set of wireless earbuds a couple days ago to use in the office. Hey, enjoy the card show.
DZ, congrats on that job. Good luck with the training program.
Star, yes, St Pat's is a drinking fest, yet, I had dinner with 7 others after our race and a few with some Irish in them...not one drink ordered. Hope that you are enjoying a day off.
Glee, haha, a real hockey serenity weekend zapper is one where you get drunk and bok in the hotel room during the night. You've come a long way, baby!
GG, congrats on the 52...good stuff.
Yesterday was a perfect day, like 80-no humidity. The Savage Race was grueling, as always. One of our new teammates said that it was tougher than anything she did in boot camp in the service. I have cuts and bruises all over and walked with a pronounced limp from a right knee ache after the race. So, was it my last as I said it would be?? - heck no - we all signed up for November right after the race. Epsom salt bath worked wonders last night and feeling kinda okay this morning.
Have a great Sunday, all.
Carlos
non-drinker
Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Milwaukee, Wisconsin, USA
Posts: 13,841
Was yesterday some sort of drinking holiday?!? For the last 10 years of my "drinking career" every day was St. Patty's day.
I don't drink alcohol, therefore I consider myself a non-drinker. The whys are no longer important. Happy. Joyous, Free.
For the last 10 years of my "drinking career" every day was St. Patty's day.I don't drink alcohol, therefore I consider myself a non-drinker. The whys are no longer important. Happy. Joyous, Free.
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